John Pov
I didn't hear from Alex until Monday, when he rode into school on his motorcycle. I jogged over to him, clutching my backpack straps.

"So..you good?"
I asked.

"Fine." He replied, taking out a cigarette, and walking on campus with me.

He took a drag of it and asked,
"Want one?"

"Yeah Okay."
I replied, taking one from him.

"So..How was your mental breakdown?" I asked.

He snickered, giving a shrug.
"Could've been better."

Peggy ran up to us.
"John I called you yesterday for Dungeons and Dragons. You missed the game and fucked up the schedule. Where the hell where you?" She asked.

"..My phone was dead. Sorry."
I replied.

When I noticed Eliza, standing by Angelica and Catherine. Peggy's sisters. She had another sister Cornelia, but she wasn't at school often so I've never really talked to her much.

Then I saw Eliza and Angelica walking towards us. What the fuck? Come on.

"Hey, you're not allowed to smoke on campus you know." Angelica said.

"Wait really? Fuck," Alex muttered, taking his cig from his mouth and tossing it onto the ground and smushing it into the concrete.

I did the same for my own.

"So Alex, I've been wanting to meet you since my sister's been nonstop talking about you," Angelica said.

I watched them talk, narrowing my eyes. "Nonstop aye?" Alex muttered.

"Yeah. Don't know what she sees in you, but..here you are." Angelica said.

Alex raised an eyebrow.

"You have very handsome eyes," Angelica hummed.

"..thanks,"
Alex somewhat whispered.

"It's my pleasure," Angelica smirked, walking away with Eliza.

I glanced over to Alex who watched them walk away with a strange look on his face. His lips were somewhat parted and his eyes gleamed in awe.

Peggy sighed.
"Just..be there next time, okay John?" Peggy asked.

"Yeah, yeah of course."
I replied.

Peggy left and caught up with her sisters.

"What's her name?" Alex asked me. "Which one?" I said.

"Eliza's sister.The one I just talked to." He elaborated.

"..Angelica." I replied.

"Angelica." He muttered, taking out another cig.

"She seems nice."
He muttered, walking off.

I grabbed my backpack straps and listened to the bell ring then proceeding to class.

She seems nice.

I rolled my eyes.

"Hey mon ami,"
Laf hummed, walking next to me.

"Whatcha thinking about?" He asked.

I sighed.
"Schuyler sisters." I replied.

"Ooh, Johnny boy got a crush?"
Laf asked.

"No. Well yes, but not on them."
I said, biting my lip.

"Well who is the mystère fille?"
He asked.

I looked down at my shoes as we walked to class.

"You see..
that's the thing though Laf. It's not a girl." I said.

Laf looked at me with slight confusion.

"Laf, I'm gay."
I said.

I saw him trip on the sidewalk a bit.

"Oh..uh..That's..great John."
He choked out.

"Yeah..
I'm just gonna go to class."
He said, walking away.

Well, that went fucking amazing. I sighed, facepalming. Laf is one of my best friends.

One of the guys I've known since the beginning and I think I just fucked up our relationship.

Fucking great.

I groaned, wiping my hands on my pants and just trying to concentrate on walking to class. So now I have a total of three people that know that I'm gay.

Alex,
Peggy and
Laf.

Maybe I should tell Patsy.
Oh shit!
I forgot to talk to Patsy on Friday! Fuck, I'm the worst brother to ever live.

I make empty handed promises and then when the time comes, I'm not even there. What the fuck is my problem?

Why can't I just be..
like..
like Alex.

Laid back and badass and doesn't give a shit about anything.

I'd give anything to be like that.
I'd give anything to be with him.