Chapter 6

After finding a rather simple house on the outskirts, only a half hours walk away from the castle, Moon began to sort out the legal side, though was frustrated that the owner wanted to give it for free because, well... The QUEEN was asking. But eventually Moon haggled a few hundred coins and paid off the owner.

Eclipsa sat down cautiously on the lopsided wooden chair in the kitchen, looking reproachfully at the peeling paint on the walls before sighing and accepting this was probably the best she was going to get. Moon noticed her expression and smiled supportively. "On the good side, at least the Commision won't think to look here first!"

Eclipsa laughed at the attempt, brushing a strand of hair behind her ear. Moon blushed before frowning to herself, fingers running down her arm to scratch slightly at her wrist. Why the hell was she reacting like this? Eclipsa was related to her - not to mention a heck of a lot older. And a girl. Her family would never accept a lesbian courtship.

Eclipsa noticed the action and was by her side in a moment, pulling her fingers away. Moon flushed and mumbled an apology, but Eclipsa just shook her head. "This is a bad habit you're getting into. You should probably talk to someone.."

Moon backed up, frowning lightly. "No thanks, i don't need to be talked down to like some traumatised kid. Anyway, hope you enjoy it seeyoulater!" she rushed the last part and hurried out, hands clenched. Eclipsa raised an eyebrow at the odd reaction but let it go, deciding to re apply the magic on herself - her hair was looking greener by the second.

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Meanwhile, Moon made her way back to the castle, ignoring the continued staring. It had been a constant when ushering Eclipsa around, and now it almost seemed worse. Her hand traced her wrist but she restrained herself from scratching, trying to keep Eclipsa's words in mind.

Stepping back into her room, she buried her face in the balls of her hands.

"What am i doing? What have i done?" she hit herself over the head with curled hands, growling. "Stupid stupid stupid!"

"Aa- Queen Moon" a servant said awkwardly, halfway opening her door. "I'm sorry to disturb you, but... You have a meeting with an ambassador as the new Queen to set up some things. We could always call it off-" he said quietly at the end, seeing the raw skin on her wrists and the way she was holding her head, but she cut him off by standing up and holding a hand up to quiet him. "I shall be ready in just a moment."

He nodded and left. She pulled her sleeve down, wiped her face, and left the room.

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Sighing, Eclipsa went over everything in her head.

Soon she wanted to find out the fates of her husband and daughter. She vaguely knew of her husbands fate, being crystallization, but had not much other knowledge. As for her daughter, as much as she wanted to beleive that they had left her alone, there had probably been some heavy brainwashing before they allowed her to retake the throne.

(Eclipsa still thinks she's Moon's biological 9th grandma at this point)

Her thoughts easily strayed to Moon. The flush she had seen on Moon's face but hadn't commented on. The way Moon had been constantly jittery and had never allowed herself to relax. The way she automatically scratched at her blackened wrists when particularly distressed.

Not only did Moon likely have a crush on her, but she was also showcasing heavy PTSD and anxiety disorder, not to mention that if Eclipsa's didn't stifle the scratching problem in it's crib it could evolve into all out self mutilation, which she vehemently refused to allow happen.

Now, how to solve these issues?

The PTSD was tricky. Eclipsa was for the most part unexperienced in that area, and would have to research. For now, she would just try and support Moon the best she could when she got an episode. The anxiety would require therapy and possibly, worst come to worst, medication.

The self injury was more of a habit than a true issue as of now. Eclipsa knew she just had to keep a close eye to make sure it didn't go further than it already had, and to encourage Moon to use alternative calming methods.

The crush...

Eclipsa's face lit up as she thought about it, disguised cheek marks glowing faintly.

That situation was... Unorthadox to say the least. Eclipsa herself had thought she was straight, but her own phsyical reactions to the girl was saying otherwise. Unfortunately, this was an issue that needed to be stopped, not pursued.

Incestuous relationships was something Eclipsa never, EVER endorsed, despite her general openess when it came to romance. It was simply the line she had never wanted to cross, and she wouldn't change that now. Not to mention that Moon was barely even coming into adulthood and Eclipsa was only a few years shy of 30. It couldn't work out.

She needed to make sure she wasn't leading Moon on. Be utterly non-receptive romantically. It would be hard, but nothing she couldn't handle. Even so, it made her heart hurt.

Moon was clearly fragile, and not to mention that her being a teen was making her emotions about 10X more pronounced than regular. If Moon ever tried to pursue anything, Eclipsa's rejection could end up pushing her even further into the abyss...

The image of Moon scratching herself feverishly back in Rhombulus's crystal area flashed by her eyes and she shook it away, the back of her eyes burning. She'd need to be as gentle as possible...

Her fists clenched.

Hopefully, in the end, it'd all turn out ok

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