Rikka's POV

I was lying down in bed, processing what had just happened just a few painful minutes ago.

I had brought Ira into the house and set him on one of the guest beds. I cleaned all his wounds and covered them to the best of my ability.

I left him to rest and went to my room instead, to try and find a solution. But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't think without bursting into tears instead

I couldn't believe that Ira would do such a thing! What could've made him so upset that he wouldn't even tell me... and he kept saying things that I couldn't understand

"ITS ALL MY FAULT!!! NO WONDER WHY EVERYONE THAT I HAVE EVER LOVED LEFT ME BEHIND!!! IM WORTHLESS!!! STUPID!! PIECE OF SHI-

"It's all I'm ever good for!"
"I always end up hurting people in the end..."

What was his fault? And who was he hurting?

These questions kept circling around my head. No matter how hard I try, I couldn't stop thinking about him. No wonder why my heart aches so much... it's as if I'm feeling his pain..

Ira's POV

W-What happened....?

I slowly open my eyes to reveal the ceiling.

How the hell did I get here...?

I turned to see the room that I was in. Without a doubt, I knew where I was

Here I am again...

Last time I was here, I was sick. So Rikka kept me in here for most of that time...

My head was hurting so much as I sat up. I looked at my bandages hands. I then realized that my hands were stained in blood..

As I stared at my hands, everything went blurry. I couldn't focus properly as I stared at my hands... I started to see double. I kept blinking to regain focus.

I tried to stand, but I immediately fell to the ground. I tried to remember what had happened before...

And the it hit me... like a tsunami washed me away.

I heard screaming in my head, and I heard crying. And I saw a women, pleading to a man.

When I snapped back to earth, I started to pant.

T-That happened a long time ago...
I thought

Why am I remembering this...? I thought that I shut this memory away forever...

That memory definitely wasn't what happened yesterday.. I tried to think harder.

I heard more screams from my head, but these felt more louder. I then pictured Rikka, and then... she disappeared...

I held my head, and my eyes widened...

What did I do...?

I looked around the room and found a mirror, I got up and limped. I lifted my shirt and the mirror showed me deep cuts and stains, bruises and scabs, all bandaged up

Don't tell me... don't tell me that I-

I couldn't think much longer. I tried to run but kept falling in instead, leaving more injuries on my body, but I didn't care.

I swung the door open and ran across the hall. I came to a halt and opened the door in front of me.

I peered in and saw Rikka in bed. I slowly approached her, trying to not lose my balance. I gently picked up her hand and looked for a pulse.

Thank goodness...
I thought, as I felt her beating pulse.

I put her hand down and sat on the ground. I only new one possible solution to this..

I have to go. I'm out of control and I can't be with her any more. If I stay... I'll hurt her...

As I thought this, it pierced my heart, but it was the only thing that could save her..

But.... I should at least tell her..... that I really... really loved her..

I took a deep breath... and stared to sing, quietly

Here we are... isn't it familiar...?
Haven't had someone to talk to in such a long time

And it's strange... all we have in common..
And your company was just the thing I needed tonight

But somehow I feel I should apologize
Cause I'm just a little shaken by what's going on inside

I should go

Before my will gets any weaker...
And my eyes begin to linger
-longer then they should

I should go

Before I lose my sense of a reason...
And this hour holds more meaning
-Than it ever could

I should go
I should go
Baby, I should go

....

It's so hard... keeping my composure...
And pretend I don't see how your body curves beneath your clothes

And your laugh... is pure and unaffected...
It frightens me to know so well the place I shouldn't go

Well I know that I gotta take the noble path
Cause I don't want to to question the intentions that I have

I should go

Before my will gets any weaker...
And my eyes begin to linger
-longer then they should

I should go

Before I lose my sense of a reason...
And this hour holds more meaning
-Than it ever could

I should go
I should go
Baby, I should go

....

Oh but now I don't mean to leave you with a trivial excuse
And when you call tomorrow
I'll know what to do

But I should go

Before my will gets any weaker...
And my eyes begin to linger
-longer then they should

I should go

Before I lose my sense of a reason...
And this hour holds more meaning
-Than it ever could

I should go
I should go
Baby, I should go

I should go
Baby I should go

I should go
Ooh

I wiped the tears from my face and took off my jacket. Then I gently pulled the covers and placed it around Rikka.

I didn't even care about myself anymore. I'm too dangerous for her. Deep down, I knew it all along... a monster like me, can't learn to love.

This song, "I should go" was written by Levi Kreis and was played in the popular TV series "Vampire Diaries"