After drinking his favorite banana milk, Tae went back to sleep soundly, Jin came out and saw Jungkook was looking out the window. Jin went to the kitchen and got a glass of banana milk and gave it to Jungkook.

"This, looks like you need this for your mind"

"Thank you, Jin.. about that kiss—"

"Can we not talk about that, I'm sure you didn't mean to, but can we just forget about that?"

That's not what Jungkook wanted, but he understood why Jin wanted to forget the kiss, he didn't want to feel guilty for Jimin.

"Yes, sure" Jungkook looked out the window again with a bit of disappointment, he couldn't forget the kiss, when his lips touched Jin's he felt a strange vibration in his body, it felt like an electric shock, his body reacted very strangely, it never happened when he kissed his husband, he didn't know if it was good or bad, but he enjoyed the brief kiss.

"Jungkook.."

"Hmm"

"I want to ask something but I want you to answer it this time"

"Yes, what do you want to ask?"

"What happened to you today? You came to the cafe so early and were only wearing pajamas with puffy eyes, does this have anything to do with Jimin?"

"He came back last night, I should be glad he's back, but somehow I didn't feel that last night, he greeted me warmly, we had sex like he always does when he comes back from his shoots. This morning he said he was going back to New York and didn't know what was wrong with me this morning but I was so angry I said bad things to him. Bad but that's the truth. He lied to me about his birth control pills and I threw all his pills in front of him. That's one lie I can tell, I don't know if there's another lie he's hiding. I'm sick of dealing with him Jin, I'm like his sex toy, he comes home and asks me to fuck him then he leaves and yes, after all that he kicked me out, told me to get out of my own apartment, I don't care about the apartment, he can take it if he wants, I just don't think could fall in love with him then and choose to marry him" Jungkook looked at Jin.

"Did that answer your curiosity?" Jin was just dumbfounded and didn't know what to say at that time, it was more than he expected.

"Then where will you live? are you going to live with your parents?"

"I won't go back to them, I'll just trouble them with my marriage, they're old Jin, this time to rest and think about good things while rocking grandchildren, who they may never rock. Can I sleep here until tomorrow? I will move to a hotel while looking for a new apartment"

"I don't mind but you see, my apartment is very cramped Jungkook, there's no space for you to sleep, I just sleep on the sofa and—"

"We can share a sofa together" Jin's eyes widen at Jungkook's words, the sofa is very small, only fits one person lying there, how can Jungkook think of sharing a sofa with Jin?

"I'm not sleepy yet, so you can sleep on the sofa first, I'll sleep with Taehyung"

"No, he's already fast asleep, let him sleep in peace, then I won't sleep either, you can sleep there while I'm awake"

"Would you like some beer? I think I have some in the fridge."

"Yes please" Jin walked into his kitchen and was surprised to see inside the fridge.

"Jungkook"

"Hmm"

"Did you do all this?" Jungkook walked over to Jin to the kitchen and nodded.

"Why? Jungkook, stop doing things like this."

"I didn't do it for you, it was all for Tae"

"Ohh does that mean I can't eat it?"

"Of course you can eat it, but pretend I gave it all to Tae without any intentions, so where's my beer?" Jin sighed before handing a can of beer to Jungkook, they sat opposite each other at the dining table with beer cans in their hands, on Christmas Eve.

"Jin"

"Yes"

"Have you never thought about having a partner? I mean, I'm sure there's a lot of people out there who want you."

"Jungkook, what is your purpose in getting married? if your purpose is to get married just to live a happy life, or to have children, i have got it, i have Tae and i am happy with my life, i have no reason to look for a partner, Tae and i are fine, i know he must be wondering about his father, I also find it difficult to explain, the best option is just to say if his father is in heaven, you know what? his father was the person I trusted the most, his name was Ken, he was my senior in high school, he was very good to me and he understood me the most at that time, but he ruined everything, it turned out that behind his kindness there was bad intention for me. I just didn't realize it until that night came. Worst night of my life when he knowingly raped me many times, I felt so disgusted with my body at that time, he left me alone when he was satisfied fuck me. I still remember waking up with my body lying on the cold floor, naked and my whole body so sticky, I could even see the bloodstains on my thighs. It hurts so much, I can't move my body because it hurts so much when I move. I just cried and suddenly crossed my mind to kill myself. I was embarrassed to meet people out there, I was dirty then. A month later I found myself pregnant. I'm so depressed, I don't even want to be touched by anyone, I'm scared, I keep remembering that moment, I locked myself in my room and cut ​​my own veins. But Namjoon and Hoseok came at the right time, he broke down my bedroom door and took me to the hospital. I almost died from losing so much blood. But that didn't happen, Tae and I are here now."

December 24th