I have been with Sam at hers for just over an hour, it's nearing midnight, my cut off time, and I excuse myself from under her arm. She had spent forty minutes taking Leah out of me and replacing thoughts of her with hurried hands, horny kisses, and an encounter which was both pleasurable and painful all at once. Mentally painful not physically, no physically Sam knew a woman's body and she made it talk to her, and her muscles were something I didn't mind running my hands up and down as she gave me what I wanted, and I gave her what she needed in return. Of course though, as I sit up at the edge of the bed, her fingers trail down my spine and she asks the question I fear hearing "Can I see you again"

I turn slowly, looking to her over my bare shoulder "Did you not hear the rules" I ask.

She smiles tauntingly "did you not enjoy it" she returns.

I think about that. Of course I enjoyed it, it was exactly what I had needed, but now that it was over, Leah was back. I didn't have room for anyone else when Leah took the space, all of it.

"It was great... but I told you ... I don't want to ever see you again... and I meant it" I remind her.

"Kind of brutal" Sam returns, sitting up and resting on her elbow. Her spare hand running through her short cut light brown hair.

Sam is what I would call a soft butch. She is muscular and well built, her hair is shorter, shaved underneath but the top is longer and you can still run your hands through it. Her hair is styled in a way it sweeps over, and she dresses androgynously, but the way she holds herself is much more masculine than feminine. I liked her vibe, I liked her style, and I liked her confidence in the bedroom, but it didn't matter, because I wasn't looking to tick boxes. I was looking for come to bed eyes and a way to suppress Leah for an hour.

"It's not brutal if I told you the rules before we slept together... not my problem if you liked what you got a little too much" I say playfully, and standing.

She looks me up and down slowly and unashamedly, taking in every inch of me appreciatively.

"And it's not my fault that I didn't realise what I was getting myself into. Morgan you are driving me insane right now" she says leaping forward and pulling me back into the bed. She rolled on top of me, her eyes taking me in playfully "so these rules...they didn't mention keeping you for round two before I lose you forever..."

"No, but I did mention I was out of here for midnight and it's almost midnight... so..." I say tauntingly, and I roll out from underneath her and stand back up gathering my clothes.

"So you are actually going to just leave and il never see you again" she asks disbelievingly.

I pull on my underwear and step back into the dress "that's correct" I say matter of factly.

She lays back down and places her arms under her head before letting out a dramatic sigh. "I think this is a first for me..."

I place my heels back on one by one. "What is" I ask.

She looks to me like she's confused and stepping out of a whirlwind "being ghosted after sex" she replies. "But being told I'm going to be before it even happens" she adds, shaking her head "that's some next level poltergeist activity Morgan"

I lean down and kiss Sams lips briefly, catching her by surprise "I'm not completely cold... I appreciated it Sam and I had fun... and I hope you find a woman that wants this full time"

As I stand back up she pulls me back for a deeper kiss, and I resist, moving back out of her embrace. This wasn't part of the plan "I have to go" I remind her pulling away and walking to her door "It was nice meeting you Sam... thank you for the hour... you have no idea what it meant to spend an hour out of my head"

"I would happily take you out of your head any day, any time, anywhere" she replies, sitting up.

I smile "I have learnt to never revisit for seconds ... they lead to thirds and fourths and feelings ..."

"I don't mind that" she lets me know, moving to the edge of the bed and hanging her legs over the side. My eyes wonder over her biceps, her breasts, her chiselled jaw, and find her eyes waiting.

"But I do ... bye Sam" i say opening the door and leaving. Why did this happen?! My first sexual encounter since Leah and she wanted more after an hour... perhaps casual wouldn't work out in the lesbian community, because so far it was like the majority of women wanted more. Where were the players... I needed an emotionless girl to just fuck me. Maybe I needed an app, for hooking up only.

***
The bar is still busy as I return. I scan the tables until I spot Mia with Blake at the table we had been at when I left earlier with Sam. I couldn't believe Blake was here, and his hand was resting on Mia's thigh as he gazed into her eyes, and she his. I walk over and Mia spots me and waves "hey... how was it" she asks with a grin.

I slide up onto the stool beside the table and eye Blake up "it seems we have an intruder on the hunt" I ask observing him with narrowed eyes.

"Lydia said you were here and you know I love a Keaton night out" he says teasingly.

"This wasn't a sibling date night Blake... we came to find a little fun... it's a girls night" I add.

He smiles "good thing I like girls then" he says looking back to Mia who seemed to look at him affectionately.

"And did you have fun" Mia asks.

I look back to her and I can't help the smile that pricks my lips "I did indeed"

"And did you forget" she adds.

"For forty minutes... but the moment it all stopped, she came flooding back" I reveal honestly, but I shake off the dark cloud that begins to come over me as I look around for Lydia.

"Where is Lyd?" I ask.

Blake and Mia grin "it seems that our Lydia is a little more curious than expected" Blake replies.

I look to his broad grin, his dark stubbled jaw and blue eyes and I shake my head "she went home with her" I ask.

Mia nods "it seems that Paige floated her boat"

"Rocked it off of her straight hinges you mean... and capsized her vessel" Blake adds.

I am surprised.  I mean Paige was her type, just not her preferred Gender, wow "the flicker challenge worked" I say not quite believing it.

"It did and I was having fun exploring my girl too until Blake showed up and stole all of my attention away with this stupid grin" she says reaching out and taking his chin in her hands. She looked him over with eyes that revealed a flicker did indeed exist there for Blake, as much as his eyes revealed the same for Mia.

I eyed them both, and shook my head slowly side to side "you two" I say affectionately "go get a room" I ask "I'm going home to take a shower and sleep"

"I will drive us all back" Blake suggests "I haven't touched a drop"

"Perfect" I say "wait do we need to wait for Lydia or did she say she was staying out tonight" I ask.

"Oh she's staying out" Mia informs me as we stand to leave.

"You know it's just dawned on me" I say a little worried.

Mia stops walking and takes my arm "what's wrong" she asks.

"If Lydia and Paige actually become something... I will see Sam again... they are best friends..."

"Ah that's a thought" Mia agrees "well crap" she adds.

I nod "well crappy doodles fucking noodles" I agree "I'm really not good at this casual hooking up..."

"Perhaps encouraging us all to play inside one circle of friends wasnt the best plan" Mia agrees.

I literally could slap myself. I hadn't thought that through.

"I'm going home to pray for once that Lydia's star chart and her dates ...don't align"

"Come on girls" Blake says placing his large arms around our shoulders "let me get you safely home" he says and he winks at Mia.

I roll my eyes "do not debrief me Monday morning at school" I beg of Mia.

She laughs "I would never" she replies as Blake whisks us away back to Scottsdale.

Our night hunting ended with two hook ups and a potential love interest for Mia, my womanising brother.

***

I was sat having my morning coffee at the kitchen table when the front door opened and Lydia appeared in last nights clothes. Her mascara was a little smudged, and she looked like she could barely walk if I was honest with you.

"Well lookey lookey it's Kinsey scale rating two" I say playfully.

She throws her purse down and slides into the chair opposite, reaching for my coffee like an addict and taking a long sip before she finally took a breath and looked at me "what's scale rating two" she asked curiously.

I smile. "Predominantly heterosexual, but more than incidentally homosexual" I return.

She purses her lips and thinks about it.

"So tell me" I begin "how was it with a woman" I ask curiously. I take the cup and nurse it between my hands, leaning forward to engage in this entire conversation, only slightly amused that my little sister just got her Lesbian V card swiped.

"Morgan... the things that she did to me" she begins, and she still looks absolutely shell shocked that this has occurred "I had no idea" she reveals "that it could be like that" she adds.

I beam from ear to ear "I knew it" I say "that you would like it... but did you miss the penis at all" I ask.

She shakes her head as she stands to make her own cup of coffee. I sit and watch the back of her, her long blonde hair sitting behind her shoulder blades in knotty elongated curls.

"I wasn't missing it... and then she pulls out the strap and..." before she can add to that she stops herself and holds onto the kitchen side to reveal the rest as if her knees would go, talking about it "and it was intense. The whole thing, the strap, the oral sex... it was the best sex I've ever had in my life... and that's a-lot of comparison ...but it was by far the best"

"So you enjoyed being a pillow princess for a night" I ask with a grin.

She turns back to me with the steaming cup of coffee now in hand "I certainly did" she reveals and she takes the seat opposite again and sips from her coffee.

"And will you be seeing Paige again" I ask.

She seems unsure, frowning a little "I have her number but I'm not sure... I mean I'm not gay Morgan so it wouldn't really be fair to her... but then again...I could do it again... god I could do it again" she says looking up to the ceiling in thought which makes me laugh.

"I'm not sure you are quite straight my little sister, but who cares about labels just enjoy yourself. Don't sweat the small stuff... and if you see her again don't put pressure on it just enjoy one another" I say tapping her arm.

"You better tell me about Sam" she says, cocking an eyebrow.

I sip the last of my coffee and take a breath "it was fun... and I forgot her for almost an hour..."

Lydia frowns "I hate that she did this to you Morgan... you are so deserving of love, and of a love you can count on. You just haven't found the one yet... please don't bury yourself in girls trying to avoid love... what on earth is life without love" she asks.

I stand up and take my cup to the sink "peaceful I suspect"

She stands and comes to hug me from behind "it sounds sad and lonely" she whispers.

I hold her arms around my waist "it sounds safe" I reply, and I release her and kiss her forehead "go take a shower" I beg "I can smell perfume on you...and it's not yours"

"Ooh that's a first" she says smiling with a wink "okay I shall go wash off my first lesbian affair...but it won't ever take away my memories" she says with a wicked grin.

A debrief to remember.

***