RYLAN POV

One week has passed since the day Alfred and that an arrogant alpha broke into the fight. Honestly, I really scared to watch a werewolf fight. The worse was when Allen witnesses the fight and developed a hate toward his own father. It is wrong for him to harbor such a negative feeling to his biological father.

The sensation of gotten punched by two men was painful like hell. It was not their fault because without thought I got in between them. Alfred repeatedly apologizes to me. However, there were another pain follow up the punched pain. I don't know what the cause, but the pain was ten times worse than it.

I feel like being stabbed by sharp tools, a torn limbs and an unspoken pain. The part to involve with the pain had a dark purplish marked. I hid it behind the punched incident. Gosh, this is so confusing.

Thankfully, the relationship between Alfred and me was unaffected by that incident. He understand and happy with my decision. On the hand, I couldn't brush off the guilty feeling and bad forebode feeling I feel right now. In addition, the last hurtful and guilty showed by Ivan somehow, the sighted broke my heart; almost make me wanted to comfort him.

The way his make an exit also not likely him at all. Damn it, why I can read his action. I felt his agony and regretted. Moreover, I felt he gave up for everything in his life. Or, it just my wild imagination. I hope I totally about this. Wasn't it better for us if he gives up? No, could not accept it. The tiny voice in my mind screamed.

I'm shocked after hearing the tiny voice. No, that not true. My love only for my husband, that was the true fact, I shake my head a few times, ignoring the crying tiny voice inside me. The tiny voice somehow manages to shake the cold ice in my heart.

"Babe... babe." My head snapped to Alfred.

"Hmm, What?" I said dumbfounded.

"Why you doze off?" He takes me into his hugs.

"Oh, sorry... I don't notice it." I said sheepishly.

"Hmm, Albert told me a good news." He said happily.

"What it is?" I asked.

"A few alphas around here were willing to help us. At last, my pack safety is guaranteed by now. He will go to Alpha summit this weekend to sign the collaboration treaty and then join the meeting." I can sense his happiness leaking out.

"Where the meeting set on?

"At Midnight Silent pack... by the way you need to accompany me to going to there too. Can you?"

"What do you mean, Love? I'm just a mere human." I want to reject it. It feels awkward to socialize with the whole wolf community.

"Babe, we need to resolve everything in one go. I feel like my life barely hanging on the brink of death." He winks at me.

"Explain to me clearly, love. Don't use any confusing word." I frowned.

"You know that your mate is cousin to Midnight Silent alpha right? I think I want to use this opportunity to clear everything with your mate. Truly, I never have any grudge with him because I may as well acted like him if I spot my mate chummy with someone else. So, please use this opportunity as a stage to properly make peace with him."

"Do you want me to go back to him? What do you think about me? A toy to passes around?" My blood suddenly was boiling up.

"No, it isn't like that, babe. I mean you need to clearly reject and tell him your decision without running away again. It's all for our benefits too, you, Allen, him and me. This may sound ridiculous, but babe tries to see it from the positive side. If you have properly discussed with him, we may can stop his madness, and he can move on too. And, you can reject him as much as you want, but you can't break the blood bond between him and Allen. You can't deny their unbreakable relation. What will Allen think when he knows later?" His word makes me shake in fear.

What I am fearful of? For Allen hate me after knowing the truth? Or, in another aspect that Ivan will move on after hear my decision? The thinking of him intimate with another person again? Why I feel like Alfred words have again bleed my heart. His word contains everything I have fear to speak about.

Is this the best solution I need to do to stay forever beside Alfred? Is this what I've always desired in my life? Can I completely erase Ivan existence and meaning in my life after that? Argh, my head hurts, my heart bleeding profusely, shedding an amount of invisible blood. Did I really make a right decision?

I don't want to hurt anybody in this love triangle love relation. But, it really obvious that I need to make the final decision soon. One of them will forever break; another one will attain the happiness. In addition, I know I couldn't be selfish in this case because I know the feeling being discarded by the one we cherished the most.

No, you can't let somebody else leech on Ivan again. I heard the tiny voice again. My heart clenched painfully. The waves of throbbing start hitting me after I met Ivan. Recently, the pain become worse that sometimes it makes me almost faint.

"Are you okay, babe? Alfred hand caresses my cheeks softly. "I don't mean to force or pressure you but we need to do something about this matter. Thus, I think the better for us to face it. And if you don't want to meet him then let forget it. I don't want to force you." His concern looks melt my resolve again.

"Mmm... I think we should follow your idea, love. I'm tired with all this troublesome matter and don't want to be a cause for a great alpha goes into mad." I smile weakly.

"Yeah, I know you're the strong and great man, babe. I feel so lucky to have you in my life." His kiss clear the thick fogies inside my mind. This is the better solution for us, to solve it as soon as possible.

One week is enough for me to construct my mind and word I always buried in my heart. I will release everything and turn to new leaf. God, please give me a strength to face him in a calm manner. I need to rein my anger and grudge for having a peaceful meeting.

How is he after the fight? Were he fine after that? Geez, why I need to concerned with his wellbeing. I just need some space to reset my thinking and not regretting after that. This is the best for us.

One week later....

We arrived at the Midnight Silent Pack ground. The territory was so big and here we can see three biggest building for their mateless or un-mate members. How wealthy this pack anyways? I scanned surrounding and spot kid playground who has a complete set playground set and a water park that was guarded by the warrior.

The Midnight Silent alphas greet us friendlier. They show the surrounding and lead us to the guest room. Like before, they are not shy in showing their tender love for each other. Because of the safety matter, Albert backs off in the last minutes and just sending us here.

"When you've done unpacking, please join us in the dining hall." Kai said before close the door.

"I'm so amazed with this luxurious pack." I said.

"Yeah, considering they're the most powerful pack here." Alfred said shortly. We both grinned before arrange our tools and walked to the dining hall.

There are almost ten alphas gathering here. The alphas greet and accept us with warm friendly. From there we know they are not the powerful but group small alphas under Kai ally treaty.

"Sorry for my lateness, got tackled by the hungry rogue group." A familiar voice said behind me. I feel suddenly shaking in my seat.

"Yeah, whatever Ivan, They were attracted to you just like how you craved their blood." Kai said before signal him to sit beside his left side.

I muster my strength into his direction. I could detect a longing feeling a moment our eyes meet but it disappeared quickly. He just shows a blank face and sometime replied Kai's sarcastic. Why I feel so much hurt when he ignore my being. I really confuse how one of his emotions could badly make me so much depressed.

I still can sense the pulls like what have Alfred told me still intact between us. Just what the hell happened in passes two weeks ago that could make my deadly hunter give up. What the new scheme he wants to create? Uh, give up? Did he really seriously want to end everything now? The thought makes my heart sink in deep darkness.

Have he tired pursuing me? Or, his wife had taken a reign over him again? Winning and fuel up their love for another round. On the other hand, was he finally realized that he never love me. I saw how he chats with everyone include Alfred. Alfred also shock by his changing behaviour. Ivan happily chatters with his cousin completely ignoring my presence.

Aside from Ivan matter, the meeting was going smoothly. Now, I know why this pack's alphas have renowned as a fierce and genius, the way they lead this meeting, considering everyone's opinion without any prejudice. But, there was something wrong with Ivan, he was so quiet the whole day, sometimes flinching without reason.

But, he still the same Ivan, flock by the sluts team and treat them as the matter to pass the time. I decide to talk with him tonight after discussing with Alfred. Tomorrow will be the last day we are staying here. I take a long deep breathe, trying to calm the raging blood that come from nowhere.

"Are you okay, Babe? You look distracted and uncomfortable." He hugs from behind.

"Just thinking what I should say to end this mate thing." I said.

"I'm sure you can through it, Babe. I believe in you." He said uncertainty. I kiss to lose his anxiety.

"As long as I have you, Love." We deepen our kiss before he abruptly part away.

"Sorry... We cannot be too intimate because your mate can feel whatever deeds you do, babe. At least, we should respect him as we were in his cousin territory." Alfred word make my face crimson red.

We leave the room to socialize with alphas in small gathering that involve the pups coming to age. According to Alfred, an alpha rarely giving the outsider attending the sacred event but this pack really rare one.

I took a few glances toward Ivan's direction. He is standing close to sexy brunette that keep shifting her body in seducing arts. Kai's mate pulls Ivan to the group of omega. They're involved in heating conversation until Kai interjected. Kai's mate pouts before he transform into a big white snow wolf. He trots slowly to Kai, giving a wolfish smirk to shock face Ivan.

"White wolf is a legend and sacred in our community. They are rare and no one has a knowledge about their origin or pack. But, a rumor going on said they were from Silver Killer Pack that was annihilated over two decades ago." I can detect a shocked emotion in Alfred face.

"Really? That mean Kai has gotten one hell of mate. That may the reason why their pack so strong and benevolence." I said in awed.

"Don't know, babe. This pack always strong before Kai took the reign as the alpha and the most homophobic one. Some people said it was a karma when Kai's mate was the man." He shrugged.

I watched as the white wolf as if daring Ivan in some way. It trots to omega pups, licking their face and encourage them whom slowly transform. On the other hand, Kai assists to calm the other pups. The breaking bone sound around us, a few pups screaming and whimpering when they're in four legs.

After few minutes passes, the new transform pups start trotting around accompany by their parents. Kai walked to his mate, he is patting the head of the omega pups. After getting an enough courage, the slow breaking bone was heard again. I could see a proud look on Kai's face. His mate led the newly group of pups to running across their border. Ivan seems to pass any of daring given by Ralph.

I look at their group until Alfred snatched my attention. Gosh, why my eyes betrayed my resolve? I give an apologetic smile to him.

"We need to meet him in private now." Alfred patted my back softly. I nod before walked over Ivan direction.

"Ivan..." I touched his bare arms. The touched make me the electric static crawls inside my skin. He turns around with shock expression.

"What?" He asks.

"We need to talk... mmm... by we, I mean you, Alfred and me. And, I want it to be in private." I stay calm as I can. The tiny voice inside my head by all mean wanted to throw my body in Ivan embrace.

"Follow me..." He said in a cold voice.

"So, what the urgent matter you wanted to speak?" He distances himself from us.

"I want you to make a clean and clear rejection to break off our mate status soon. I have a husband and reputation to hold and respect my beloved one feeling. I hope you can grant my one and only wish I ever ask to you." I glad I can hold my stand firmly.

"No. Never. You are mine. I hold a top priority above him in our relation. Other people opinion can go to hell." He grits the teeth, clenched, and unclenched his fist to conquer his anger.

I feel alarmed by his sudden a burst, Alfred takes a stand front me that have added an opposite effect on Ivan. Ivan's body shaken and we know he has an inner battle. I chicken out thinking if our decision actually a wrong move. His eyes become dark amethyst telling us that his wolf in control.

"Please mate, please don't desert us. I know my human side had taken a foolish decision and we don't deserve your affection. At least please give us another chance to loving you. Ivan had changed a lot over the years he was thought he has already lost you for sure. He is in pain. And, I'm very sure your husband could understand our misery when losing or breaking mate's relation." A gloomy deep voices step slowly to me.

"No matter how much you plead I never back off from my decision. We are over before we ever begin. There is never any happiness in our relationship. Don't add anymore hatred I store in your account." I said firmly, he pats his chest and slowly caress it.

"And, I have every right to claim you as mine. I'm sure you can feel the mate pull between us. Don't lie, Mate." His voice turns normal back with a dark tone.

"You make me want to have a deadly laugh, Ivan, Mind I remind you again, it was you whom rejected me back then. Albeit the fact I feel the mate pull, an attraction to you that enough to rival my love for Alfred but I can't accept you anymore or whatsoever. I'm enough with you and your crap mate word. Simply put you are unfit in my life or as my kid's father." I blurted out about Allen in my bloody rage.

His word only makes Alfred speechless engulfing in thousand emotions. He again makes my husband feel lost his confidence and insecure. I think we finally can reach the same conclusion when I studied his reluctant behaviour today. No, I wrong because this prick never learns his place nor respects others people. Someone like him will become a bad and dangerous influence to my son.

"But we are still a mate. You're mine since the day you're born to this world, mate." His eyes harbor a deep sadness. Have his become deaf, not hearing whatever word I said before? Before I knew, he had trapped me between his solid body and wall.

Alfred just stands behind him without making any move. He really wants me to resolve this problem myself. Another thing, Ivan selfish words have left no room for him to step into this mate fight. In other word, Alfred has already lost before the fight ever breaks out.

"Mate? Are you so fucking had short memories? Are you only had a convenient memory selective? You had lose the right the day you left me. You know I'm your mate the first time our eyes met a long ago. You were fucking ignoring me, continue flirting, and fuck your fiancée hole at the whole time. You were the one who decided to reject me to married your fiancée. You only used me to satisfied your carnal desired, as your cum dumpster. Like how the man rent a woman. You stomped my pride and ditched me right away after you got whatever you wanted."

"...You don't know how much I felt guilty every time Alfred whispers his pure love for me. Why? Because I'm not really honest with him. The day after he marked me as him was the day where all the missing pieces in my memory returned. I felt so disgusted and humiliated by the fact Allen was not product from raped as I thought rather than a product from me shamelessly spreading my legs for stranger. I felt lost, all the pain searing from the head until the toe. Why was me? Why I need to shoulder the humiliated that I never dream to do it?" I punch his hard chisel chest using all my strength but he never budges even one centimeter.

"You got back all the memories?" His face filled with horror.

"Yes, all the memories you sealed deep inside me returned back, piece by piece, without any single detailed exclude. Satisfied now?" I jab his hard chest.

"Oh sorry and not really sorry, I'm not your mate. I'm an Alfred Nightshade husband, he and his only husband. Our love is mutual and I love him more than anything else except for Allen does. So, don't ever try to smash my happy life now or else I'll forbid you from meeting Allen. This is my answer, Prick Alpha." I grabbed Alfred stiffed body before walking past Ivan.

"Don't leave me, please mate. It's maybe have been too late to get your love, but at least give me an opportunity to atone. Give an opportunity to be a father for my son" He plead but I'm just deaf my hearing sense.

There is something off in the way he has spoken. I can't pin what exactly it is. The thing I can detect was his reluctant question and answers. I feel lost and bad feeling niggling my heart. What the hell will coming later?

No, the way his asked and answers were like a mechanical robot that had been set for today meeting. This was not the usual Ivan self, he was so strange today. Despite that, I feel a slight anger, knowing his speech and he did not show any wills to take me. He surrenders quickly than what expected. What were the games his try to plot this time?

We left him alone, Alfred silence makes my stomach churning. I hate this silence, I hate this an invited storm. I always content with my life now, why the tornado must hit me now? Hurt innocent heart who getting in the way.

A soft caress pulls me back to the reality, I don't notice when Alfred stops the car, he pulls me in his chest, land a few kisses on my hair. His touches soothing the turmoil emotions I have been suffered.

"Sorry, babe, I'm not noticing my silence had torture you." Alfred caresses my back.

"Don't be sorry, Al. It's me whom always brought a disaster in your life. However, please don't doubt my love for you again. It is fucking struggle my neck when you did. I love you because it's you not because some shit like mate pulls. It's really my heart who had chosen you as my life partner." I said in sobbing tears. Deep inside I know 'he' really did worming inside my heart again.

"Yeah, sorry for that, I'm just preparing myself to face another loss in my life. You know it's a sin to take someone else mate as our own, moreover if it involves an Alpha's mate. Because I know how incomplete myself the day I lose my own my mate. However, I dare to say you have been filled the void in my vacant life. Allen and you have fulfilled my life, leaving me without any regret. I love you my husband, my one and only husband." He kisses my wet lips, the gentle, and loving not in lust way.

A/N

This chapter may a bit confusing because the previous chapter was mention that Ivan already gives up for his mate and so. The next chapter in Ivan POV will settle all the confusing matter in this chapter.