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I groaned painfully while arching my back, my whole entire body felt like it was being stretched apart — I felt as though I was undergoing torture.

I gripped the sheets below me tightly and my heels were digging into the bed, my eyes rolled to the back of my head as I gurgled a metallic tasting substance that rose in the back of my throat.

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I fought against the torturous pain that surged from the tips of my toes to the very top of my head — it almost felt like the pain of shifting for the first time, times a million.

Marina and Elijah weren't in the room with me anymore and I noticed how dark it was when my blurry vision cleared up a bit; the moon was hidden by dark colored clouds, shielding away any light.

I felt a stab of pain in my chest and slapped my hands over the skin that bounced with my hammering heartbeat, I sobbed out loudly while rocking my body back and forth uncomfortably.

I didn't know what to do as I helplessly thrashed over the bed, a metallic taste pooled in the back of my throat making me gag out loud — my stomach churned crazily.

I opened my dry lips; wanting to yell out for someone — to call someone to help me but all that came out was a bit of cool, disgusting liquid.

I choked on the blood that continued growing in the back of my throat and shook my head, sweated formed on my back and my hips began aching.

"D-Dustin!" The one name that managed to leave my lips left me shocked as I bounced aggressively on the bed, my back burned and my eyes were shut tight as I fought against the monster that tried claiming my body — I was panting by now.

I kept crying out when my heart clenched tightly, feeling as though a large hand closed around it and squeezed it mercilessly; growls ripped through my throat and I felt something stir inside me.

The pain did not subside, not at all. I felt lonely inside, I felt as though I was being tortured by both the Moon and the Demon. My fast heartbeat made it seem as though it was ready to leap out of my body.

Suddenly, I felt the inside of my stomach get torn — I could feel the skin being ripped apart almost tortuously and it made my toes curl; my hands slapped over my flat stomach and my eyes snapped open — a loud terrified scream escaped my lips and boomed in the room.

The sharp claws were either a part of my imagination or they were real because this pain could not be made up. I could feel the inner skin of my stomach rip apart slowly, and I couldn't stop my echoing screams as I tried to bend my burning back to see if my stomach was also torn from the outside; but I couldn't move.

"Dustin!" I called out, I pleaded for him to come, hoped for his presence in my room. Why? Well, for now I didn't know. All I knew was that I needed the support from my Mate; well ex-Mate.

Before I could open my mouth to let out another scream the door to Marina's room slammed against the wall as it opened and it made me jump on the mattress; the loud sound startled me but the faint smell of cologne, wood and salt water cooled my burning insides.

"Celine?" His husky voice made my ears perk up, the pain was still there but it eased upon feeling his presence in the room, I cried out in answer, looking at him through the corner of my eyes — I whimpered helplessly as he shut the door behind him and locked it.

"Celine." He whispered breathlessly, I heard the worry in his voice and it made my heart break, my eyes were wide as I watched him run up to the edge of the bed through the corner of my eyes.

He sat beside me on his knees and I continued squirming over the mattress at the pain that was still present in my back and stomach, I massaged my flat stomach and hoped that my baby was okay.

"What's wrong Celine?" He asked, his eyes were glazed with concern as they roamed my body; his hair looked a mess — almost as though he had run his hands through it one too many times.

"I-I'm not going to make it." The words were barely audible to my ears, but I noticed that Dustin heard them because his whole face fell and his demeanor changed completely — he grabbed onto my hand almost helplessly.

"No,no. You're going to be alright, I swear to you." He claimed weakly, his wide ocean eyes got stormy but it wasn't the storm I was used to — I could suddenly see the water that brimmed his waterline and I saw the darkness under his eyes as I gazed at him intensely. It broke me more then his anger and hate ever had.

I whimpered and shook my head, giving his hand a tight squeeze — biting my lip and groaning when a wave of pain hit my stomach once again.

"Yes. Yes you are, I swear to you! You can't leave me here, I won't be left alone once again. I saved you from me Celine, I saved you from one of the Demon's in your life, so I could save you from this one as well." He stated angrily, his perfectly shaped brows furrowed as he gazed at my watery eyes, I frowned helplessly and shook my head as my toes curled in pain.

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"D-Dustin." I whispered slowly, raising my head a bit to look at him clearly, he sniffed and nodded, his eyes remained locked on mine; I could see that he refused to look at my squirming body because he didn't want to upset me more and I appreciated it.

"Even though you hated me, even though you broke me, even though you showed me your demonic side — I forgive you. I forgive you because I love you. I-I just needed you to know that. Please, never forget that." I cried out softly, my words were genuine as I spilled my heart out, tears slowly trailed down my cheeks as I watched his face for a reaction — he growled lowly and shook his head, his own ocean-eyes got darker and welled up.

"No. You can't forgive me. You can't love me. B-but you also can't leave me. Please, I beg you, don't leave me. I know I do not deserve you, but don't please. We can fight this." He begged helplessly, his body rocked back and forth and his hold on my hand tightened, a sob left my lips at his reaction — he looked like a little boy, like a lost little boy sitting beside me and it broke me beyond words.

"I can't fight it. I'm so sorry. Maybe, one day, you might find someone better. Someone stronger and with less baggage than what I have carried. I'm so sorry." I whispered hoarsely, coughing when the metallic taste returned in my throat, he inhaled sharply and shook his head squeezing my hand once again as if to reassure himself that I was still here — but not for long.

I couldn't help but feel scared, scared to leave this world and allow a monster to take control of my body. I cried harder at that and at the pain that remained. I couldn't fight the Demon. I was losing.

"Stop crying. Please don't cry. Listen, I love you. I love you so much. Please don't cry. I can't bare it. Please." He kept begging like a little boy, I couldn't help but hear all the cracks in his hoarse voice and I couldn't stop the cool tears from pooling out of my eyes — I frowned while shaking my head, holding his warm, calloused hand tighter; I felt at home being here with him; even if it was for the last time.

"I'm so scared Dustin. I'm so scared." I replied helplessly, my heartbeat slowed down and I didn't feel at all at peace as my body tried fighting against the intoxicating darkness. He growled as he gazed deep into my chocolaty eyes, his blue eyes made my insides warm up but they didn't help. The tears that slowly trailed out of his eyes made my stomach drop.

"Don't be baby. I'm with you. I'm here to protect you, to keep you safe and I won't allow you to leave this world like this. I swear I will find a way to save you and my baby. I swear to you." He claimed genuinely, his words made my heart skip a beat and I nodded because I believed him, but I was still truly scared — scared for me, for him and the whole Wolf population.

"I'm so scared." I mumbled breathlessly, my body felt numb as I gazed into his stormy ocean eyes, I could see the waves of tears inside of them and I tried to imagine me and him, and our baby; including Arsenio together. It shattered me.

All I could suddenly see was red while tears continued pooling out of my eyes and Dustin's eyes widened, he placed his hands on my cheeks and raised my body up so we were leveled — my heart plummeted into my stomach.

"Baby. No, no! Stay with me." He begged angrily, his voice was cracking and tears trailed down his cheeks quickly, he wiped my wet cheeks with his warm fingers and he gazed at my tears in disgust. My eyelids were drooping and I couldn't help but feel tired.

"Please." He begged me, his whole face was revealing for once and I saw all the hidden emotions; the love, the anger, the loss, the guilt, the remorse and most importantly the hate — the hate for the Demon that will take me away from him.

"I love you." Was the last thing I said as my vision darkened, his lips moved but I didn't hear him and all I could see were his stormy eyes; they no longer looked like two perfectly blue oceans but two awakened storms — dark and lifeless as tears pooled out of them.

I'm scared, I wanted to say one last time. But I couldn't.

I felt him place his plump, warm lips over mine for the last time and a single tear trailed out of my eye, I could feel my heart beat for the last time until it finally stopped — each shattered piece stopped. My eyes closed, and my body completely shut down — everything was numb to me. I felt nothing, I did not breathe and I did not move.

I'm so scared, was my final thought as I watched a bright light form before me, I reached for it and allowed it to pull me inside — long forgotten to the world that I once lived in.

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DUSTIN'S POV

She was gone. She wasn't breathing. She wasn't moving. She wasn't crying. She wasn't talking. She wasn't mine. She wasn't here.

I let out a loud, broken howl as I gazed at her angelic face which was coated in bloody tears that had previously trailed out of her eyes.

I brought her head into my chest and held onto her lifeless body as I cried helplessly — I haven't cried for a long time, but now my heart felt as though it was being ripped apart. I could never see those curious big brown eyes ever again. Her  intoxicating innocence will never be around me again.

I guess this was my punishment for all I had done to her and to others. I officially hate myself more than ever.

"I love you too." I whispered, feeling as though those words would wake her up and allow me to look into her mesmerizing chocolatey eyes but they did nothing.

She was gone. She wasn't mine. She never will me.

I will continue to hate myself.

I'm scared. I'm lonely. I'm helpless. But I will save her.