(I'm putting it here since this is my most popular book)
The real reasons I haven't been updating is two actually.  I've been putting off of writing this but it's time I take the weight off my shoulders.
  Reason one: school.  It took me a while to admit this but during the 2017-2018 school year, I have been bullied.  Not just me but my friends as well, though it seems as if I was the main target.  I don't want to get too much into detail but this girl, who I will call Sally for privacy bullied me.  What for?  I don't know.  I may never know. 
  However, whatever issue she had with me, she didn't make it clear.  All through the school year, she bullied me for my body.  I'm a bit on the chubby side but Sally made it her mission to remind me about that.  The thing is that I try to lose weight.  Sally also managed to lower my self esteem.  Sally also pushed me at recess a few times when the teachers weren't looking.  Sally also tried to drift me and my best friend apart.  I was always blamed for some inside joke and called a bully for joking with my best friend.  That actually made me wonder for a while if I was the bully. 
  Sally also didn't let me hug my friend because it looked "gay."  Sally also spread a rumor about me along with her other friends.  The rumor was basically me committing a felony.  Sally insulted me when I somehow found a way to stand up to myself.  Sally also bullied my friends of their physical appearance.  She only saved my best friend from Sally's torment.  All of that may sound like it was obvious but in reality it was subtle.

Reason two: "friend".  I have been dealing with a toxic friend ever since I entered seventh grade.  Let's call her Stephanie.  She would belittle me, constantly complain about my lifestyle and whine to me.  She always took.  She wouldn't support me.  She didn't care if I was alright.  She always snapped at me when she never made anything clear to me.  She somehow make everything about her.  However, she didn't just show this to me.  She showed this behavior to my friends, including my best friend as well.  Stephanie even told one of my friends, who I shall call Naomi that Stephanie didn't care if one of our friends who is a very close friend of Naomi if he was hurt. 
So yeah.  I know this might be messy.  Hell, it might sound like someone who is just making up excuses to not update.  Hell it might be excuses to not write but I feel like my writing won't be good nor if it continues if I continue acting if my life these past few months has been good.  In no way am I trying to say my life is the absolute worse.  I know about people who are being abused or don't have homes.  I don't want to sound like an ungrateful child.  All I am saying is why my motivation is down and why I haven't updated majorly.  I just want to say and apologize for why this book has been silent chapter wise.  I also would like to thank every single one of you who are silent readers, the readers who comment, the readers who vote, the readers who gave me advice.  I can go one but I just want to say thank you to the readers. 
  I'm sorry for less updating and more shitposting.  Since I'm letting this all out, I'm probably going to start writing though don't count on that.
I'm going to go apologize to someone.  (What and who it is isn't important nor will I share that info). But just...thank you for reading :')
- Carla