Ivan POV

One year later...

I dropped my mate at one of his restaurant branch. Allen and Ernest fell asleep in the back seat with a cute innocent face. I am waiting while playing a game on my phone to kill the time. We were in our family outing aka honeymoon package.

Rylan force to bring our sons together. I was eyeing Allen that sleep soundless in behind. The rejection I did almost cost me losing my own son and the pack only heir. Rylan told me about himself after he left the town.

Where he suffered morning sickness and fevered to meeting a crazy doctor for an abortion. He was in tears when recounted the episodes in his life, wrenched my heart endlessly. One I knew was his still blaming himself until today for planning to abort our son. I should be the one who shouldered the blame. If I never rejected him, maybe he never had been in that bad situation, meeting the crazy human that disregard a humanity.

It was a close called when he cancel the planned. Although he successfully ran away from them, the knowledge of he was living in wooded area alone berated my inner until now. The bad thing could happen to him or our unborn baby anytime without anyone to protect him. What if he dies from the rogue or hunter attack or mad doctor hunts him?

I was useless shit of mate ever. I secretly thank my baby boy. Why? Because my instinct keeps telling me the boy had been protected his papa since he was in his womb. He makes me feel proud. God, I really the sinful person. Even, if I finish my lifetime to repay them, it still is not enough.

The thumps on the window bring me back to reality. Rylan smiles charmingly outside the car. I unlock the door and he immediately hopped in.

"Sorry, I had taken too long. The branch manager and main chef taken medical leave and they forgot to remind the staffs that they need to restock today." He fans himself. I turn the air-conditioning on full blast and switch on the engine.

"It is okay and the thing is unavoidable." I perk his slightly pouty lips.

"Eww, please put it under PG-13." Allen chuckled behind me.

"Why? Do you want a new sibling?" Allen's eyes glow with hope.

"Ivan, don't tell your silly joke on our sons." He hit my arms. Allen's hope crushed before it can blossom. Ralph had said that it was a miracle we had a son even though Rylan just a mere human. From the secret investigation, we didn't have any clue of Rylan lineage aside from the information that he was found in a drain.

Rylan rolled his eyes when Allen smartly outclasses him in bickering session. The father and son have many similarities. I smile when Ernest chuckled earned Allen glare. I glad that both of my sons start warmth to each other even though they have different circles of friend. Ernest may become a future jock class while Allen more all rounder person. Still the pack was favouritism Ernest over Allen.

We arrive at destination around 8'o clock. The place was crowded because the summer holiday. We had rented a house as Allen still not comfortable with strangers. My parents offered to babysit the kids but Rylan rejected it.

The kids seem excited to start their adventure starting tomorrow. Orlando Land was chosen among several places we have discussed. The look on their eyes melted my first option of going to Honolulu-Oahu. That was what you get if you family consist all males. I sighed in defeat when Rylan had taken their side and promised me that our next family vacation will be on my choice.

An alpha may the strongest person in the pack but we are a lot weak to our important one. Even though the drove was long but it was worth. Allen and Ernest share the room. Rylan order them to take a bath and sleep early as we start the adventure early morning.

I accompany Rylan when he reads the story to the boys. Both of the boys say goodnight and kiss us before they drift into dreamland. Rylan dimmed the light and closed the door. I grab him and lead him into the house balcony. We can see the colourful light decorate the place.

Rylan gasps when spot the couch and table filled with red wine and light late dinner. Since the converted, Rylan appetite also skyrockets but he didn't gain any unnecessary fat. I bring him to a table and sit him on the couch. Our honeymoon was delayed one year but it didn't break our joy tonight.

Specially, this man finally accepts me wholeheartedly. My world turns 360 degrees. Moreover, the pack members adore him than me. I also learnt about the bullied he had through at the college that caused him dropped out. I had punished those warriors behind his back because he won't let me do. His reason was that thing happened before he meets me.

Cedric claw inside me furiously until I damned them a punishment. What made me given them a light punishment because they admitted their own fault. Rylan never rat them out. Now, those thugs had become his befriend or so. I enforce new law that forbid any bullies or else the bully will kick out of the pack.

"Ivan...geez we should sleep early too. You're tired." I snapped back to reality.

"No, I want to have a late snack with you." I chuckled.

Rylan slice the cake, for him and me. I pour the wine into two glasses. "I relieved that everything starts taking the right path. Thank you Munchkin for making my dream becomes truth" I sit beside him as we take a view in front us. The star filled the night sky chest as if they were blessing our happiness.

"Happy anniversary, my sweet Alpha." Rylan beat me saying these words. I smack myself because I think he was forgotten today date.

"Happy anniversary, my beloved Munchkin. So, you just faked an ignorant." He amused by my statement. He is so sly but that what make him so adorable.

"Happy anniversary to us." We are both say together and toast our glasses.

After finishing our drink, my adrenaline pushes up that have wiped all the sleepy symptom and tiredness. I carried my beloved in bridal style while he starts poking me in dangerous spots. He laughed so hard when I thrown him onto the mattress. He stops laughing and my eyes follow his sight to the nightstand drawer.

I pick two green and blue cards and two wrapped gifts. I didn't notice when the boys snuck into our bedroom and slipped the gifts. My eyes are blurring and Rylan as well.

"Dad and papa, I know love holds the most powerful force, and must treated with care and respect. You both hold this force dear, and I wanted to say I love you and happy anniversary. Your beloved son, Allen." Rylan read the blue card and unwrapped the gift. Two mugs with our name, wedding picture and italic 1st Year Anniversary italic word embedded on it. He skims the mugs and gives me one.

"I'm glad to call you both my parents, and I hope to have love like yours someday. Happy anniversary, daddy and papa. From Ernest." I unwrapped another gift that contains wolf keychain that mirror our own wolves. The 1st Year Anniversary carved on the wooden wolf stomach. I give one to my mate. I know my parents were the culprit behind this.

I wipe off the tears rolling down on my mate cheeks. He smiles as he also wipes my tears. The boys sure know how to make us speechless and heart-warming. We place the gifts on the nightstand while I resume my move from earlier. Rylan wrapped his arm around my neck as we deepen the kiss. I never tired by the hungry kiss from him.

The kisses become the first point before everything from first night love making session replay again. My mate is hot and bold man that never makes the bedroom dull. He just not braves enough to top me. Like hell, I will become a bottom. We kissed in a heated moment as the lust keeps rising. Drowning in high pleasure and keeps exploring each other feeling. The excitements never die even after ours bodies became one after countless times.

Like now when he was writhing beneath me in need. I am certainly pleased to meet his inquiry just like what Cedric and I need too, right now. As per agreement, Cedric and I will take turns to loving our mate. Cedric have taken him out for dates that mostly explore the forest.

In all honesty, sometime my mind conjures or thinks about how he was with Alfred. The mere thoughts never failed in making me jealous over time. In reality, we were even as he also sometimes felt insecure to please me and compare himself with my past women. We have been soothing each other hearts with a promised never repeat any of those things again.

"I am lucky to have you as my husband and this is my best day in my life." Rylan said in big grinned.

"You are truly a blessing from God. Thank you for being my partner, husband, lover, and friend, my dear Munchkin." I say kissed the sweats forehead. He watched me in a daze from a tiring activity we had earlier.

"Time to sleep before our boys came to wake us up." He said after I clean him. We have two more hours before the midgets come into our room. We sleep in full pyjamas and let the window open to airing out the sexual scent in our bedroom.

***

"Daddy, wake up?" I groan when cold tiny fingers on my cheek.

"Papa, wake up, please." Another child like voice sounded far from me. I hear the rustling duvet.

"Hi, morning, baby boys." Rylan sleepily greets them. "...Ivan, wake up." I grunted but still succumbed to sleep.

Then, I suddenly jerk up from the bed when a cold water sprinkles on me. The boys' laughter and Rylan just smirk awaiting my reaction. A bowl of cold water rest on his hand. I out of bed and haul Rylan in bridal style. The cold water splashes around us.

"Okay, boys, start dressing up and wait us in the living room. We will breakfast outside and begin today explore." The kids hooray and running out of the room.

I bring my husband and dump him under the shower rain. Payback time. He shivers when the droplets start hitting his bare skin. I am slowly changing the shower to warmth level. We are kissing and cleaning each other bodies without any sexual intent because the boys will kill us if we take our sweet moment.

The boys stomped in excitement once they arrive at the first day attraction park, Disney. They run around as if all the things they saw were real life toys and tried everything. Thankfully, Allen and Ernest have the same interest in picking everything.

"I glad that I'm one of you now. The boys excited to notice that one of their parents originally a human." Rylan complaint beside me after long walked. I used a camcorder to film our boys without missing any beat. Both of us glad that we could take two weeks leave. The day ended with the boys, keep running around that they almost refuse to eat.

Rylan threat to short our vacation if they being so stubborn. He and I already planned everything in advance. We want to give them fullest enjoyment and solidify our bond. When the night came, the boys sleep in total tiredness. They turn to bed earlier than usual but still talking about next day activities. That was why I groaned when they voted for this kind of place. Rylan hugs me from behind, a scent of fresh shampoo and body soaping hit my nose.

"I'm fucking tired." I said when he sways our body.

"I'm fucking happy when watching our sons truly in enjoyment." He kisses my neck.

"You should've taken the bathing first. I had already prepared a warm salty bath for you, Love." I chuckled when he act like this skilful 'wife' attend all my need. Seeing his smile was enough to wipe off the tiredness in my body system.

I undress and soak myself in the steam bathtub. After an hour, I drain out the tub, soaping myself and use the shower to cleanse myself. I sit on the bed, waiting my bed. He comes into the bedroom, bringing some late snack and lemonade. He shook his head when seeing me drink the water like craving pregnant woman.

"Thirteen days to go and you are already beaten in only one day..." He chuckled.

"No need to remind me." I groaned while grabbing him into my laps. The boys want to conquer all the theme park around Colorado.

Rylan suggest us to sleep early too to face tomorrow challenge. Like always, we cuddle and in no time the sleep blanket us. I feel like the sleep was the short one when the alarmed almost bust our eardrums. Rylan gets off the bed and my eyes follow his sway movement to the door. He yawns and rubs his eyes a few times before open the bathroom door.

I am also getting up from the bed and walking to my son's bedroom. No movement detected mean they are still sleeping. I open the door. "Rise and shine, boys. That still is you want to continue today activity. I'm cool being at home." I shout. Payback time for yesterday.

Both of the boys were getting up from their bed faster. They kiss my cheeks as Ernest running into the bathroom and Allen prepare their clothes. I patted his head and mention to await us in the living room. The same routines repeated for fourteen days. Honestly, the tiredness and body soreness disappear unnoticeable after a few days.

And, here we are on our way to get back to our pack. Ernest impatiently at behind seat, mumble some stuff while Allen is cuddling with the big bear in drowsiness. Rylan is the one who driving now. I missed my pack and friend.

In middle way, both of the back occupants fell asleep. I entertain Rylan by telling him my childhood life that filled with pranked and mischief. He said that Allen also like playing pranks when they were at old pack.

We arrive at pack ground around four p.m. My parents quickly hug our sons. Ernest runs to find his friend group while Allen quickly gathers all his prize toys. He shrugged when my father helps to bring his stuff.

The day passed with us having a dinner at my parents' house. Ernest wanted spending time there. We back to the home. In the middle of the night, I hear a screeching sound and gently get up from the bed. Rylan still is sleeping soundly. I opened the door and spotted Allen tugs his new toys basket to the front door. I watch as he was walking to the pack house with some help from two pups. I mask my scent and secretly follow them. Allen distributes his new toys to the omega pups, telling them about his experience. They talked in hushed voice. As a parent, I feel so proud knowing my son not selfish rich boy. I wait until I saw Allen sleep with them and decided to back.

The morning come and I was being woken with panic Rylan. He told me that Allen was missing. Recently, Rylan kept complaining that he was having a niggling feeling that sometimes make him awoke in the middle of the night because unwanted nightmare. I grab his hand and tell him about the last night event. He smiles and tells me that Rylan really close to omega than the stronger pack member.

We breakfast in the room. My mate really spoils me to rotten; "Hmm, Munchkin, I decide to send Allen to Alpha school. We can choose either let him stay in the dorm or commute every day. The school not far from here, I think in half an hour." He drinks the coffee.

"It is compulsory to send him there? When?" He says in reluctant.

"Next year... Yeah, it is compulsory. Supposedly, we start sending the alpha pup when they are eight years old. But, Allen is special and shifts earlier plus he is intelligent."

"How about Ernest? Wasn't the alpha is him?"

"No, Ernest will become Allen's Beta. The truth is he is not biologically mine. Therefore, he can't inherit the pack. Also, his DNA was containing Beta dominance. I hope your love for him not faded away with this piece of information."

"No, he stills is my child." I glad he accepts it. "How you want to inform him? He must disappoint knowing the alpha title won't belong to him." Sadly, this is true. I wonder how I want to break the news to them. Ernest was always being trained to become next alpha. It is like I was stripped him from the one of his great wish merciless.

"Allen not really interested in that stuff." Rylan mumbled slowly.

"He may not but he still needs to lead the pack somehow. The pack won't be at its peak if we simply put a person to lead. It needs its true alpha." I sighed. Rylan hugs me as we lost what to say. My stupid acted had come bite my ass severely.

I will need to tell him soon but decide to delay it because we still in a happy moment. The life goes as normal as it can be. The hunters and rogues movement also was halted at the moment. As if, the peace has back to us. Rylan's businesses also expand and he uses the talented young member of us to manage some of his restaurants. When he had a time, he would visit his ex-family in law and Alfred grave with Allen.

The peaceful time we share now was just for a short while. We are about to forgetting the dangerous that lurking around us. It is just like the calm before the storm. We let the guard down and here we are in the way taste it.

Alpha, help... rogue... - The link dies before I can reply. I dismount from the bed, making Rylan groan as he also gets up.

"What is happening?" He rubs his eye tiredly. He was late last night after visit one of his restaurant.

"Rogue attack! Rylan, I need you to run to the south wing of pack house. The shelter room was in there. I had alerted all members and the warriors have lead the member there. Please ensure all omegas safety in my place." I quickly wear shorts.

"Please be safe... for me and our sons. I can't lose you. I..." He is shaking while dressing up. He cusses when his hand trembling that hard to zipping his sweater.

I help zipped up and hug him, "Munchkin, I promise I will come back in one piece. No matter what, I will fight to stay alive because I still is unwilling parting from my family." I kiss him. He nods and we walked to our sons' room.

Luckily, Allen and Ernest are waiting us at the staircase. "Boys, I need your help to calm the pups. Do whatever you can to push away the fear in them, can you?" I kneel down to their height, taking both of the boys in my chest. God, please watch their safety for me.

Rylan kiss me again before bring the boys into the shelter direction. My parents take Ernest with them as Rylan busily lead the weak and omegas to safe place. I shift into my massive wolf, running to the direction where the battle takes on. Please I don't cause any causality anymore. Why they won't leave us alone?

The red blood painted the green leafs and soils. The scene was so horrible with the injured and the falling soulless body merciless break off from their life. I dunk when one of the hunters firing me. I lung to that person and ripped his neck mercilessly. This is battle, there is not right or wrong when everyone stands for their own justice. Dead was unavoidable. There are only two results in the end, you either win or defeat.

I do know today life I take will haunt me later in nightmare form and guilty. But, I need to do it for my people. If we collapse here, all the pack's members will be mass slaughter victim. The fight goes on where I had lost count how many souls I had taken down. I block my humanity pack as I let Cedric take over when I start losing my strength.

I just watched from inside when Cedric takes down the enemies while protect the injured members. I hope Terrance, Jeremiah, and Carlos side also ends with victory. Cedric block a mate connection when one of the bullets hit our left hind leg.

Ours side clear. - Jeremiah shouts in my mind.

Me too. - Carlos said.

Sweet victory. Those cowardice idiots run to the end of the world. - Terrance was given a fake laughter in the mind link.

Good job, guys. If your side truly clear please assist here and one of you head back to the pack ground. - Carlos decides to head back while another two troops heading in my direction.

"Lucky me, getting an alpha head." Cedric snarled when another bullet penetrates my leg.

We fought like a mad fighter strives for winning. The ways he fight meaning, he is the boss. The fight will stop if I kill this person. Cedric agrees to end this meaningless fight quickly. The gunshots and howls are starting to low down. The hunter was too absorbed in dealing with me without pay attention behind him. Mark takes that opportunity crushed his neck. He gurgled before going limp.

Thank you, Mark. – I shift back to human and fallen down on my ass. My strength is fading out because the silver bullet in my flesh and blood loss. I saw Terrance arrive at the scene in blurring eyes.

Judging from their expression, I could say that this site having the worst fatality or a main target for those bastards penetrate our territory. Finally, the fight ended but the sorrow filled the atmosphere. We are the winner but the casualties are higher. God damn it! Terrance supports me as the warriors start collecting the fallen warriors.

Alpha, the residence area is free from any intrusion. – Carlos informed me.

Thank you. – I almost collapse when Terrance grabs me.

"Jeremy, take the lead to clean the area. Ivan needs an immediate treatment. I'd ask the pack doctor ready for surgery. Split the member into three, for bringing the injured/dead member to pack ground, buried the dead hunters and rogues, and lastly, clean the ground." Terrance is giving the order.

"Noted, Beta." Terrance shift to his wolf form and Jeremy lift me on Terrance's back. He dashed out while minding my condition.

Carlos takes me off from Terrance back, rushing into the pack clinic. I lost consciousness when they are reeling the gurney into surgery theatre. I feel like my head almost split when I regain my consciousness back. I turn to left side and meet my mate with red eyes sobbing while grabbing my hand. Crap, I promised to come back in one piece.

"Munchkin, stop crying. I'm fine... mmm maybe not because my head throbbing like hell. Argh whatever... as long as I still alive." I groan when used my right hand to caress him.

"You scared me to the dead. You promised to back in safe... you're lying." He pauses when wipe off the tears. "... All I saw was the blood poured out from the wounded like river flow. You can slip from me anytime..." I fight the pain as I let him bawled out his feeling on my chest.

"Hmm, may I check the alpha condition?" Rylan give a sheepish smile.

The pack doctor checks me thoroughly, "Your healing is kicking in top notch, and you may resume all your activity by tomorrow. Nothing to worry." I smile thankfully. "Oh, I forgot that you 'cure' had back to you." He jokes around.

"Yeah, my 'cure' is more effective that your stinky and bitter pills." Rylan face deep red hearing the doctor word. He pouts beside me.

"Where are the kids?" I asked when the doctor leaves us.

"They are with your parents. We got separate shelter room." He tells me. "Don't worry your parents will coming around an hour later. I feel bad letting them babysits our sons."

"That is what family for, Munchkin." I assured him. I tell him everything happened in battle. He was angry when I block mate link that lead his mind going astray. I apologized for the matter and pacified his feeling. I never regret blocked the mate link during the battle. I don't want to let him feel the pain again.

An hour later, my noisy yet caring family arrive with mum hugs and nagging me nonstop. Rylan smirk supporting my mum berate me. Dad is just taking no one side.

"Where are Ernest and Allen?" I said when they didn't come with my parents.

"Ernest with Myra, helping in food distribution and Allen calm the scared pups." Dad answered me.

"What happen, Munchkin, Your face is kind of pale and restless." I also had a niggling feeling at the back of my back.

"I don't know... I have a restless feeling since a week ago. First, I think that it will gone after we won but somehow I still feeling it. I don't know, Ivan." I grab my mate close to me.

Daddy, papa, help me... bad man... – The mind link stopped. I dismount from the bed quickly.

Allen, baby where are you? – Rylan is yelling like broken man and run out of the room. I yank all the wires from my arm and chest, quickly rushing out after my mate while ignoring my parents question.

All warriors find my son, Allen now. For those whose last meet him please report to Terrance. – I send a mass order through mind link.

Roger, Alpha! – Hollers of warriors and pack member replied me.

This is not happening right. Please don't make my son through the same experience again. This time it is under my nose. I had promised to keep them safe. What have I done? I run to the omega group and ask them about my son. They all answered that my son had left them around fifty minutes ago. I found Rylan with streaming tears at pups basement.

"They had taken my son, my baby again." – He cries in my chest.

"Munchkin, I will track them now. Please make sure that you never go farther than residence ground. Please report me if Allen back, okay." I mind link Carlos to keep close eye on my mate meanwhile I and several high up warriors will hunt those hunter fuckers.

We trace the lingering scent of Allen that led us to the western border. The shitty happens when we lost Allen's scent because the river. Jeremiah and Terrance swim to other side but still can't detect any footstep or scents. Who is the kidnapper? Why there are no any stranger scents here? Carlos also informed me the hidden camera we place here totally damage.

I run along the riverbank, hoping I can catch any scent. We will damn if they use water path. We already late to catch them as the end of this river is sea. This was a well planned where the earlier attack just a decoyed to distract us. We had been fooled all along. Their true aimed was Allen. I let out a pain and angry howling that reverberating across the jungle. All the loose piece finally connected.

I stop when I almost run into another pack ground. I let out a howling to alert their patrol. Fortunately, their alpha greeted and shocked when I tell about my story. He immediately gives the access and uses a few of his guards, running along the riverbank. I tried mind link Allen a few times but failed. The cause either they have drug or he is unconsciousness.

I'm back to pack ground with an emptied result. We can't find him anywhere or pick up the scent of the kidnapper. I punch the wall after delivered the bad news to Rylan. He sobs uncontrollably. Ernest calms him but fail, resulting he also cried beside Rylan. I triple the pack security and call the pack around to deliver the news and ask their cooperation.

My cousin can't make it tonight as he was just struggling with rogue attacked too. Damn it, I asked Rylan to rest but he refuses. I deploy another batch of tracker lead by Carlos. We got a few permission to access neighbourhood land. I kiss Rylan forehead and leave the pack in my father hand. I promise Rylan that I only back once I get Allen.

My parents will temporarily move into my house to keep an eye on my mate and son. I howl while dashed in full speed to each neighbourhood land where they assist us in rummage their territory. I glad that they are help short our times in each territory we stepped. A day turns fast to week and today marked a month I was away from my pack.

We got to northern areas, my team already at their limit but still assist my selfishness. We annihilated quite an amount of rogues in our way but the resulted still zero. We spare the rogue that did not giving a threat. Some of the rogue willing to help us and they certainly were a great help. Kai and his mate also assist me in getting a permission from all the pack in our ways. Ralph also had supply me with the information of shady place. I had ordered the warriors who had family return back but some of them stubbornly follow me.

I reach the new pack when the alpha giving me messages that I need to call back to my pack. I said thank and use him office telephone calling my pack. Carlos answers and transferred the called to my dad. I'm tired and almost infected by insomnia as I can't sleep well. Each time my eyes close, I will have a nightmare of those kidnappers torture Allen. My condition right now almost like a walking corpse.

"Hello, son, are you there?" Came my father's voice that makes my shoulder goes slump.

"Yes, I'm here. Did we find Allen?" I hope a positive replied but he silence answered me better.

"Not yet, son but I need you to come back home soon. Your mate was collapsing." he pauses, "... he in..."

"Dad, he is okay, right?" My heart sinks with the news. Rylan had gotten bad depression.

"No... that's why I need you back here. He is in verge of miscarriage, son. He needs you." I take a deep breath. My dad delivers a joy news but the sadness overshadows it. I rummage my head, as I don't know what choice I should take.

"Son, come back soon please. If this prolongs, you might lose both your children and mate. Please I beg you. We will devise a new plan and dispatch." My dad desperate voice was begging me in the line.

"Okay." I feel my heart heavy and guilty. Why my promises are turning empty? How I want to face Rylan. I promised him many things but no one have a positive result. He needs me to support him but my spirit also in the lowest level that could break anytime.

Cedric had also become short temper and losing his rational sometime. He snapped even for small matter and refused to take any break. All of the tiredness takes great tolls on my body. I disconnect the called after a long silence.

"Guys, we will head back soon." All the faces were disappointed with my sudden decision.

"What happen?" Terrance asks to feed others warriors curiosity.

"My mate collapsed and in deep depression. I will make new plans and dispatched new team."

"Alpha, let us rest here waiting the new team. We can continue the searching." One of the warrior suggests.

"You have gone long from family and own life. I will change the new member." I sagged in the wall.

"Alpha, we still can go on and this good opportunity for us tracking our own mate too." another warrior chuckled.

"If that's what you want, then who want to continue this mission can stay over and others can back with me." I pause. "Richard, can you grant them rest here until my new team coming?"

"Yes, they can." Richard patted my shoulder. "Oh, you can take my jet to back to your pack." I nod gratefully on his offer.

Richard gives the clothes to my warrior and me. After taking a dinner, he led us to the airport. He also let my new team use his jet to fly here. I thank him. Because the tiredness and sore I finally catch a sleep. The captain announces that we had arrived at my pack nearest airport. Carlos and Jeremy greet me with bitter hugs. They had provided the lodge to jet crews too. Carlos, Jeremiah, and Terrance always take turn searching my son.

I rushed out from the SUV car once we stopped at the pack clinic. I follow the faint scent of my mate and seeing that Ernest crying beside the paler sleeping Rylan. His lips cracked and cheeks sunken after keep losing the weight.

"Glad to see you, Alpha." The pack doctor hugs me.

"How he is?" I ask impatiently.

"He had already woken this noon but still in weak condition that is not good for the baby. He can miscarriage anytime if his condition didn't have any improvement. He also was in malnutrition case... " the doctor pause when my eyes black out.

"Ivan, wake up..." I groan and my head throbbing like I had been hit by a truck. In bleary sight, I spot Rylan tears eyes bore on mine.

"What happen? Where I am?" My mind can't process well.

"You're in the pack's clinic and fainted last night." Memories of the failures mission and almost losing my mate were coming in mind. I hugged Rylan and sobbed while keeping whispering apologizes. He hugs me back without asking the detail.

"Take me too in the next searching..." I shook my head because he isn't in condition to search our son. "Why?" He weakly asks me.

"Munchkin, why are you neglect yourself and fell into depression? You know that can lead you..." I can't finish the sentence.

"I worried about Allen and you. When I sleep, Allen scream and scare hit me it goes to you. In addition, I stopped eating when I have just thrown up later. I want my boy back, Ivan." He words wrecking up my heart.

"You know why?" He shook his head while raking my scalp. "Munchkin, you're pregnant and we almost lose the baby because you're in deep depression. For now, Terrance will take over the searching party until you get better. After that, I will lead the team again." I kissed his tear stained cheeks. I miss this man and his soothing scent.

"Why now? In this crucial time...." He wails in my arms. He just slumped in my hugged.

"Are you regret having it?" I hope not.

"No... Just..." his word was cutting off by small exclaim voice.

"Daddy, I will get new sibling?" Ernest asks softly. I nod and take him in my arm too. He minds the IVs drips that attached at my left hand. This will be our joyful moment if Allen was here.

"Thank Goddess," He wraps his little arms around Rylan's waist. Rylan wraps him in his hugs but I know he still is waiting that Allen burst into the room by miracle. Ernest wipes off the tears from Rylan's cheeks.

"I will protect you, dad, and younger sibling with all my might. So papa, please don't cry anymore. I love you and I'm sorry for..." Rylan cut him off by hugs.

"No, baby boy. It is me and your father responsibility to protect you and any member in our family." I take both of them in my hugs, letting them vent all the frustration and crying all they want.

Allen, please stay strong. I will coming to you soon. – I ground my teeth with Cedric madly claw inside me. His anger skyrocket when seeing our mate condition, the nightmare and wrecked we are. We swear that we will hunt and killing those bastards without giving second chances.

Rylan POV

The thing I swore to prevent happening again. My baby had been taken from us in the middle of confusion. No scent or lead to guiding our search party. Ivan keeps going back and forth to check my condition and leading the team. It is a miracle that he didn't collapses yet after that one time. He objects when I express to join his search party. And, the doctor orders me never shift until I give birth.

I settled all the paperwork as I can't transform or doing something better because of side effect of depression and pregnancy. Ivan's parents greatly support and checking me on behalf of Ivan, when he got away. Ernest is also sleeping with me when Ivan not at home. I became overprotective over Ernest, as he is the only pup.

Ernest like an understanding pup never hates or complains on my possessive side. I'm scared, I'm traumatized. With Ivan whole time spend outside making the uneasiness and agonise easily swipe me to depression. I need to stay strong for our unborn child and family sake. I know that Allen still alive, alive without the guarantee from torturing.

I feel useless even though I have a wolf with me. I should have heeded the unsettling feeling I had since we got home from the vacation. The ignorant had paid me a great loss. Ivan also was desperate in finding our pup. His eyes become vacant and empty when report the result of his finding. His office wall and few of sandbags become the punching bag to channel the frustration. The proud alpha wolf, Cedric will flatten his ear each time he shifts front me.

I am in the healing process from depression after third times I admitted into the pack's clinic. The third almost killed our unborn babies after I got bleeding after fainted and fell onto hard tiles. The doctor said that my wolf taken the falling impact that slightly save our babies. After thoroughly doing the check up where we found out that we got a twin instead one pup. The doctor giving me an option either staying at the ward until I give birth or completely rest at home. Therefore, I chose the latter and the doctor will check me one time per day.

The nightmares always invade my sleep that makes my eyes fresh after having one. Therefore, to avoid from falling deep into the depression, the doctor prescribe me some vitamins and herbs drink that helping me in taking naps. When I was working through the pack files or my own business one of the warrior will act as my PA.

I had gotten use with the new lifestyle, as it is necessary for the sake of my unborn babies and lightening Ivan's worried. I keep praying that we found Allen soon. I know some of the pack members and the warrior had lost their hope to finding Allen. As a parent, my guts tell me Allen still alive and waiting us for rescues him. Ivan also was having the same empathy. That all we need even though in the end, we are the only one leave to find our son.

I swipe the smartphone that keep vibrates in my pocket, "Hello, any new lead?" I bit my lips in hoping a good news.

"Not yet, Munchkin. The clinic had been closed because of medical malpractice but the doctor fled before police arrive. They are in wanted list." I told Ivan about the crazy doctors and he decides to investigate them.

"God damn it." I sighed because my instinct telling that they were involved in this case.

"So, how about my unborn babies doing? Does they still playing football in yours?" Ivan chuckled as he shifted the topic.

"Yeah, they're twice naughtier than Allen was. They kick my stomach like some punching bag." I grunted when I feel another kick.

"I want to feel their kick." He whines in the line. "Munchkin, I need to heed back. Carlos seems find something over here. I'm coming back around three more days, as I wanted to accompany you in the labor room. I don't want to miss it anymore." His voice sound dejected.

"I'll expect you before them wheeling me into the room, Love. I love you, Ivan and take care." I kiss him over the phone.

"I love you too, Munchkin and don't stress yourself." He kisses me over the phone too before the line disconnect.

I sighed as I was waiting Ernest at the school gate. I avoid from getting out from the car. Ernest taps the window and I open the lock. He kisses me before I drive back. That is my routine since I nearly reach the due date.

A/N

Guys, enjoy the final chapter of this book. Sorry, for blowing anyone happy mood from the previous chapter. This chapter is important for the next book actually. I will try to update the epilogue within this week. Honestly, I haven't take any sleep within 24 hours yet because my friend and his deadly black coffee. Now give me a lot of comment and vote for me to read after waking up later. Thank you very much.