POV - Ariana Grande

Anxious and a nerving mess is all Ariana usually feels on a daily basis, from a child to now as a teenager. She doesn't exactly know the root of her social anxiety; it just always seems to have been there and present through her every awakening moment.

She would hate presenting in class.

Going alone to order food.

Even though she works, her job is practically organizing clothes, so rarely anyone comes up to her and utters a word.

She would do anything to stay in her bubble and not be the center of attention.

Yet despite that, she always puts herself in these situations.

To sing in front of a crowd.

Like right now.

Despite this place being smaller than most places she has performed already; it doesn't subside the pressure and anxiety she feels piling up slowly as she glances to the people around the area watching the singer right now on stage - singing their heart out.

This is so nerve wrecking -

"Here."

Ariana jolts on her chair, a smile immediately flashing her lips when she sees Jeongguk sitting beside her.

With a strawberry smoothie in hand.

That skyrocket her enthusiasm, "Ah yes! I needed this right now," She beams happily as she takes the beverage from his hands and taking a long sip, just as her nails began to scratch on her knuckles by how anticipated she still feels.

But Jeongguk takes one of her hands and squeezes it tightly, letting it ease every nerve in her body that she wasn't here alone.

She got this.

It's just performing, again.

And maybe not many people will pay attention.

"Up next we have a duet from Jeon Jeongguk and Ariana Grande! Give them a round of applause everyone."

Shit.

Maybe it's never too late to run-

Jeongguk is suddenly to his feet, making Ariana's wide eyes snap to him by how tense she feels but with Jeongguk's encouraging smile and softly whispering that she got this, Ariana managed to get to her feet and try not to trip over a few times as she made it to the small stage.

Immediately Jeongguk got two chairs, adjusts both mics and make sure there's no wires around Ariana to trip on by her fiddling feet as she finds her way to fit on the chair after she gave the sound man the CD of the piano version of the song.

She's going to throw up.

Fuck she's going to throw up all that strawberry smoothie she just drank, and she didn't even get to finish it.

"Ariana."

The shaken girl glances to the side, rubbing onto the sleeves of Jeongguk's enormous hoodie hugging her body. Jeongguk stares at her with a soft gaze, extending his hand out for her after he sits down on the chair. They're not too far away, so Ariana only raised her hand and interlanced their hands together.

She can do this.

She just has to close her eyes and do it.

That's it.

"Just remember where this song came from," Jeongguk says quietly, kissing her knuckles, "I'm right here."

Staring into his wide doe eyes, Ariana could slowly feel every nerve in her body relax down - just a tiny bit. This song, this special song, she wrote while thinking of her precious savior.

The boy who has stood by her like a shield.

And now he's not going to let her walk through this alone.

He'll be there till the end.

That's how every flicker of anxiety slowly disappeared, just as the piano played in the background of the melody.

Only focused on Jeongguk's warm eyes now, Ariana raised the mic.

"It's like you got superpowers, turn my minutes into hours. You got more than 20/20 babe, made of glass the way you see through me."

Jeongguk smiles proudly at her, raising the mic as well to sing the next verse, "You know me better than I do. Can't seem to keep nothing from you. How you touch my soul from the outside? Permeate my ego and my pride."

Ariana takes a deep breath and holds tighter to Jeongguk's hand, closing her eyes, "I wanna love me. The way that you love me. Ooh, for all of my pretty and all of my ugly too. I'd love to see me from your point of view."

"I wanna trust me. The way that you trust me. Ooh, 'cause nobody ever loved me like you do. I'd love to see me from your point of view."

The crowd goes from inbetween cheers and awing at the lyrics, encouraging Ariana to open her eyes and feel her insides melt as she lets herself flow with the melody of the song, with Jeongguk eyes sole focused on her with stars dancing in his orbs.

So much adoration filling in those eyes, could make anyone believe he's so lovesick just by the sight of her.

"I'm gеtting used to receiving, still gеtting good at not leaving. I'ma love you even though I'm scared -" Ariana's felt her throat start to clench to those words, unable to help herself from looking at Jeongguk, seeing him slowly nod to her, "Learnin' to be grateful for myself."

"You love my lips 'cause they say the, things we've always been afraid of," Jeongguk this time closes his eyes as he sings this, holding tightly to Ariana's hand, "I can feel it startin' to subside, learnin' to believe in what is mine. Ooh I wanna love me. The way that you love me. Ooh, for all of my pretty and all of my ugly too. I'd love to see me from your point of view."

"I wanna trust me, the way that you trust me," Ariana felt those words right in her chest as she sang them, unable to look away from Jeongguk now as every meaningful word poured out of her lips, "Ooh, 'cause nobody ever loved me like you do. I'd love to see me from your point of view."

"I couldn't believe it or see it for myself."

"Boy, I be impatient, but now I'm out here
Fallin', fallin', frozen, slowly, fallin', got me right."

"I won't keep you waitin'"

"All my baggage fadin' safely."

And their both raised their mics to harmonize, looking at each other directly in the eye, "And if my eyes deceive me, won't let them stray too far away, I."

And that's when Ariana let her vocals run to its full power.

"I wanna love me, the way that you love me," She raises to a high not, singing with every fiber in her body, "Ooh, for all of my pretty and all of my ugly too.I'd love to see me from your point of view."

And Jeongguk met her with the same vocal range, "I wanna trust me. The way that you trust me, baby. 'Cause nobody ever loved me like you do."

Now their eyes found each other, softly smiling, "I'd love to see me from your point of view."

For that moment, when the music ended and their voices mellowed down, the world was theirs.

Their eyes never focused away from each other, relaxed and successful smile filling their lips as the lyrics still feel fresh in their hearts while the crowd cheered loudly in the background, standing up to the cute and meaningful performance.

They did it.

They actually did it.

Perfectly.

Lovingly Jeongguk reaches over and brings Ariana into a warm embrace, making the widest teeth smile Ariana ever had roll her mouth in completely happiness.

That's until she heard what the audience were suddenly hollering to the pair.

"Kiss! Kiss! Kiss! Kiss!"

Blushing fiercely, Ariana awkwardly pulls back with a shy smile.

Meanwhile it seemed as though Jeongguk understood what the crowd was screaming because he suddenly pecked her cheek.

A few were clearly disappointed, but majority just awed adoringly to them by the cuteness.

Flustered now, Ariana laughs a little while Jeongguk guides them to their feet, putting the mics on the stand before walking hand in hand off the stage. Coming to the general section of the café, many people in the crowd poured them with compliments and adoration to their performance, complimenting their voices and wishing they could have this on record by how amazing it sounded.

From that moment, it was impossible to drop both of their happiness.

They stayed for a while at the café a bit longer, Jeongguk's arm around Ariana's shoulders as she leaned back against him, cheering to the performers and while the two just molded into their own little bubble every once in a while as they spoke hushly amongst each other.

It was starting to get a little late, so they ended up calling it a night and left the café twirling in each other's arms as they childishly dance their way to the car down the parking lot.

Throughout the entire ride home, they rambled about the performance. Ariana was expressing on about how the song went on, her anxiety would mellow down and Jeongguk went off to how he was scared he was not going to pull off the high note and surprised himself when he actually did.

And throughout the entire drive back, their hands remained interlaced together.

And it just felt right.

When Jeongguk pulled up to Ariana's drive way, they didn't get out of the car instantly. Instead they leaned back against their seats, staring at one another with this gaze as though they're questioning if the person in front of them is even real, or if this moment is real.

In a matter of days, Jeongguk took his time to piece back Ariana's destroyed heart and slowly mold it to a version she wants it to become.

To feel like herself, and love it along the way.

"Ari."

"Hm."

"I adore you."

Ariana's smile melted and weakened at once, blushing so brightly as she curls to the seat with her free hand to her tummy, "We adore you very much too."

Jeongguk's eyes flickers to her stomach, his heart softening in his chest before letting go of her hand softly and pacing it above hers on her stomach, smiling.

No words were needed to be said to describe how they're both feeling right now, but happiness is a far too little word for it.

Now Jeongguk's time is limited here, and he already has to leave soon. But no doubt he knows Ariana is now going to be okay and is in a better state of mind than how she was before.

Besides, not like they can't call each other either way.

And he'll be back, that's a promise.

Knowing they can't linger in car for too long, the two pile out and Jeongguk found his way beside Ariana with his arm over her shoulders as they make it inside the house.

But.... Something felt off the second they stepped a foot through the door.

Ariana felt the cold and tense energy all the way to her stomach, and she subconsciously shrugs Jeongguk's arm off her and holds his hand instead.

"Ariana, can you come in here please."

It was her mother.

But..... She didn't sound so.... Happy.

Oh no.

What now?

Ariana gulps thickly and obeyed as she follows after the voice like an obedient puppy, holding onto Jeongguk for dear life as they slowly make it to the living room.

There her mother and father were sitting on the couch.

With something on the coffee table that made Ariana immediately feel sick to her stomach.

It's her ultrasound pictures.

With the baby.

Oh no.

How did they find that? She made sure to hide it in the deepest depth of her closet!

She even forgot where she put it in the first place!

"Ariana," Her teary eyes filled with anxiety flickers from the picture and up to her mother's own teary eyes, glaring at her and to the overside hoodie on her body, "Are you pregnant?"

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A/N:

Shit....

Well, this is going to be.....

Oh boy.....

Talk about a lot going on...

I PURPLE YOU! <33