Ten years later

IVAN POV

An official search party had been ceased from searched him. There was not any lead or hint as if Allen never exists in the first place. His picture and belonging was the only stuff that can soothe my feeling when I really miss him.

Rylan conditions also worse than I was. He never let anyone touched Allen's room or neat it. Everything inside the room left just like the last day Allen was there. He just wiped the dust, holed himself inside there, and refused to eat anything on Allen's birthday or his missing date. The same routine repeated over the year and year.

The case had caused me to become overprotective toward my mate and children. If there never have any child right law, I may as well prison them to avoid the same case happen again. Until today, I can't forgive myself upon that one biggest failure. Each day I will keep contacting the connection I have, hoping that one day the miracle will happen.

I want the old smile of my mate and a laughter from my lost son. Even with the presence of the twin, it still not enough to fill up the gap left by their brother. My wolf and I keep believing that our missing son still alive outside, somewhere in this world.

"Daddy, why are crying? Does today was that day again? Papa locked himself inside that room." Kierra asks me with Sierra eye finding honesty in my eyes.

"Yes, angels. Please forgive us again for today. It just... just... we can't him. Your other brother..." I take both of my girls in my tight embraces. Word can't describe the mix emotion I always having on today's date over the years.

My kids have been already aware our awkwardness and weakness for the same date through the years. They always avoid mentioning Allen's name in daily talked and pretense everything fine after the date pass.

Today is the day that marked my failure as a father and head family as well as an alpha to protect my own family and son. The title as the second strongest alpha almost makes me puke because I have let those kidnappers taken my son under my nose. My son, my heir, and the future alpha of this pack missing without any single trace.

"Daddy, can we go to grandpa and grandma's house?" Sierra asks while fidgeting on her feet. Those children were sensitive to our feelings.

"Okay, I will ask Uncle Terrance to escort you there." Not to mention I will station a selected strongest warrior around my parents' house like I always does.

"Hurray, daddy tells papa to pick me up after he feeling well. I love you, daddy." Kierra kisses my cheek follow by his excited sister too.

Terry, please escort my daughter to my parents' house. Station at least six elite warriors over there until I pick them tomorrow. – I order Terrance in my alpha like voice.

Roger, Alpha. I will come in five more minutes. – He said before I close the mind link.

"Okay, kids, come prepare your backpack because you grandparent unlikely will let you back here tonight. That's mean you will spend the night over there." I shout to them. They shattered to their bedroom.

The twin shares the room together and they are inseparable since they were born. They will wailing like the world will end in any second if they were separate. I stop at Allen room, using my heighten hearing I can hear the messy sob of my husband inside of it. I sighed and calm myself because my tears also in the brink of the eye's corner.

I knock the door three times but didn't get any response; "Munchkin, I will send our daughters to my parents' house. Can I? Terrance will escort them and I had ordered him to station the elite warriors as their guard."

When feeling that my resolve wavered too, I stride to my daughters room. I will succumb to tears if I stand there longer, that is the last thing I want to avoid from my daughter seeing the weak me. I put the happy face as I enter their room. Sierra use the small stool to pick the hang clothes while Kierra folds it into their backpack. The kids sure know how to manage themselves when we become useless parents.

No matter what we have or revenge I had to the trespassing rogue, it is still not enough to conquer the blood thirsty in me. My wolf will take over my body if we sense the approaching rogue. However, in the midst of bloodthirsty I still can manage my judgment, which rogue I need to keep alive or sentence them on the spot. Since then there are only a few cases where rogue misstep into my land. They will avoid at any cost from stepping into my territory.

Luckily, I am not alone in this case; I have a family to keep me strong. I have a husband that keeps me going and I have the pack member that share the same pain of losing their future alpha. I have everyone support to restrain me from going into an insane path.

Although, we have stopped the searching team, but it isn't completely shut down. My cousin, Kai, Ralph, and few warriors stills were continuing the search in their own way. Ralph was searching my son up and down, each corner like the one who was missing was his own flesh. He assure me that he know the pain we shouldered because he also had through it once. I was gratefully having people that completely know my pain.

"Daddy, we are finished packing." Kierra cheerful voice grabs me into the reality again.

"Good, girls. By the way, your big brother also there, he just was coming back from the alpha camp. So, be good to him too." Both jump up and down hearing the news.

"'Kay, daddy. Hmm can we meet papa before we are going there?" Sierra jumps on my laps.

"Not today, baby girl but I promise that we will together pick you on tomorrow." I kiss his sunburn hair.

"Daddy, please comfort and hug papa on our behalf. Each night we always pray that the missing big brother will come back home again." Both of them hug me. In the end, I can't contain the tears that swell inside of my eyes.

"I will baby girls. As usual, please forgive us again. We promise once tomorrow sun first ray appears, we will fine again." I take both of the girls in my arms.

After, the storm in my heart subside, I bring them downstairs, meeting Terrance that patiently waiting us. I kiss the girls on the cheek before letting Terrance escort them to my parents. Terrance was so familiar with us on today's anniversary date and never comments anything.

"Take care, sweethearts. Don't be naughty on your grandparents." I kiss both of my daughters. The giggles and kiss my cheeks in return. I watched them until they were disappeared from my sight.

I sighed and climbed the plight of the staircase again. I used the spare key to open the Allen door, the room was playing with Allen favorite song. The surge of sadness surge in me as I walked further inside the room. All the memories flash inside my mind, replaying the time when we decorated and renovated this room. When Allen mischievously used his own palm planted palm pattern across the wall.

I trace the tiny palm that painted on the wall until it leading me to the balled body on the bed. The body that keeps shaking from continuing to shed the tears. The bed dips when I put my weight, but not enough to grab my husband's attention. A spot of wet tears is clearly formed on the pillow. His hand is clutching the last picture of Allen for dear life.

"Hi munchkin, lift your face for a second, please Love." My voice cracked when his swelling tears eyes meet me. "I'm sorry because I can't keep my promise to protect him. Sorry...sorry"

"Why is the fate so cruel to me? Why it has always taken away the person I loved? Why is always me? Why... why?" I stood still because I don't hold any answer to each of those questions.

I lay beside him, grabbing his shaking body press on mine. "I will continue finding him. As long as he still alive, we still have an opportunity to meet him. Don't lose hope, Munchkin. I need your support to prevent me from crumbling down, please Munchkin."

"I'm the useless father. I let them taken him two times. I'm the example of failure father." He is crying hard in my chest.

"I'm also the powerless father letting they got away without trace. I have just given you an emptied promised. I..." In a minute, the dried tears coming back in full blast.

We just keep silent for hours or so after losing the word to comfort each other. I need to take Rylan to run but we had exhausted our last stamina to keep going for today. Our wolves also withdrawn deepen inside of us. They shut down the connection that was the biggest signed of losing our son.

The hunger and sense of responsibility also left us when this date arrived. I flip Rylan under my body when he begins to calm. He plays with the hem of my hair while pressing his ear on my chest. I circle one of my hands on his back and another one gently caresses his hair. We just let the silence engulf us without waiting to do anything else. The room as if being cut off from the time and space. It is like only us who exist here.

"His scent starts to fade off. I afraid that we will lose track of him completely. I don't want that to be happening. I want to find him before that ever happens. I scare, Ivan." Rylan broke the silence between us.

"I will do my utmost effort to finding him before its happening. Please bear with me some more times." I ruffle his messy hair. I do not know how many promises I have thrown to him with negative result.

"If I never had a desire to abort him, maybe all this messed never happening. It is all my fault." he clutched my shirt tightly.

"Don't blame yourself hundred percent, Munchkin. The blame was on me too. If I never make the stupid rejection, nobody knew about you, about Allen. And, those doctors only in the suspect list, maybe they aren't the actual culprit." I caress his back in order to calm him again.

"Have the twin reach their grandparents house? Sorry I can't show them the weak me." Finally, he makes affording to face me with a faint smile.

"Yes, they are. Dad just told me a few hours ago. They are understandable girls, so they highly respect no matter what condition you're in. We were blessed with good children." I say to him.

"Sierra has inherited your patient." He let out a small smile. "I can't wait for them to meet Allen. They have to..." I kiss his trembling lips to stop the sadness back again.

"And, Kierra have your house management skill." I laughed making he grinned. "Plus her overprotective that almost annoys Sierra and Ernest all the time."

"I'm glad that Ernest and the twin can bond like a real sibling." Rylan gives me a relief smile. At least, that relation didn't turn sour like Ernest and Allen was.

However, after Allen disappeared, Ernest was the most person who effected badly. All the time, he cried over and over when spotted us in sad. He always said that he swear to make their bond work if one day we find him again. He always sneaked into Allen's room and wailed like a broken kid. For that very reason, we tough our hearts and hide our sadness, at least in front him.

"I promise the twin to pick them tomorrow with you."

"Are they planning a sleepover at there?"

"Yes, considering we are kind of useless for today. And, my parents also glad having them to occupy their lazy times." Rylan laughed on my comment.

"Where we are going for this year's wedding anniversary."

"I'm fine with anywhere you have decided as long as you and our children are together. I won't leaving them under anyone else protection more than twenty-four hours." Since we lost Allen, we never let our children stay a long time with anyone.

The exception was only for Ernest, as he needs to attend the Alpha boarding school and camp. That still tough persuaded Rylan to let him go there. He gives the permission with an absolute condition that Ernest needs to call house every night and we visit him one per week. Strangely, Ernest turns as an obedient boy and follow all his conditions without fail. He totally changed from spoiler rotten boy to obedient one. I glad aside from Allen matter everything turns good. The only piece that missing was Allen.

"Once I handover the title to Ernest, My hand will free from the pack responsibility. At that time, I will commence a full searching team for Allen again. I will lead the team until the end of the world. I promise to complete our family again." I bring his palm to my lips and place gently kiss on it.

"Hmm, I will go with you at that moment. We will search him together, around the world. We will show him, his beautiful sisters." He said with glassy eyes.

After that, we silence again with the music repeat in the background. We were just laid here without paying any attention to our surroundings and only get off the bed if we have to use the bathroom. The tranquility engulfs us in total night. We don't need the light to see anything. For once, I wish, we just born as a normal human.

When the clock ticking pass midnight, Rylan falls asleep while using my arm as his pillow. I know he had exhausted himself too much this past few days. After letting everything out today, he was free again to face the world.

Until today, I want to know why Allen went out from the pack residency area on that day. What is triggering him going almost the borderline? How the kidnappers know that he was going there? When thinking back, I suspect the traitor is among our pack member, maybe. I don't know, maybe I am just over thinking and want to vent my frustrated to poor scapegoat.

Get a grip of yourself, Ivan. There is no way the pack member betrayed us. – My conscience scolds me.

I take a long sigh and try closing my eyes but failed. If Rylan keep crying on this, mine is an opposite. Usually, I get myself either into drunkard state or just staring into nothingness. I can't sleep at all on this date.

"Dad, I want a blue theme in my bedroom. I want the wall decorate with wolves family, just like us." – The happy of little boy's voice chirped in my memory when we first stepped into this room.

My eyes quickly trace the illuminated family wolves that had decorated the wall over the ten years. The wolves lay on the peak of the mountain facing the full moon. The pups playfully nip their parents, laid beside its mother and playing with each other sibling. I bite my lips as my eyes hot with tears again.

I carefully free myself from Rylan. I need the alcohol in my system to overwhelm the sadness. I go to my office, pouring the Spirytus Rektyfikowany into glass with a drop of wolfsbane. The wolfsbane will keep down the metabolism system from burning the alcohol effect quickly. After finishing one bottle, I lay my head on the table as I let the salt tears pouring again.

"Can I have one shot?" Rylan hoarse voice disturbs me.

"I will say that you will never take no as an answer, right?" His weakly smile while I open the second bottles.

"Cheer." I toast my glass with him. Our glass clinks when are touching each others.

We are drinking until our bodies can't take it anymore. Our talking became incoherent, smile, laugh, and crying together like a crazy person. Next, we open the eyes when my ass fell onto hard tiles. Rylan groan when his body fell with me. I pry my eyes open causing the hard throbbing assault my head. The ticking sound of the clock also like a hammer that nailing my head.

"Shut the fucking clock." Rylan covers both of his ears.

"Aye, aye..." I grunted when place him onto the recliner. Before, I can stop the ticking clock, a flying bottle passes me and strike the damn wall clock. Shit! We need to replace new wall clock.

Rylan wakes up with grumpy mood ever. I take the Advil from the drawer and water from the fridge, pops two into my mouth. Handing another two pills to the grunted Rylan that cussed every single creak under his breath. I amused by his bickering not to take any alcohol anymore. I lead him into our bedroom. I prepare a water bath for both of us when I remember that we need to pick our daughters later.

Rylan brushes his teeth and handing the toothbrush which coating with paste for me. We silently brush the teeth and taking a bath. Gosh, both our eyes were red.

After finishing the breakfast we head out to my parents' house. Gladly our healing process kicks quickly to wipe the alcohol in our system. Rylan seems relaxed as he can be. We spotted our son and daughters at the porch. The twin runs into Rylan and climb on him. Wow, I feel the heavy love here. Ernest hugs me before kissing Rylan's cheek.

"Dad, papa, this is my girlfriend, Lena." Lena eyes widened and her nose scrunched in disgust. My eye narrow before Rylan thud my shoulder and give one of the twins to me.

"Nice to meet you sweetheart, my name Rylan, and this hulk is my beloved HUSBAND, Ivan. I kind upset actually, because I sent my baby boy to boarding school to broaden the knowledge and sharping his leadership skill, not to thrust into some hole." Rylan dramatic comment was making the girl red beet.

"Papa, please." Ernest pleads the scoff Rylan. Good luck with that boy, because you papa is harsh toward homophobic.

"Where are you from?" I scan her anger face with a hard voice.

"Midnight Silent Pack, Sir." She barely answers me.

"Oh I see, how Lucas is doing? Is he a good alpha? Wow, I can't believe that tiny crazy nephew already reign the strongest pack here. We should pay a visit to them someday."

"Yeah, maybe the pack had reverted to homophobic again after Kai stepped down and replace by his elder son that was mated to female." Rylan add with fake disappointment tone. The girl face pale the second we state it. She stomped out from the porch.

"Wow, unbelievable." Ernest scoffed.

"Ernest Daniel Kendall, I believe I sent you for schooling right? How you will explain to your mate later once you found them? What you feel when getting a slut mate?" Ernest rolled his eyes before chase that rude girl.

"Kid nowadays..." Rylan huffed while taking a seat beside my mom. They just chuckled with Rylan antics. We let the girls have their times with the pups that playing across the yard.

Alpha, the southern patrol had apprehended a rogue trespassing our land. – Carlos mind link me. Cedric is clawing inside me with the burning anger. The fucking rogues really dare step into my land.

Kill them, kill them all. – Cedric shouts in my mind.

I will arrive shortly. – I answer Carlos with tiny patience.

"What happen?" Rylan asked when seeing my stone face.

"I need to go to over there. The rogues dare trespassed our land." Rylan nodded. I shift and running to the southern border.

The scene filled with red blood spilled everywhere and body separate from head and others gruesome mutilated bodies. The warriors giving me a nod before Carlos come get me.

"Good job, everyone." I said once I shifted back and Carlos gives me spare shorts.

"Actually the rogue we caught that killed all those rogues." Carlos informed me.

"Argh, rogue killed rogue? Interesting. Get me that bastard here." I order him. I shout one of the warrior name and bring the rogue.

"Shift!" I order when the rogue refuse to shift.

Sir, I apologize for stepping into your land. It's never my intention though. So, can you let me out from your land peacefully. – How the fucking hell this rogue can mind link me.

"I order you shift now." I ground my teeth when order him again. The warrior fall on the knee, but the rogue still solidly stood on his four. I growl and he growls back. His eyes shift from dark red to purple electric lightning bolts.

He reluctantly shifts, turning to young teen with shoulder length hair. His pupil is red with amber like iris, watching me cautiously. I scrutinize him carefully until his nature scent hit my nose. My eyes widened with realization. My lost son...

Allen! Our son.- Cedric whimper in happiest tears.

"Allen, is you right son?" I take him in my hugged. His body goes rigid before him sniffle my neck.

"Dad..." He whispers softly before going limp. I catch his body before he landed on the ground. Carlos patted my shoulder and orders the patrol team resumed their duties while other warriors clean the bloody area.

Rylan POV

Why are you so restless? – I asked Rusty. He keeps pacing inside me since Ivan left us.

I don't know. – He replied for the umpteenth times.

Munchkin, where are you? Are you still at dad's house? Can you come to pack's clinic soon? – My heart beats faster. Please don't tell me he got severe wound. Such a fucking rogue.

Are you hurt? I'm on the way. – I said and relayed the information to my in-law. I was shifting and rushing to pack's clinic.

I open the door without greet Carlos and relieved when spotted Ivan speaks with the pack's doctor. My eyes drift into a young man who sleeps on the bed. I can't tear my eyes from him though.

"Who is he?" I ask when getting close to my husband.

"Guess who?" I take a deep whiff and long lost familiar scent assault me. My eyes watering and my body wholly shaking while Ivan led me near the bed. God, this is not a dream, right?

"I didn't dream, right?" I shakily brush the light brown hair.

"No, this is a reality." He hugs and rocks my body with same watery eyes.

My Allen, my boy finally back to us. I sobbed in Ivan hard chest, pouring out the happiest tears. My prayed finally came true. The doctor left us alone.

"Was he being the earlier trespasser?" I asked when I get my calm again.

"Yes, he was with a bunch of rogue. Carlos told me he was the one who killed all the rogues." Ivan tells me.

We cuddled together until Allen eyes fluttering open. He was in confusing before regaining the composure. He stares me long enough for my eyes watering again. I walked and hugged him with messy cry. His body becomes rigid before he hugged me back.

"Papa, I can't breathe." I sheepishly let him go.

"So, where are you during those years? Who was the kidnapper?" Ivan asks from the other side with the hint of thick anger.

"I don't remember because I had high fever a year ago. Some of my memories had gone once I awoken." He frowns. "After that, I'm just wandering around no-man land. The lost memory also cost me forgot about a few important things such this pack name and location."

"Then, you don't need to retrieve those memories, my son. I'm sorry for can't trace you until now." Ivan kissed his temple. Soon, the door open and reveal my in-law, Ernest, and twin.

Ernest's eyes widen with tears and twin may have a vague idea as they keep glancing over Allen in curious. Mum and father when to hugging him, but he jumped out from the bed and slump at the corner with both of his legs folded on his chest. He snarls when Ivan tried to get him. I crouched down and gently patted his hair.

"Allen, do you remember them? They are your grandparents and Ernest. Lastly, the twin is your younger sisters. We are missing you a lot and your sisters never stop praying to meet you in real life." I cupped his face.

"I'm sorry." He stretched his hand toward them. Father and mom shake with him as they understood my boy might restore some trauma.

Ernest come close, he hugged Allen without warning. Rylan body goes stiffed and didn't hug him back. "I'm sorry for..."

"Nah, it is okay." Allen patted his back. "Can you release me? My wolf and I hate when the stranger hugs me.

"Sorry." He releases him but Allen just like his old self who like ignored Ernest.

"May I know who the name of this beautiful lady?" Allen asks to twin that hide behind Ivan.

"This pony tail girl is Kierra and this one is Sierra. They are ten years old." Ivan urges the girls to face Allen.

"Oh, I'm Allen, mmm... your..."

"Big brother" Both of the girls runs into his arms.

"Dad, papa, you have created another creepy child." I flicker his temple make him glare at me.

"Promise me, you wouldn't leave us again. Please you won't let daddy and papa cry again." Sierra stretched her pinky finger. Kierra also does the same.

"Can I'm living with you?" He asked the girls. Silly boy, you're more than welcome to join us. In fact, with you my family finally completed. Ivan chuckled when reading my thought.

"Yes, big bro, you are welcome to live with us forever." Allen chuckled when blink his own tears.

*******

"Have Allen asleep?" Ivan wriggles his eyebrow when swipe me from my legs. This an old man still have a monstrous strength.

"Why are you giggle for, naughty Munchkin?" He kisses my nose.

"Just thinking that this old man still have monster strength lifted me." He grinned.

"Of course, I am a monster, Munchkin. Have do you forget who we are?" He said with a big smirk.

"Tsk, of course I can't forget. I glad that we complete our family again." I wrapped both my hand around his neck.

"Yeah, I finally got seeing your true smile, Munchkin. So, he still doesn't want enrolling into wolf academy." He said while kick the door open after I twist the doorknob.

"Yeah, seems so. He still wants to finish the current high school." I sighed when he bounce me onto the mattress.

We repeatedly persuaded Allen to attend nearest high school or wolf academy but he rejected all the options. Using some trick and connection, we have managed enrolled him into human high school, three towns from here. That was his choice of school too. He easily passed their examination, which we pray silence for him to fail. Other than that, Allen have been trying two times ran out from pack border. We were lucky when Ivan station someone to report Allen activity.

"Still worry about him? The pack member also was not fond being around him. Apparently, he needs to work up about his anger management. He snapped quickly and last time sends two warriors to a clinic during training. The pack members felt wariness with his red eyes wolf." Ivan laid beside me.

"Do you still want to entitle him as Alpha? Yeah, his wolf slighted different from the pup time. The red eyes and red freckles across wolf body. How the hell it was happening?" I mostly was thinking this alone since I saw his wolf after we regained him again.

"Absolutely, because that was his right since he was born. This afternoon, Ernest told me to give an Alpha title to Allen. He will step as a Beta." Ivan hugged me.

"I feel guilty toward Ernest. If we never appear, he still will have a complete family. Can't we just hand the title to him?" I kiss his stubble jaws. They are no way I will trade this man with anyone else, as long as I'm alive.

"No, Munchkin. Another way to get a title is by thorough an alpha challenge. Judging from a few sparring sessions, Ernest had no chance to win over Allen. He is tough and merciless opponent that I barely can win over. And, the problem is their relation still in rocky path." Ivan sighed that make his Adam apple up and down.

"Do you think they will mated to each other?" I said, because they somehow have a weird relation.

"Shit, I wasn't against if it really happens. It's never an incestuous relation because Ernest wasn't my true son. I will be damn happy if that truly happens. I just hope Allen won't become a dictator alpha with his aggressive side."

"No, he won't. He may aggressive but time will heal him. I think he was just lying the whole thing having a memory lost, maybe some of his experience during missing what make him become today Allen."

"Maybe... " He trails off. "Anyway, I glad that our family perfect again." He said as he trails the kiss from the lips to his marked.

My body jerks on his sudden move. This beast is about to leash his pent out frustration. His shoulders become relaxed, as the burden lifted out from him. His eyes darkened with desire and full with love. The only man that only visited me on full moon nights that ignited desired in us. The man that truly honest as himself under moonlight desire as a man I proud in loved. His sweet and loving self that I doubt he is able to notice by himself.

This was a same man broke my heart in the past and stills the same man who cures me now. He completed me like no other, loving me without boundary and complied with all my selfishness. One that I never dare dream when I was in an orphanage or when started lived with Reese. He was a source of my despondency and a source of my happiness.

If our love story began with stared and moonlight, then it takes more than that to end what we have. Even when the moon losing its light my love for him never fade, will outshine the thousand brightness stars and the moon itself. My love for this man was beyond any word or length. It is an infinity love.

"I love you so much my full moon desire alpha." The whispering halted his exploring lips and finger.

"I love you too, my moonlight desire mate and munchkin." His voice blended with his wolf, saying their love confession together that surpasses anyone else confession.

Ironically, tonight our room also was under the rays of moonlight from the balcony glass panel. The serenity of moonlight that bringing desire of the past, present and future. I stare into the dimming light that lighting our nest with thousand gratefulness.

I love you my sexy Greek God, mate, and husband. – I whisper inside of my heart.

I love you too, my charming King of Cholesterol, husband and mate. – I hear he replied in mate link.

We are both laughing in silliness after realizing the supposed to be a secret confession of mine was secretly passed to my mate mind. He gives me a tender yet loving kiss to seal our heart confession.

A/N

Finally, the story had come to end. I hope you all enjoy the story. Thank you very much for always support me during this story. Have a nice day. Bye-bye.

Btw, this is the continuing of this story where Allen will be the lead character. The cover or title may change later because this just a draft, not yet finalize.