Alex Pov
I want my fucking coat back. I've gotten pretty tired of staring at my bare chest all the time. I've also read Animal Farm an unholy amount of times in the past two weeks.
John comes into my room everyday and talks to me which is nice. Tom and Ed come every Wednesday, Friday and Sunday.

I was about to start reading Animal Farm for the ten millionth time when the door opened.

And guess who fucking walked in?

Angelica alongside her sister Eliza.

"Heard you were sick,"
Eliza said sitting down.

"..Who told you?"
I asked.

"They did this cancer pep rally thing at school and word got around they did it because a kid got cancer. It didn't take long before people put two and two together and realized the kid who was missing school for over two months had cancer." Angelica said.

I raised an eyebrow, wiping my nose. While I wiped my nose I hit the tube in my nose and choked on my own air but tried to make it causal by clearing my throat.

"You know, I told you this would happen-"

"I still stand by what I said. You underestimate how much I want to die my dear." I said.

I took note at how she bit her lip when I called her dear.

"How does it feel to have cancer?"
Eliza questioned.

That's a strange question but alrighty then.

"It really sucks. A lot. Being shirtless all the time isn't the best. Oh and pissing in a tin is not the most enjoyable. And my hair is gone, my chest feels like shit, my depression is increasing along with my love for John and the book Animal Farm." I said, holding up the book Animal Farm.

"..John? Like..
John Church?"
Angelica asked.

"No, I mean John Laurens." I said. "You're dating him?" Eliza asked.

"Mhm,"
I hummed, setting down the book.

"Since when?" Eliza asked.

"Eh..
nearing six months." I told her.

"I didn't know you were gay!"
Eliza exclaimed.

Angelica averted her eyes and I smirked. I took of the hat and pointed to the hat.

"It ain't like I was exactly hiding it, but I wasn't screamin' it either." I said.

"Oh."
Eliza muttered.

"Anywho, what brings you here?"
I asked, putting the hat back on.

"Just seeing if you're okay."
Angelica said.

"Trust me ladies, I'm fine." I told them.

Why can I lie to them and not John?

The door opened and John came in panting and said,
"Bitch, you won't fucking believe what happened today,"

He sat down in a seat and dropped his bag as I snickered,
applauding him for a great entrance.

"Oh hi Eliza. Angelica,"
He greeted.

"Anyway, as I was saying, Charles fucking Lee was back at it again doing his regular bullshit idiocy and he got called out, but then-"

"Should we go?"
Eliza asked.

"If ya want."
I replied with a shrug.

Eliza got up and left but Angelica stayed and asked,
"So what the fuck did Charles Lee do?"

I smiled.

John leaned forward like how he does when he's about to tell an amazing story.

"So Laf and I were talking outside the school gate, right? And fucking Charles Lee,"

I zoned out, watching John talk.
I smiled to myself.
Damn he's hot.

I looked back at Angelica, who was listening to Johns story with all of her attention.

I smiled softly, sighing in content.

I watched the two of them talk for a while.

"Alex? Whatcha thinkin' bout?"
John asked.

"I uh.."

Fuck.
What was I thinking about?

"I..
don't remember."
I said, trying to remember what I was thinking about.

I looked back to John who's face held concern.

"I uh think it's a side of the chemo shit. I..don't know though. I've only read a little bit of those cancer booklet things." I said, trying to get him to stop looking upset.

"Right," He nodded, eyebrows furrowed.
"I guess that makes sense."

"Look on the bright side. At least you're here and not an ICU." Angelica said.

"Or six feet under,"
John added.

"Yeah. I guess so."
I said, still troubled by my lack of memory.

I shifted in my bed, glancing at the heart monitor.
I want to see it flatline.

Jeez that's an awful thing to think.

Two years ago I wouldn't have hesitated to say it out loud.
Two years ago I didn't know what love was.

I stared at the head monitor slowly feeling my eyes droop.
Why am I so tired all the time?

"You alright Alex?" John asked.

"I'm really tired,"
I muttered, rubbing my eyes.

John gave a soft smile and walked over to my bed, taking off my hat and pressing a kiss on my forehead.

"I'll see you later, okay?" He asked.

"Mhm," I hummed, barely processing our conversation.
I watched him and Angelica leave.

I rolled onto my side and slowly fell asleep.