"Somewhere in my seemingly broken and fragile heart
Covered, and hidden, covered and hidden by words
under the presence of being strong." - The World that was Transparent by Motohiro Hata, 2010

Taehyung opened the door, his eyes red and puffy, "Friends, boyfriend! Come-Come sit..."

Jimin choked on air as they all calmly shuffled into the apartment, removing their shoes at the door. Boyfriend?

The word was repeating itself in Jimin's mind so much his body shut down into autopilot again. Namjoon was dating Taehyung? He had only assumed that Namjoon and Taehyung had a good client to staff relationship... He never expected this...

Taehyung took in a deep breath before starting, "About a month ago, I began seeing Namjoon outside the club. We didn't see each other as clients anymore. I stayed over Namjoon's mansion one night and we had a night more intense than anything we had at the club! It was passionate, deep, incredible-" Taehyung recomposed himself, "But that's beside the point. Jimin noticed over the phone that I had been feeling more and more sick lately... So I went to the doctors to go and check it out."

He turned to Namjoon, cupping his hands in his as his eyes shone with tears, "Joonie... I'm pregnant... Soon enough we're going to be having our own little set of pups!"

Jimin felt his entire world go blank. A sweat began to accumulate over his head and it wasn't even hot outside. He began to wander off from the conversation, holding a hand to his mouth as he went to the bathroom.

Boyfriend...

Pregnant...

Pups...

Namjoon...

The words kept echoing in his head as he threw open the bathroom doors and rushed to the toilet, throwing up the contents of his stomach.

Yoongi, on the other hand, was extremely happy for the couple. He didn't know they were dating until now, but he was extremely happy for them and their pups.

Of course, it was hard for him to feel completely happy for them. He would have to admit, he was awfully envious of the two. Because he was a Beta he wouldn't be able to experience something like this with someone else.

Namjoon was absolutely shocked, his face pale as his heart beat quickly in his chest.

"T-Tae, are you serious?" Namjoon asked, softly squeezing Taehyung's hands to calm his nerves. His hands were just shaking so badly... "You're really pregnant?"

Taehyung nodded, the tears beginning to rush down his face, "Yes, I mean it! I'm holding our pups, Joonie... Are you happy?"

A smile finally makes its way across Namjoon's lips. He lifted Taehyung up and twirled him around in delight, "Are you kidding me?! I'm beside myself!"

He finally put him down, hands comfortably around his waist, "God you scared me, baby! I was so worried!"

Taehyung smiled up at him, arms wrapped around his neck and head in his chest, "I love you so much Namjoon..."

Taehyung stepped back, now noticing the retching sounds from the other room, "Jimin?" he knocked on the bathroom door before going in, "Are you ok?"

Jimin nodded, flushing the toilet and cleaning his face, "Got a toothbrush and some mouthwash I could use?"

Taehyung nodded, "Yeah, in that shelf near the bath."

When Jimin came back with the toothbrush, Taehyung took a whiff of the air, not liking what he smelt of the air.

"You-You smell like Namjoon..." Taehyung said softly before taking another whiff. Omegas had especially sensitive noses so he couldn't be surprised, "No, you really smell like him..."

Jimin hesitates before speaking, "I mean, we were in the same car for about 15 minutes to get here. Is it really that surprising?"

"Yoongi doesn't smell much like him..." Taehyung mumbled, completely oblivious still.

"Does he?" Jimin asked softly, his hands starting to shake a little.

"No, he doesn't..." Taehyung's eyes went down to Jimin's hands, "Why're your hands shaking? Are you cold?"

Jimin nodded, shaking his hands to get them to stop shaking, "Yeah, Yeah... that must be it..."

Taehyung left and came back mere moments later with a big, pink, fluffy blanket and draped it around Jimin.

"Thank you, TaeTae!" Jimin smiled at him, his fingers still shaking anxiously underneath the blanket.

Namjoon heard their conversation, piping into it, "One of the clients at the club was thrashing him around. I stepped in to stop things from getting worse," Namjoon explained, "The Alphas at the club are nothing but drugged up horny animals. They were treating him like trash and I refused to stand for it."

Jimin looked down at his lap, "Y-Yeah, that happened too..." Jimin was trying to avoid this conversation because he and Namjoon both know what happened after that...

Taehyung's eyes wandered downwards and he began to grope Jimin through his sweatshirt, "Huh? Aren't you a big B-Cup, almost a C? Why do your tits feel about 32B as of right now?!"

Jimin covered his already covered chest, "Some, some things happened at the club..."

"This usually doesn't happen... Unless... Unless..." Taehyung's eyes began to sparkle as the gears in his mind turned, "Did a really sexy Alpha customer fuck you and milk you dry? I knew it! I knew I saw a little bit of limp in your step! I'm so proud of you, Minnie! What did he look like? Was he handsome? Was it love at first sight?"

Jimin blushed softly, nodding slowly, "Yeah, I guess you could say it was something like that..."

Namjoon swallowed a tight lump in his throat, his arms carefully snaked around Taehyung's waist, pulling him closer, "It's good to see people are starting to appreciate natural more than plastic. Being natural is better for me than being plastic. To let someone degrade you and tell you that you aren't good enough makes me sick."

Jimin tried not to get flustered at his kind words, but found the heat rushing to his cheeks anyway, "He told me I should love myself more... And that me being natural was much better than going under the knife like I planned to do."

"I agree with Namjoon! You're beautiful, Minnie! Who made you think you had to change?" Taehyung was oblivious to how the customers treated other patrons around the club, the reason barely anyone else there fucked with him anymore. He was in his own little world, just as always.

Jimin looked away, holding the blanket around him with a sigh, "It's nothing, TaeTae... Don't worry about it..."

That was a lie. They were always so vile to him in particular. They treated him like a doll or a puppet compared to how they were with everyone else. Namjoon was the one to change it tonight, but this was shaping out to be only a one-time thing.

Namjoon spoke up again, "Your customers... When I'm here or someone else gets to you first, they go after other Omegas in the club. They harass them and make them all feel like shit in comparison to you." he says, speaking the truth for Jimin. "They yell at them, throw things at them, practically sexually assault them when they aren't willing... It's awful Tae."

Taehyung's face softened in sympathy for Jimin. Now he understood.

"Which is why I'm a job offering him at my company since it just opened up again. It's high paying and he'll be working with me directly."

Taehyung smiled, holding Jimin's hands in his, "I'm so happy for you, Jimin. You deserve it, you really do."

"Thank you, TaeTae, this means a lot to me..." Jimin sighed.

'I'm so sorry, Namjoon...'

Jimin turned back to Tehyung, "Can I... Can I talk to you for a little bit? Alone?"

Taehyung nodded, following Jimin into another hallway, "Minnie~ I know you want to help name our kids but Namjon has to be there for it too!"

Jimin stopped, shaking his head, "I-I have to get this off my chest... I'm so, so very sorry, Taehyung... I got too caught up in myself and too caught up with the feelings of being wanted... I'm sorry and I don't deserve your forgiveness..."

"Jimin? What are you talking about?"

"I got selfish, it all went to my head and it just HAPPENED! Please, please don't get mad at Namjoon... Get angry at me..."

"Why would I be angry? Minnie, I'm confused-"

"I let Namjoon fuck me, Tae! He was the handsome Alpha customer that had me earlier!" Jimin exclaimed, everything flowing out right now. "I'm so sorry..."

Taehyung's eyes welled up with tears as Jimin went on and on, "Please, Please tell me you're lying! Please tell me this is just a sick joke!" he turned to Namjoon who had run in behind the pair once he heard Jimin talk.

"Baby-" Taehyung's heart sunk, the truth written all over Taehyung's face.

Namjoon's hand barely grazed Taehyung's shoulder before he was being swatted away, "You-you touched my best friend with those hands..."

"Baby, just let me explain-"

Taehyung stormed off his sadness and disappointment quickly turning into anger, "Yoongi!"

Yoongi, being the shellshocked Beta he was, was taken by surprise when Taehyung began to kiss him right there in the living room.

"Taehyung-"

Jimin had fallen to the ground, his fingers digging into his scalp, "Namjoon, I'm so sorry..."

Namjoon turned to him, shaking his head, "No, this is all my fault. I made you think that everything would be ok when it wasn't. I should have known better, Jimin..."

"Taehyung stop! You already have Namjoon! Please, please don't make another decision you'll regret by the end of the night..."

Taehyung sobbed, "He fucked my best friend! Now I'm knocked up and I don't know if I want him or not!" he wiped his eyes with loud sobs. "I should just-just abort the pups and work at the club forever-"

Namjoon turned around furiously, walking into the room with Jimin not too far behind, "You will do no such thing!"

He was going to abort the pups?! Kill them without even giving them a chance?! Not if he had something to fucking say about it.

"Those are our kids, I am the father, and I will be damned if you cause any sort of harm to them!" Namjoon coughed his hands over his throat. He had recently had a surgery and all the yelling must have irritated and strained his throat.

He exhaled shakily, "Please we can talk about this..."

Taehyung's head shot up, "Get the fuck out! You and Jimin leave! GET THE FUCK OUT!!"

Jimin gave the apartment one last look before making his quick leave of the place, Namjoon following after.

"Let me take you home..."

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Taehyung cried in Yoongi's arms, letting him comfort him while he reevaluated his life choices.

"Maybe you should let Namjoon explain... Surely he had a reason..."

"What would be his-his reason then?! That he needed to fuck Jimin?! He-He was in a relationship with me, but-but he fucked my best friend!"

After a couple more minutes of silence, Taehyung let out a pathetic noise, "Call him back... I-I'll listen to what he has to say... Just hold me? Please?"

Yoongi nodded, "Yeah, ok..."

"I'll call you a taxi too... It's only common sense to think he's gone already..."

Yoongi nodded, holding Taehyung.

Taehyung began to kiss and touch Yoongi again, practically desperate for something.

Yoongi pushed him away again, "Taehyung, please... Please stop... I'm not a toy! I'm not a toy you just get to play around with because you're hurt!"

Taehyung stopped again, beginning to sob, "I'm sorry, I'm being really selfish right now...."

He got up, heading to bed, "I'll call the taxi... You can stay here until it comes..." Taehyung mumbled shutting the bedroom door behind him.

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It was silent on the drive to Jimin's apartment. Jimin stared out the window of the back seat, refusing to meet Namjoon's eyes.

"Jimin... I'm sorry. You would be right to blame me for this mess. I just thought that this would make you love yourself more, but now it seems I've just made matters worse..."

Jimin shook his head, continuing to stare out the window, "They say when you have everything, you lose everything. I wanted to feel loved and desired, but I ended up losing what little I had," Jimin said. "I wanted an Alpha like you... Someone who would treat me with such delicacy and care you treated Taehyung with... And eventually, the more I observed you and Taehyung's relationship... I guess the more that craving began to intensify... I was selfish and I didn't stop you from making that awful decision tonight..."

Namjoon's grip tightened on the steering wheel. He was the one he wanted? He did more than just fuck up... He fucked up massively with his lover and with someone who just wanted to feel love.

Namjoon pulled up to Jimin's apartment complex, which wasn't even that far from Taehyung's. About a 10-minute drive away. 

"Namjoon? Thank you for the little bit of happiness you were able to give me tonight..."

He climbed out of the car and went up to his apartment. He broke open his refrigerator and pulled out a shot glass and some alcohol. He didn't even bother looking at what it was. He poured it and drunk it down without hesitating.

If this was the way the cookie crumbled, he already found his poison.

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'You have 10 minutes to get over here and explain yourself.'

Namjoon made it to his apartment in practically record time. It seemed Taehyung knew he was there because the door was unlocked and he was sitting in the living room with tear stained cheeks

Namjoon went over to him and held his hands softly, kneeling in front of him.

"... I know what I did was horribly wrong... It's the worst, most disgusting thing I've ever done to someone behind their back.." Namjoon said, not wanting to joke it around because he does that a lot to companies. Business is business.

".... When I went to the club I was wanting to see you in person so we could talk about the moving arrangements, but.. you weren't there. Just when I was going to leave, I saw someone grab a hold of Jimin and literally shoved him around like he was some animal... I got absolutely pissed and got the guy to back off and leave him alone." 

He then folds his arms. " We went into one of the rooms and I asked him if he was okay, seeing if he was hurt or not... He then told me it's not the first time and explained how he was always the second choice nobody wanted but needed to get their abusive ruts off... I explained to him how he was perfect the way he is and he shouldn't change his body because of the people around him... He hasn't felt happy or good in such a long time and- he's such a kind person... I wanted him to know that he can be passionate about his natural body, feel good about himself... And what I did just made things go to hell..." 

He looked at Taehyung, a frown on his face. "Your friendship should not be torn apart because of my doing. You are an amazing person Taehyung, a person that made me open my eyes for once and made me feel like I can actually be happy... You are the only person that I've ever let in into my life and I toyed it around... I'm sorry, I-I know that saying that will not make anything better... but... I just want you to know that I am and you can be as mad as you want towards me, I'll take it to heart and not let it go until I know that I've done something right to make you happy again with me."

Taehyung began to cry again, "That's-That's your excuse?! You could have handled this so much better! You could have become friends with him! Hooked him up with one of your therapists! But you just had to fuck him didn't you?!" Taehyung sobbed, "All these months of love, adoration, peace wasted! I thought what we had was special but you showed it off to Jimin like it was nothing!" 

Taehyung covered his face, "You fucked him for your own benefit and I refuse to think otherwise... It's clear that my pups, and I as a person aren't good enough for you... You've torn my heart apart, torn apart my relationship with my best friend... I never want to see you again!"

"Then what do you want me to do?" Namjoon said to him, raising his voice so he could hear him. He shouldn't be because of the stitches, but this is his mate. His mate and his children.

"Please, Taehyung I will do anything. You and our kids are the greatest people in my-my life, " He walked up to the door and stood there, his forehead now leaning on the door. Tears began to pour from his eyes, he exhaled shakily before speaking again. 

"Please... Taehyung you can be mad at me all you want, but please what do you want me to do to change that.. please." Namjoon said weakly, his voice suddenly horse before he starts to cough again with pain into his handkerchief. The blood was darker than the red cloth, trying to wipe away whatever blood was left on his lips. Namjoon didn't care, he cared more for his pups and my mate.

Taehyung shook his head, "What's done is done... Go away... Leave my life and leave our pups. I never want to see you in my life ever a-fucking-gain..." Taehyung slammed the door.

With a pained look on his, Namjoon had to listen as his footsteps began to fade away. 

"Please don't hurt the kids!" Namjoon yelled, his voice weak as everything went to silence.

Namjoon went back to his car, defeat filling him from the tips of his toes to the last strand of hair on his head.

Namjoon began driving aimlessly down the main Seoul highway, the noise being drowned out and turning into white noise. 

He couldn't make the same mistake again...

And without even knowing it, the car began to accelerate.

He remembered Taehyung and his first date. They went for a walk in the park, settled down at a cafe near the train station, rode the trains for a bit before ending up at the jewelry store. Namjoon bought Taehyung and he matching necklaces for that night. He never took it off and he was even wearing it at that moment.

Namjoon shut his eyes for a single second and everything went slow. The car flipped around, once, twice, before stopping in the middle of an intersection in the city. All he heard was screaming, but he didn't care.

He would never be able to make it up to Taehyung or his pups. He would never know if Jimin was content with the way he was. He'd rather die the monster he is right now.

Just let it all fade out...

"Even you must have changed since that day we waved our hands in farewell.

But I still live on, surpassing the many nights I want to cry.

What was it that I truly lost that day?" - The World that was Transparent by Motohiro Hata, 2010