Chapter 31

Last night was an awesome slept I gotten after I confronted Ivan. No more nightmare invaded the sleep and I felt secure in the strong yet warm embraced. I study the calm face whom lightly snores beside me. The red bites on the skin making my heart swell with pride. Such a good viewed to starting my day. I plant a good morning kiss and giggle when he wriggles with close eyes.

Guess I need to bath alone today. I got into the bathroom and seem my naked reflection in the length mirror. My skin filled with the angry love bites. I traced once by once embrace last night scene. The lovemaking session was slightly different from others, mixed with soft and hardcore technique yet the feeling of contentment was so high to describe with any word.

Alfred seems shifted into a new person that was different from his usual self. The new discovery begins to stir the curious side in mine. I wanted to discover more of his secret underneath his playful mask. Last night had proven that Alfred has many other sides that he hides from me.

My eyes were red puffy from crying too much in pleasure last night. Is it only the pleasure? I blush and smile but then it all writhing from my face. I just remember the real cause wasn't from the love making session but the one that I deemed not worthy to forgive as I alive.

The sweet happiness that just rose up became paler comparatively to the worry in my heart. How is he? Who can provide the information? I slumped into the bathtub when my mood deflates in depression again.

I am the worst an example of human for giving in pleasure when another person coped with the dead right now. Is this the sweet revenge I always wanted? No, it is not sweet at all. What I taste was pure bitter and searing pain over my soul. I can't confide with anyone after I put a mountain denied over that person.

In addition, Alfred will disappoint if he knows what the thought I was having here. I've used Alfred to escaped from bitter true. I used our sacred love making to distracted me from thinking about Ivan. I hurt both men with my indecisiveness and childish behaviour.

At the times like this, I wished Reese will appear and I can blurt the entire hidden secret inside me. The hurt, the betrayed, the loved, and confusion that co- exist in my heart. I wanted someone that not related to both parties, that can advise and ensure me not taking the destruction way.

I wanted the certain future, for my son and me. Alfred has proven that he was qualified to provide it to me. Ivan? I don't know his betrayal make me scared to put any hope on him. However, I know he was a great father just like how shattered he was when Allen unconsciousness hating him. The inhuman person just had taken a kid commented with bleeding heart.

A knock on glass door wake me from the mixed emotion. I splash the cold water across my face hoping it could cure some of crying effect. Gosh, why my eyes work like broken dam? It is so embarrassing to face anyone. I should not have let someone else opinion stirred the relation between Alfred and me.

I'd disappointed him in this matter. Why not I just blindly trust him just like the time when he proposed me. Why I am so weak? So, waver to solidify our bond. Alfred never lied and it is vain to compete with a dead person. The rejection signed makes me so damn emotion and cannot think rationally.

"Babe, I've prepared breakfast. Come up quickly because my stomach has begun singing the hungry song since thirty minutes ago." He whistles on the other side of the door.

"Wait a second." I said after pull off the tub's plug to drain the used water. I take the towel and wrap it around my waist. Alfred spots me with a desire eyes in his eyes.

He pulled me close to him, dried me using another towel. He treats me like how he treated Allen. Speaking of Allen, I need to meet him first before we are going to Ivan's pack. I dress up quickly as I heard his stomach growl hungrily. He burst into laughed like a stupid loon.

We eat the breakfast silently. His cooking skill was still so-so level. At least the food look like edible as its name. Before, his foods were effective as a laxative pills replacement. The practiced over the years has fruitiest at last. The breakfast consists a smoked bacon or could I say all the dish related to meat. I shook my head as he tries to contain the laugh from escaping his nostril.

"So, are we going as the last night planned?" Alfred asks me while licking his finger somehow in a seductive manner.

"Yeah, and I want to meet Allen before we are going there." The nervousness was so clear in my voice.

"Nothing will happen, babe. Trust me; I will do my bet to ensure everything is okay. Think positive for me and for our son. We will grow old together, watching Allen built his own family and we are surrounded by lovely grandchild." Alfred stares straight at me.

"Yeah, I trust your word my beloved husband." I said as I wiped the wild tears running down my cheek.

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Time was flying so fast for my liking. We were on the way to Crimson Moon Knight pack. The road was busy because the weekend with a few of impatient honks when the traffic become heavily. My mind keeps asking me if this is what I truly want. I don't have the answer yet but a part of myself can't continue betraying my husband. He lit the light in my darkness moment.

I lean on his shoulder, listening his humming a song playing by one of the radio station. Sometimes, he was raining a kisses on my hair and lightly caresses my hair. His eyes still were eyeing the road carefully.

"Are you still feel nervous, Babe?" He broke the silent.

"Yeah, and a little afraid if something goes wrong." I tell him my honest feeling.

"I'll stay by your side during the ritual. So, please wipe off the worry look. It's not suitable to decorate my beloved husband's face." He runs the thumb across my nose.

I lean in and kiss his cheek to express my gratitude. I know I certainly love this man. Maybe after the breaking ritual we can finally manifest our love as a whole and complete. My chest beats in nervous as if it significance something bad will happen.

"Why are you still wear a deep frown, babe?" His finger caressed in between my brows.

"I don't know, Love. My guts tell me something bad will happen." I feel a cold sweat form on both of my hands. My legs suddenly cramped and feel so cold as if I stepped on an iceberg.

The more we move further toward the pack, the more I feel like my will begin to writhe. I hate this an unknown feeling. Alfred put his hand on my hand, encourage me to stop thinking about the bad think. He turns to face me when a loud blasting honk almost deafens our ears.

Alfred turns back to the road only to see a lost control truck get straight to us. Fortunately, Alfred didn't freeze off. In the split of minutes, he turns the steering to left quickly, making the car off the road. The car turns a few times before it stands still.

Is this the bad omen? Is this what my gut tries to tell me? Is the fated angry because I rejected the planned to be one with Ivan? I felt a wave of tremor on my body enough for pulling me from questioning land. The accident almost makes my heart jumping out.

"Are you okay? Sorry for diverting my eyes from the road." A rigorous yet gentle breathes fanning across my face.

I hug him when my mouth still refuses to speak any word. I think I need to call Ivan and cancel today planned. This is must be the sign we need to cancel the trip. My mouth open and close a few times until I could muster a courage inside me.

"I think it is better we turn back. I'll re-schedule the breaking ritual date and time again." I said caress his strong back.

"It is up to you, babe." He says and starts the car's engine again.

I spot a blink flash in between our seat. I fishes around it and found the light from Alfred's handphone. I put the password and see the almost twenty miscalled from Albert.

"Hello, Albert." I said after the called connected.

"We are under attacked. The rogues have piled up across the border and fight with first defends patrol guard." His voice urgency before the phone disconnected.

"We need to return to pack. They were under attacked." I said tearfully while thinking my son among them.

"What? Call Ivan now to gets some help." He harshly makes a U-turn earning a hate glare and blasting honk.

I dialed his number but all of it just directly to the voice mail. The office number also was not picked by anybody. I feel the creep crawled at the back of my neck. Damn it! Why he unavailable when I need his assistance? He was indeed an unreliable in crucial time. Someone like he is unfit as he tried to convince me.

I saw Alfred gripped the steering tightly, ignore the traffic light, and almost cost the accident during his rush. A billion curses accompany him whenever the road didn't suit his taste. I only think about my son. Have him safely tucked among other pack member in safe room? Did he injure? I can't masked my worried and sniffling when the worst thought assault my mind.

The sky has been painted with dark clouds as if to mirror our turbulence hearts. Alfred quickly park near the guard post at the entrance. He gesture me to out from the car as he shift into his wolf form. I don't hesitate to hopped on his back when he crouched front me. He sprints through the light bush and we reached the pack house five minutes later.

The pack ground was eerily quiet without any sound could have be detected. I feel suffocated with the scenery, and then we hear the pain howling from east border. Alfred shift back to human with grieve look while he pull me into unused shed. He didn't mutter anything except a heavy breath.

I feel a knot in my stomach, the knot that indicates something bad will befall on us. Alfred wipes the grass on a floor that reveals a secret passage. He asked me to climb down before him. He led me to the silver steel door.

"Open the door." He shouts suddenly.

Alfred Nightshade, access granted – a computer voice reply him.

The door suddenly moves and we could hear the cried and movement from inside. I stepped inside the room and spot the elders, females and children occupied the room. I dragged my eyes around but didn't spot Allen.

"Where is Allen?" I burst into cry.

"He is with alpha's family in another safe room. The Alpha currently engaged with one of the battles at the borderline." One of the female look at me with tears stained face. I want Alfred to get me to another safe room but it was too late.

Door close! – Alfred voice is booming inside the passage. "Sorry but I need to help my brother. I love you, Babe." He smiles when seeing me try to hold the crack from close.

"Please don't do this to me, love. I need to ensure Allen's safety. Take me to him. Please, I love you too." One of the member grabs my body as I see Alfred still staring at me until the door completely shut down. I slammed onto the floor worrying and wondering what will happen to my dear ones.

"They will safe. The alpha can protect us like them have done in the past." An old female caress my back.

Please.... Please.... Please God, please protect Allen from any danger. I lean on the wall with silence cried. I don't care if people judge the way I'm right now. The dread feeling grow out worst when I start to have a panic attack sign. I brace myself to stay awake and don't cause other any problem. It's not just I who face the trouble, others also feeling the same ways but hide it very well.

I don't know how much hours had passed since I locked here. However, it feel like a long hell years. The kids were laying around sleeping soundly around pack members. Judging from it, I could say the bright day had been replaced by darkness. No sound or news comes to us.

My mind drifts into a countless possibilities that I unable to notice that I was slowly falling into sleep. The next time I know I already surrounded by sleeping pack members. The space divided to three; kid, female and male. The snoring and sleeping talking was the sound I could hear.

I know if I ask around people can tell me what time right now but I fear that my worry is double after that. The silence was killing me from inside. What happen to them? Did they fight? The current situation makes me forget about the appointment I would earlier. Plus, I left my phone in the car.

After long waiting the door finally open, I spot Alfred and the few warriors covered with fresh and dried blood. The mates run to their other half, the space filled with heart wrenching cried, and words that make no sense.

Alfred slowly engulfed me in his bloody yet warm hug. I hugged him back and cried, as I wanted. He caresses my back and slowly leads me outside. The field view not too much for my liking, corpses, wailing mates and children, burn stench houses etc.

"Daddy, Papa..." A loud scream takes my attention. I open my arm when my son jumps in with cry decorate his face. I also turn messy sobs but no longer in worry. It is somewhat a happy cried because peoples I care utmost were safe return to me.

"Sir, we need to treat the injured warrior soon and we need to build the temporary medical tent to accommodate the patient number. " I did not recognize this eerie red glowing eyes person.

"Yes, you can do now." Alfred said in the slightly tired voice.

They must from an alliance party. I did not pay them enough to look as I sway my baby boy in my chest. Alfred tells me that Albert sustained great wound that make him lay on the patient bed for a while. Alfred pulls me into the Alpha's house and asking me resting there.

He tucks the sleeping Allen and me under a thick quilt in the guest room. I pull his hand before him stand up. "Thank you for coming back safely. I love you, Love." His eyes were glassy as he wipes the tears away.

"I've complete my promised today and forever." He kisses and persuades me to take the good rest. Allen cuddled to my chest and drift to dreamland as I follow him not long after. I feel the burden lift out of my shoulder.

The sleep was not doing me any better. The dream of bloody battle and losing the person I hold dear put me in trauma. A part of me knows this just a dream, but the vision was so clear that muddled my rational.

I wake up with irregular breathe, slightly relief when spot my son sleep beside me but Alfred nowhere inside the room. I washed my face, take a bathed, and prepare the food as much as I can. Once finished, I step outside the house to searching Alfred. He still stood in the middle of the field. The scene not much difference from last night except the field full with the erected tents.

I walked to Alfred and he turn around when my scent hit his nose. He gives me an exhausted smile with eyes still darting around. A sad emotion displayed on his now clean face. I help the victim's family whom unable to care their youngest member when mourning the loss one.

The omegas distribute breakfast around the pack's members. They also efficiently take care the little pups that can't possess the tragic event yet. I embrace myself praying the same tragic not befall on my family member.

The medical team still doing their best to saves bedridden members even though the patients may suffer a permanent disability. That is the proof of their braveness and sacrifice to ensure the pack member safety. Mostly, they still returned to their beloved family. They are the honorable heroes.

Tonight, Albert called for meeting to say farewell for fallen warriors. The whole members' faces displayed a great pain and sadness. All the peoples on the ground included the outsiders take their time to respect the long journey for those who lose their life. Albert promised to take care all the relative member and provided them the necessary help.

After that, Alfred pulled and led me to the house. Allen's laughter greets our ears when we stepped in. He played the games with his cousin. Alfred kisses his head and he does the same thing on Alfred cheeks. He expresses a thank you to Alfred for protecting us. We leave them to play as one of the warrior steps inside to watch them.

"Take the bath, eat, and sleep, Love. You need it." He sulks but follows on my order.

It as what Miranda said, Alfred wounded not heal yet. The cause of losing his mate making the healing slower than his brother does. Some bandage soaked with the blood. Unlike Albert that likes fresh as if he not involved in the battle.

I stepped into the bed and cuddled beside him. Alfred automatically dragged me to his chest. A creak door and small stepped indicated that Allen bedtime also coming up. The bed dips as he hugs me from behind. I turn around and take him in between us.

"Good night, baby boy." I pinched his nose bridge.

"Good night, papa." He whispers back as if he afraid making Alfred wake up.

The next morning also was in mourning mood. The pack members either console each other or escape from the crowd. The busy and sadness making me completely forgot about my own problem.

The day passed slowly as the other days. It takes time to heal all those wounded emotions. However, I don't want to exploit their sadness because the word means nothing if they have shut their own heart. Moreover, in their case the losing mean they have lost the wills to move forward.

I joined the elder women group, assist them to prepare the foods together with omegas group. Even in deep sadness, people still need the food to let them continue moving around. The talkative women whom love gossiped replaced by the gloomy and sadness. The kitchen was so quiet that all mouths afraid to mutter any wrong word.

"Rylan, Allen is missing." A news brought by one of the warrior makes my world turn to dark.

"What... no... you're kidding me." My hand let go the glass bowl I hold. The glass shattered into thousand pieces that some of it probing my feet.

"Unfortunately not... Alfred has dispatched the warrior to search him around the pack house but the result still zero." He said.

The omegas hold my body before I kiss the hard tiles. I pushed them and walked out of the kitchen. I search Alfred like crazy people, ignoring the people who try to greet me. I finally found Alfred whom gathering the warriors and trackers.

"Where is Allen? Don't tell me, they have taken him." His face was full with concerned.

"Sorry, but I don't know where he is. But I swear, babe, I'll find him until the end of the world." I sobbed into his chest. The bad niggling feeling I had lately been was the signed for this bad news.

"Please... please find him soon." I begged him.

"Yes, babe." He carrying me after my legs gives up. He sits me on the house's bench while instructing Miranda to watch me carefully.

Daddy, papa helps me. The rogues have taken me... papa... - Allen mind link us. That gives us some clue about his whereabouts. I feel in despair and hopeless.

"Don't let him wander alone." He kisses my forehead before shift and disappears in the thick lush greenery.

My mind is empty. I don't know what to do or why they were so heartless taken an innocent kid. From the rumor rogues never let go their prey easily. They will torture the victim until they lose the will to live. Rape and mutilated body always the result of their devil craft. I can't contain the terror emotion anymore. I scream and keep screaming in deafening high pitched that could damage werewolves heightened ear.

"Calm yourself, son. Nothing bad will going to happen to Allen." Alfred's father word never store in my mind as I keep screaming and wailing in his chest.

Ivan, please come and help our son. Please god or whatever whom heard my pray, please let my pray reaching Ivan. Our son is in danger. Our son was taken by the mindless rogues. Please he just a small kid. Please Ivan! I see the pack doctor came close to me. I struggle as I know she want to knock my consciousness. I resist them so much. However, I'm just a mere powerless human. No! I don't want to be put unconsciousness while my son condition unknown.

"Ivan, please come and save Allen." I scream with loudly before the darkness curtain my view.

A/N

Sorry for the delayed, my schedule got crazy packed. Hope you will enjoy the chapter just like the previous once. Thank you for always supports, votes, and comments. Love you all.