Ivan POV

The love between mate and substitute really different. Just like a story, my parents told me when I'm young. I'm envied for those who found and living with their real mates. Why I'm difference? Did I do something to offend The Moon Goddess?

Gosh, people will laughter if they know the truth? And Kayla's heart will shatter into a thousand pieces. Why I deserve him? I shook my head to wipe off the rising hate.

I'm denying his every an existence. As a human, he can find anyone else to fill his life. His choice not limited as mine. We can't oppose the Moon Goddess arrangement. But, right now I'm really opposing Her. She makes the real mistake this time.

"Why you always in deep thought recently? The pack members also notice your strange behaviour." Dad munches a toasted bread as he eyed me.

"Nothing serious, dad, just a minor problem of mine." I offer a plain smile.

"Darling, our son must be nervous counting down his own big event," Mum interrupted us. I give a fake smile for both of them. I excused myself when hears a horn. I need to shop the thing for the ceremony

For one, yes the marry make me nervous but I had a bigger more problem to solve before that day. Cedric also revolt against me; make me hard to make love with Kayla.

I have to make it with a lot dates and vacation. The angst feeling I feel inside make me wanna to cancel the wedding. But, when I'm thinking back it just a common trouble I'm so afraid of losing someone precious that I refuse to love anyone else. I admitted I'm really in love with Kayla.

It's just I'm having a great irony right now, loving the right person at the wrong time and having the wrong person when the time is right. How I want to solve this puzzle because it's unlikely I can get both persons.

I'm torn in between Celric desire for his true mate and my life love. My wolf kind of being an ass since the day he met his long awaiting mate. A stupid whispering inside my mind tell me that I could find a real happiness if I choose him. Reality is far harsher than a stupid fantasy. People will always find the ways to mock the other whom having an unnatural lifestyle.

Me not in an exceptional too. The sceptical from fellow an alphas will make my pack suffer in the future too. Additionally, when you're related to a big homophobic pack like The Midnight Silent. The pack which always kicks out every single gay or lesbian mates or worst it separate them. They must look down on my pack and me.

"What's wrong babe?" You look distracted." Kayla caresses my left cheek gently.

"Mm Nothing, honey." I smile to her. She come closer and locks ours lips together. Cedric wants to push Kayla touch instantly which I barely to restrain it.

"Are you not happy with our wedding day? If you think it still early we can postpone it for another day or another year." I detect a slight disappointed in her voice. Even when she tried to cover it with her usual smile.

"Not, Honey, I'm thinking about rogues attack. Somehow, theirs attack more likely to search something. You need to be careful too. The wind about our wedding may reach their ears by now." I give her a half excuse but not entirely wrong.

The rogues also have been so weird; they must want to detect my mate desperately. It's common for rogues to target a future Luna to destroy a pack. Kayla is really in dangerous zone.

"How your preparation goes?" I ask her.

"My parents make all the arrangement. They just give us a privilege to choose our own wedding dress." She giggles beside me.

"Really a spoil daughter." I tease her.

"I'm not." She pouts beside me. She hugs me as we both listening a song from the radio. We had been invited to have a lunch with some of the pack members. My stomach is screaming to bile up everything whenever she touches me.

Gosh! What's wrong with my body lately? We also had less and less sex nowadays. She and I, both have an urgent matter to settle down before our wedding day. We are barely can meet each other.

We've reached at the said restaurant, a bunch of youngster pack members joke with each other. They're the next leader for tracking, warrior and hunter division.

"Welcome leader." They're greeting me in disguised because here is neutral zone filled with a lot of humans. We kind off wary if they ever caught us existence. I take a seat beside Terrance. I join their topic and prank the youngster too.

Suddenly, my nose becomes sensitive when an exotic smell assaults me. I turn around and see two men figure step into the restaurant. They're laughing and poke each other. I balls my fist under the table, control my jaws from grits the teeth hard.

How dare he so familiar with another man? A strange thought attacks my conscience. I follow them till they are sitting at an opposite table. I can observe him at the corner of my eyes. He turns around maybe after sense my stare. Our eyes meet each other rebuked a familiar feeling inside me. Cedric excitedly want to join him.

I take a long breath and exhale it out in slow motion. I avert my eyes and use my enhanced hearing to stalk their talking. Half of me want to shred the man beside him. I never saw him laughing carefree.

"Order whatever you want to eat, Ree. The bills on me." he chirping makes the other man rolls his eyes.

"Okay Mr. Big Heart." The man simply replied. They talks about a various topics. He was so talkative around this man.

I focus my attention back to my group while slowly slurping the coke. Kayla closes our body distant and leans on my shoulder.

"You've another one and half month before the marriage ceremony. Where are you planning to go to for a honeymoon?" Terrance asks me.

"Maybe Paris or Venice considering my wife to be is fashion lover." Kayla playfully smacks my hand and pouts. I kiss her cheek earning the handclap and whistle around the peer. When I turn around, I meet a pair of sad and hurting eyes. He averts his eye immediately and continues chatting like nothing happen.

"See the fatty also here." I caught mocks from Mark and his fellow friend. Mark is my future head warrior after his finish the school. I follow their gaze and stop at my mate. Cedric want to break their necks for disrespect his mate.

"So, it was true. He is the queer after all. That was the same guy who helped and warned us before. They must on date now." Melissa giggles beside him.

"Who?" Kayla asks them.

"The fatty guy opposite us. He is the dropout student from our school or maybe was kicked out by principle because got violent." Reid enlightens her which getting a warned stare from Mark.

"Kids, I think I have reminded my entire pack member before for never causes any trouble with human. That included getting any fight, bullies or police trouble, right." I stare them one by one. They're nodding and silently.

"Babe, don't spoil our lunch with your pack issue. They just behave like what a normal kid around their ages." Kayla caresses my knuckle.

We eat in silence until Terrance starts talking again from his car collection till the newest human issue. We are in harmony again and teen group start poking and pranks. Then, we are getting sudden cold feet as we hear the unexpected word from my mate.

"Are you believe in werewolf existence?" He asks his friend.

"Aren't they just a myth existence? Nobody can prove their existence. Why?" His friend stiff a little before answer. More likely to questioning him back.

"The writer for this article said he believes the werewolf really exist somewhere in this world." He shows his android to his friend.

"That is a crazy thing. So, why it bother you?" The guy frown but I detect a dangerous glint in his eyes.

"It's a fortunate if they really exist. I mean they're really overprotective around their pups and mates. And, without hesitation I'll accepts him or her in my life if they're my fate mate." My mate word makes my heart swell with the proud.

"You're into a fiction book to much, Ry. Reality not really nice to us. Pfft... they only faithful in the story but outside they're still a beast who fed sex from any two or four moving legs." That guy word sunken deeply inside my skull. I have nothing to retaliate or depend my race.

"Whatever, Ree, if that happen I will reject them over and over. Push stop!!!" My mate sulking making his friend laughs loudly. My heart tightens by his unconscious word. They got into the normal conversation again.

A ring from my business hand phone stopped me from eating. I slide the screen and my father's voice comes to my ears.

"Come back quickly... we are under attacks." The line was cut off.

"Guys, I need to excuse myself. The pack under attack. Terrance will back with me and the others need to escort Kayla to her home." They nod simultaneously.

I rush out and bump into someone. My curse word stops at my throat when I felt the electric spark. I turn left and meet the person I getting crash into. The person had shock look.

"I'm sorry..." He gets my dropped key and gives back to me.

"Watch your step carefully next time." I harshly grab the key from his hand he almost gives me a watering stare before he averts his eyes in another direction.

"Sorry..." he mumbles under breath. I pass him without another word. I'm not mean to be harsh to him but somehow I end up being a big jackass.

A/N

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