Hey um normally I would talk to my friends about this I'm kind of sick I'm trying to be happy all the time and stuff,so I was thinking about explaining my situation at home because it's affecting me quite a lot.

Words start at the beginning my mum and dad got divorced a year ago, I switch every week between the two. Now I have had problems in the past with my anger and how to express that but also with addiction and electricity

When I was 4 years old I got my first computer my dad and I put it up together and upgraded it and everything it was great but that's parked the addiction in me my mum was never fond of computers and everything that comes with it

So fast forward to now,
1 month after parents divorced my mum had decided to get rid of every single element tronic in the house the TV the computer the Wii everything was gone even my DS

And me being addicted as f*** and having anger issues got really angry at her not only am I dealing with the stress of school and getting good grades having two jobs my parents are divorcing not only did I build up anger so much we also never talked about my situation I always tend to keep it short

But not today today I'm giving everything away you can all read it you can all see it you can see how I break down and I'm trying to make myself up again

My mum of course she was also frustrated with the situation she started yelling at me and my sister and getting abusive vocally not physically don't worry I'm not getting beat although I wish so I could fight back

But that's beside the point it's all just going in a downward spiral and I thought today is going to be the last day today I'm saying everything I want and I am not getting yelled at for doing so and if she does I don't care I don't care about anything anymore

Today was the typical day stress of school homework etc you know I come home and my mum is watching Netflix about 5 hours later she is still doing the same I get annoyed honestly I got a tone with her, and guess what she didn't like it now I can see why she would be frustrated to but I don't think this is the answer because after that I told her I missed my stuff

When you asked me it's really unfair she still has a laptop computer TV phone just name it but me and my sister we lost everything we love or at least that's how I thought about it, my sister wasn't as far gone as me. She wasn't addicted to the point where she had to be online she could just go outside

of course I could go outside too but I have nothing to do there there's nothing out there for me

So of course I got an attitude and I told her that I got hungry she got pissed she didn't want to cook, I was pacing in the same room as her before I get yelled at for walking in the same room as her

I'm sorry but when is yelling at your child because they are walking a good idea she even locked me out the damn room you just close the door and said 'go out I don't want to see you go outside and leave' and well I just went back in the room again and got no attitude from her

she started to make the table and told me to help and I did but apparently I was walking too slow and I thought she told me to stop working

anyway I did what you told me to what I did what she wanted me to and even after that she got my little sister involved

My little sister asked my mum what she was pissed off and I answered with 'she got mad because I was walking' my mother of course had to Mock me trying to copy how I was walking trying to laugh at the fact that I have a..
that I have slight walking impediment

And I'll be honest when your mother does that it hurts so she said that we need to sit down and eat she just kept calling me out after I said I didn't want to sit next to her she kept yelling at me and I left I haven't eaten I'm hungry but I rather not eat at all then be with her in the same room

I rather starve than share moments with her at all

Since I thought I was being a wimp and a moron for thinking I don't think my story is the worst but these kinds of things these small stories that actually happen it happens almost every day this breakes people

I think that's all for now if you even took the time to read this damn thing then give yourself a pat on the back it's impressive

to be honest even I would not be reading everything of this but that's not the point the point is that I needed to let it go before I-

I don't want to talk about what happened not that one time but that doesn't matter right now I think I'm done ranting about my not too bad life actually

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