I crackle like electricity

Amped up and sensitive

what you say will always have an effect on me.

No time, nor distance,

Has been able to pull the plug on this.

I'm so fucking far from perfect

flaws and sins paint my skin like ashes or graves

But still your arms are around me

You're smiling

laughing free

Like I'm the most perfect thing

and I don't understand but I don't know

If I need to.

I fly on an impulse

I soar because my heart told me

that was what I was supposed to do.

I've never settled and I don't live

quiet or comfortable.

I want it but I can't see

How you could stand a life with me.

I crackle with electricity

I live on a livewire

And I don't want you to fall from it, too.

You don't deserve the sharpening sizzle of my static and burns.

But the thing is

My addictions rule my life

You know

I've never been good

                                                at saying

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