KIM SUHEE.

on the way out of the building, i walked silently beside park bogum, wondering if i should really tell him that i kind of remembered who he was.

i decided not to. i'll tell him when i can remember everything, from the beginning to the end.

"i'm upset there wasn't enough proof to prove you completely innocent." i sighed, looking ahead of me, not making an eye contact.

bogum turned his head to me and raised his eyebrow. "what made you change your mind, anyway?"

i shrugged. "i just realized that maybe i was being blinded by his fake love the whole time." and because i realized you were him.

"but what are you going to do about sungho?" he asked.

i shrugged again and let out a sigh. "forget about it and live life normally, obviously."

"but...i'm afraid that he'll go after you again and i won't be there this time." bogum muttered.

i smiled at the warm comment. it felt so nostalgic, like he used to say these things all the time to me. if only i could remember.

"i'll be fine." i said, as i entered my car.

"i'll drive." he said, rushing over to the drivers seat.

"no—" i started, but he was already inside, smiling stupidly and patting the passengers seat.

i went in soon after, and bogum started the engine and started to drive.

"i never thanked you for saving me. i even held a knife at your throat, but i would've died if you weren't there to save me. so thank you." i said.

bogum chuckled, a gummy smile making it's way to his face. "sorry for scaring you."

"..." i sneaked a glance at him. "i want to know...if you really were someone from my past, how close were we?"

"like the three musketeers." bogum said, with a smile so bright and happy that showed how happy it made him. "there was another friend too, his name was kang hyunbin."

i was right. i smiled and stared at him.

he looked at me. "huh?"

"it's just...you look so happy talking about it." i said. "i want to remember too."

"i want you to remember too."

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PARK BOGUM.

she used to light up my day. her bright smile that complimented the bright sparkle in her eyes when she did so. how come i don't see that sparkle now? what happened to her?

what happened after that day?

"can you trust me, suhee?" i asked, turning my head to her.

suhee pursed her lips together and looked down to my lap. "i'd answer you when i get my memories back."

i nodded. you don't want to trust me, anyways, suhee.

because after all these years, i slowly turned into a monster.