CONFESSIONS AND TRUTHS

Baekhyun's p.o.v.

Waking up the next morning felt different to Baekhyun for some reason, and he couldn't figure out why. With a big yawn and the stretching of all his limbs, he sat up in bed and rolled over Chanyeol, who groaned in his sleep, before padding barefoot to the bathroom. Baekhyun rubbed his eyes and quickly undressed before getting into the shower. Maybe he'd feel better, or right, after showering.

Baekhyun showered quickly and walked out into the bedroom, mentally face-palming himself because he had forgotten his clothes. Subconsciously Baekhyun thought he did it just to tease Chanyeol, but Chanyeol wasn't in the room to tease. Where'd he go now? Baekhyun thought. Jeez, he's being weird. Baekhyun sighed and quickly got dressed before going downstairs to find Chanyeol already dressed and in the process of cooking breakfast.

Baekhyun lifted himself onto the counter and kicked Chanyeol in the leg with his foot as he said, "Why do you keep disappearing on me?" Chanyeol pinched Baekhyun's knee, causing Baekhyun to jump and yelp as Chanyeol asked, "What do you mean? I just came down to make breakfast."

"Yeah, but usually you're in the bedroom when I come out of the bathroom because I 'forgot' my clothes, and then you can't help but drool," Baekhyun teased as he causally kicked his feet through the air. Chanyeol rolled his eyes and scoffed, "I do not drool." Baekhyun grinned, then said mischievously, "Maybe not, but you do something else." Then Baekhyun made a crude gesture that had Chanyeol quickly grabbing Baekhyun's wrists as he said, "Baekhyun, oh my God!" Baekhyun laughed and kissed Chanyeol's cheek. "Um, you're exhausting," Chanyeol murmured against his lips. "But you love me regardless," Baekhyun whispered. "I'd love you no matter what," Chanyeol muttered back as he touched Baekhyun's inner knee and pulled him forward.

Chanyeol started to kiss Baekhyun's neck as he arched his head back, giving Chanyeol more room to work with. Baekhyun bit his lip against a moan, remembering that they weren't alone in the house, when suddenly Chanyeol muttered, "My parents aren't home."

Baekhyun let out a different kind of moan as he said, "Why'd you have to tell me that? Now I am thinking about things I shouldn't."

"God Baek, you're so blunt," Chanyeol said as he pulled back, and turned his attention back to the food. "And anyways, I would have to say no."

"And why is that?" Baekhyun mused while he silently pouted.

"Because we have school today," Chanyeol said.

"So," Baekhyun mumbled. "Sex is better than school."

Chanyeol laughed and rolled his eyes. "Okay, last night you may have called me kinky, but you're horny."

Baekhyun scoffed and rolled his eyes too. He hopped off the counter as he said, "Ugh, fine. I'm going to continue getting ready for school."

"Have fun with that," Chanyeol muttered in reply.

"Oh, shut up," Baekhyun called back. Chanyeol laughed.

3rd p.o.v.

After eating their breakfast, Chanyeol drove them both to school. The sky was cloudy with the looming threat of rain, and Baekhyun mentally flipped off Mother Nature because he was sooo not in the mood today. Mainly because he was frustrated with Chanyeol because he had been a real tease to Baekhyun twice in two days, but then again, maybe Chanyeol's just getting even because he always teases Chanyeol. But Baekhyun at least gives Chanyeol what he wants . . .

Huffing and folding his arms across his chest he quickly caught up to Chanyeol and smacked him in the back off the head just because he felt like it. "Yah!" Chanyeol shouted. He turned around and noticed Baekhyun's frown and folded arms. Chanyeol couldn't help but grin as he gazed down at the frustrated midget. Chanyeol poked Baekhyun's cheek and Baekhyun moved his head to try and bit him. Chanyeol laughed at his puppy-like behavior. God, he so badly wanted to mess with Baekhyun at the moment, but he refrained and asked, "Why the glum face, Baek. Did someone not give you your treat today?"

Baekhyun gasped and smacked Chanyeol on the head then punched him in the arm as he shouted, "Freaking asshole!"

"What the hell, Baekhyun!?" Chanyeol shouted. "I'm not a slut," Baekhyun said steely. Chanyeol frowned. "What? Why are you saying that?" he asked. "Because you said, and I quote, 'Did someone not give you your treat today?' " Baekhyun said glaring up at Chanyeol.

"Yeeaaahhhh, because I thought you looked like a puppy with the way you were pouting," Chanyeol explained, drawling out the 'yeah'.

"Then how about you lead with that next time?" Baekhyun grumbled. "Because I came this close to almost slapping your face." Baekhyun held up his thumb and index-finger, emphasizing his words.

"You know I didn't mean it that way," Chanyeol mumbled. "Yeah, but other people have," Baekhyun mumbled, but then his eyes widened as he realized his mistake. "What did you just say?" Chanyeol asked in the calmest voice Baekhyun had ever heard.

"Uh, Chanyeol. No. I can't."

"Baekhyun, what you just said—"

"I said no, Chanyeol!" Baekhyun shouted, then he lowered his voice as he continued, "I-I just can't talk about it with you, although I know I'll have too, just . . . not yet."

"Alright, then I'll wait until you're ready," Chanyeol muttered.

"Thank you," Baekhyun whispered.

Chanyeol's p.o.v.

For the rest of the school day Chanyeol couldn't help but think about what Baekhyun said. And it nagged at Chanyeol, he just couldn't shake away the thought, and he wanted to respect what Baekhyun had said, but it was starting to became very hard.

. . . .

3rd p.o.v.

In gym class later Sehun, Luhan, Kyungsoo, and Jongin crowded around Baekhyun as they admired his newly dyed hair. Chanyeol just watched in amusement as they touched it and ruffled it like Baekhyun was a puppy. It was almost like they were petting him, and it was almost like Baekhyun biting them as he snapped, "Okay, that's enough! Now . . . stop . . . touching . . . me!" Chanyeol laughed as Baekhyun ran to hide behind Chanyeol and peeked around his arm at the four people staring at him shock. Now Baekhyun was like a cowering puppy.

Chanyeol smiled and reached behind him for Baekhyun's hand, Baekhyun naturally slide his hand into Chanyeol's and laced their fingers together. Baekhyun wrapped his other arm around Chanyeol's waist as Chanyeol turned around in Baekhyun's arms and lightly held both of his cheeks. Chanyeol kissed Baekhyun forehead; he kissed him between the eyes; he kissed him on the tip of his nose; he kissed each cheek; and he kissed the corners of Baekhyun's mouth before Chanyeol moved his lips to hover over Baekhyun's. "God Baek, how are you so incredible adorable and sexy at the same time," Chanyeol whispered before finally touching his lips to Baekhyun's. Baekhyun hummed in response and moved to wrap his arms around Chanyeol's neck as he muttered, "So what exactly did I do this time?"

"You exist," Chanyeol whispered and kissed Baekhyun more deeply. Baekhyun groaned and muttered, "God Chanyeol," Chanyeol's name ended on a sigh. Chanyeol pulled back and pecked Baekhyun's lips. "I love you," Chanyeol whispered.

"I love you too," Baekhyun sighed.

"Goddamn," someone said, breaking their trance.

Chanyeol and Baekhyun both glanced up to see their four wide-eyed, jaw-dropped friends staring at them. Kyungsoo snickered and muttered, "God Chanyeol, are you sure you didn't just impregnate Baekhyun?" With a furious glare aimed in Kyungsoo's direction, Baekhyun leapt forward and thumped Kyungsoo on the top of his head with his fist. "Ow, fuck Baek, that hurt!" Baekhyun just shrugged and said, "Well, now you know never to say that again. This isn't an Mpreg you idiot." Kyungsoo frowned and rubbed his head. "Whatever, and my head still hurts, you pabo."

Baekhyun was the only one Kyungsoo never ever got mad at. He always had an eminence amount of patience with the midget, and that's why Kyungsoo felt Baekhyun could come to him. For instance like that one time when Chanyeol had been chasing him; and just the way he behaved around Kyungsoo. Baekhyun was never afraid when Kyungsoo went all "Satansoo", which was a rarity for Kyungsoo. So yeah, he liked the midget, who wouldn't. But it was a friend like and nothing more, maybe even a little bit of brotherly protection.?

Still rubbing his head, Kyungsoo said, "Fine, I'll never say that again." Baekhyun smiled and patted Kyungsoo's head as he said, "Thank you, Kyungsoo!" before pivoting on his heel and grabbing Chanyeol's hand. Kyungsoo just rolled his eyes, muttering, "Yeah, yeah," as he waved away Baekhyun's thanks.

Baekhyun's p.o.v.

For gym class that day they would be playing dodge ball, and thinking it would be fun and very interesting, the six friends split in half and decided to go boyfriend against boyfriend. Luhan smiled brightly and clapped his hands as he said in excitement, "Oh, this is going to be sooo much fun!"

"Yeah," Kyungsoo said as he grabbed a ball and pointed to the ball then at Jongin, who rolled his eyes but visibly gasped. Baekhyun bit his lip to fight back a grin and glanced over a Chanyeol, he was already looking at Baekhyun, and when Baekhyun noticed this Chanyeol quickly turned away and scratched the back of his head. Baekhyun rolled his eyes at Chanyeol's horrible cover-up.

"Okay class, get into your teams!" Coach Kim yelled and clapped his hands for emphasis. The class scrambled around into a giant mass of bodies before slowly starting to straighten out into two individuals teams. Baekhyun, Luhan, and Kyungsoo stood on one side of the court floor, and Chanyeol, Sehun, and Jongin stood on the other, a big black line the only thing separating them from each other. "Alright, the game starts . . . Now!" And with Coach Kim's last words the balls started to fly. Baekhyun instantly got hit in the side of the head by one the colorful, fabric stuffed balls, and for a moment he just stood there confused. "Byun!" Coach Kim yelled. "Did that hit impair your senses!? Got off the court!" Dazedly Baekhyun walked to the bleachers and sat down, and slowly he started to come back to himself and realized what had happened.

Shit, he was out of the game! He didn't even get a chance to hit Chanyeol, yet. Huffing Baekhyun folded his arms across his chest and stared angrily in front of him, completely ignoring the game. After another moment of Baekhyun pouting, Luhan walked over to join Baekhyun, saying, "Hey Baekhyun, you got out too? Yeah well, Sehun hit me with a ball right between the eyes."

"What is it with hitting people in the head?" Baekhyun mumbled to himself. "Did you say something?" Luhan asked. "Huh, oh no, I was just thinking out loud," Baekhyun mumbled. "Oh, okay," Luhan said, nodding.

They didn't say much after that, just sat in silence as they watched the game unfold before them, and soon enough almost everyone was out and the Coach was blowing his whistle and declared the giant's team the winners. Then the Coach gestured for them to get ready because they would be starting another game. Sudden excitement filled Baekhyun as he bounded down from the bleachers and settled on the floor with new resolve. He wouldn't get thrown out of the game this time, he was determined to win and hit that Yoda right between the eyes with one of the many colorful balls!

3rd p.o.v.

Baekhyun took his place on the court floor and got into a position that would allow him quick and easy assess to one of the balls before him. Baekhyun was crouched with one of his hands posed over a ball, and on the opposite side of him, directly in front of him, was Chanyeol in much the same pose. Chanyeol gazed into Baekhyun eyes as he said, "Baek, if I end up throwing a ball at you at any time during the game, don't take it to heart, okay?"

Baekhyun smirked and said, "I was going to tell you the same thing. I love you Chanyeol, but I'm going to take you down."

Chanyeol grinned. "Oh really?"

Baekhyun glared at him through narrowed eyes and said, "Yes, I am."

Chanyeol so badly wanted to kiss Baekhyun in that moment, but he sealed away the desire and promised to kiss him later until he was dizzy and lightheaded from lack of oxygen. Baekhyun eyed Chanyeol skeptically and muttered, "Stop planning things in that giant head of yours!" Chanyeol gapped and cried, "How did you know I was planning something!?" Baekhyun grinned and leaned really close as he whispered, "Because I know you, Chanyeol, and you can't hide anything from me."

Chanyeol gulped. Aw, shit, he really hoped Baekhyun was only joking. Before Chanyeol could say anything else, Coach Kim blew his whistle and the game began. Baekhyun instantly picked up a ball and hurled it at Chanyeol's head. Chanyeol ducked out of the way, but it had come really close to hitting his shoulder. He huffed and spun around to face Baekhyun and threw his own ball. Baekhyun ducked just in time and threw another ball. Chanyeol had to jump out of the way to avoid it from hitting him in the shin, and in doing so, he smacked right into Sehun's back and they both fell to the floor. Baekhyun and Luhan, who had being battling with Sehun before Chanyeol accidentally fell on top of him, both took the opportunity to each hit them repeatedly with as many of the colorful balls they could get their hands on, so many that they had Chanyeol and Sehun yelling in mercy. Baekhyun and Luhan bent over laughing at Chanyeol and Sehun. They looked so funny cowering behind the other on the floor that the two other boys just lost it to a fit of laughter. Chanyeol and Sehun glared up at the other two, then they exchanged glances along with a few silent words, then simultaneously they were both attacking their boyfriends and yanked them to the floor by the waist. Baekhyun and Luhan were still laughing, even after getting attacked, and it didn't look like they would be stopping any time soon.

Chanyeol covered Baekhyun mouth with his hand and Baekhyun licked his palm, and then bursted out laughing again at Chanyeol's disgusted expression. Rolling his eyes, Chanyeol leaned down and kissed Baekhyun, and as he had thought it would, the kiss effectively shut Baekhyun up as he gasped a little "Um" of surprise as Chanyeol's lips met his. After kissing Baekhyun for a minute longer than Chanyeol planned, he pulled back as Baekhyun murmured, "What was that for?" Chanyeol grinned and said, "It was the only thing I could think of to get you to stop laughing." Baekhyun grinned and wrapped an arm around Chanyeol's neck as he muttered, "Well, it worked," before pulling him down for another kiss. Chanyeol kissed him back with enthusiasm.

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Chanyeol's p.o.v.

Later that day, Chanyeol and Baekhyun were back home from school. They were sitting in the living room doing their homework and helping the other when they didn't understand something. Chanyeol was twirling his pencil between his thumb and fingers and every so often glancing up at Baekhyun. Chanyeol was thinking about what Baekhyun said earlier and he was stuck on the part about "Yeah, but other people have", and Chanyeol just couldn't — or more like didn't — want to wrap his mind around it. But a part of him still had to know, a part of him was still curious, but if he asked Baekhyun about it he would surely get mad at Chanyeol. So should he just wait? But what if it was something really bad and they weren't doing anything about it, and then what if whatever it was happened again?

3rd p.o.v.

Chanyeol bit his lip as he glanced over at Baekhyun again, who felt the latter's stare. Sighing, Baekhyun looked up at Chanyeol and asked, "Why do you keep looking at me? I know I'm beautiful but come on . . ." Baekhyun grinned and Chanyeol rolled his eyes. "So conceited," Chanyeol muttered. "Yah! Take that back!" Baekhyun cried. Chanyeol shook his head and said, "Nope." Baekhyun huffed and said, "Fine," and crossed his arms.

Chanyeol just smiled at him, but then those thoughts started to creep back in. Chanyeol gnawed on the inside of his cheek as he contemplated the best way to ask, but maybe it'd be better in a way just to come out with it?

"Baekhyun?" Chanyeol asked cautiously.

Confused by Chanyeol's tone, Baekhyun glanced up with a frown and said, "Yeah, Chan? What is it?"

Chanyeol bit his lip and mumbled, "Well, it's about earlier. About what you said . . ."

Baekhyun froze and his voice held no hint of emotion when said, "Chanyeol, I told you I would tell you when I'm ready. So, why are you suddenly pushing it?"

"Baek, I'm not—"

"Yes you are!" Baekhyun shouted. "I told you I would tell you when I'm ready, and now you're pushing for me to tell you now! Chanyeol, respect what I said."

"Baek, I do respect what you said. It's just . . ." Chanyeol trailed off. Then suddenly Baekhyun pushed to his feet as he hissed, "No, you don't! And if you did you would have dropped it and you wouldn't be carrying it on! You would . . . let . . . it . . . go!" Before Chanyeol could utter another word Baekhyun turned away and left the house, slamming the front door behind him with a sharp bang. Chanyeol just sat there, completely frozen to his seat.

Baekhyun's p.o.v.

Baekhyun didn't care where he was going, he had just known he had to get away from Chanyeol before he said something he'd really regret, because he was already regretting what he had said and the way he said it, but if Chanyeol would have just let it go . . .

Biting his lip and yanking on his hair out of frustration, Baekhyun continued walking. He didn't know where he was going until the scent hit his nose and his eyes snapped up. Baekhyun sighed. He may have left Chanyeol for the moment, but a part of him still managed to find a place where they had been together, and it was both frustrating and enduring that his feet lead him here.

Sighing again, Baekhyun settled down in the grass a safe distance from the edge of the Han River and brought his knees up to his chest. He rested his chin on his folded arms and gazed out over the river as he slowly started to calm down.

Baekhyun was finally feeling back to normal when he went to stand up and heard a voice from behind him; a sickly familiar voice. Oh God, Baekhyun thought. Please no, let him not be real. But when Baekhyun turned around, he hadn't gone away.

Zhang Yixing stood before Baekhyun, and he was smirking as he slowly took Baekhyun in. "One of my men had said they thought they saw you here, but that you had blonde hair. And I thought, my Baekhyun, blonde?" Yixing shook his head with a smile. "But it's true. My little Baekkie is changing. Did you do that because you wanted to start over? Or maybe, you thought I wouldn't recognize you? Because that's funny Baekhyun," Yixing laughed. "That's so funny."

Yixing took a step towards Baekhyun and Baekhyun said in a strong voice, "Yixing, stay the fuck away from me!"

Yixing's grin was animalistic as he slowly drew closer, and said in a soft voice, "Why Baekhyun, I thought you liked our game? And your boyfriend isn't here to protect you, so why should I listen to you? I've never listened to you, so why the hell start now!?"

Baekhyun didn't mean to flinch at Yixing's tone, because he knew what the display of weakness did to him, and it affected him, just as Baekhyun knew it would. Yixing licked his lips and stalked towards Baekhyun as he taunted, "Ooh, so the puppy's scared, why don't we play and make it better?" Then Yixing seized the collar of Baekhyun's shirt and started dragging him towards the river.

"Yixing! Let me go!" Baekhyun screamed and kicked at Yixing, but his grip was too strong and Baekhyun was only tiring himself out. But he couldn't go into that water. And how cruel of Yixing to exploit his fear like this. And how stupid of Baekhyun to even go near the water in the first place! As the black inky tenderly wrapped around Baekhyun's feet, a sudden icy chill seized him and rendered his body completely numb.

It was like Baekhyun had been injected with a paralyzing serum as Yixing shoved him beneath the water. Paralyzed to the point where he couldn't fight back. To the point where he couldn't move; to the point where he couldn't breathe.
   
Byun Baekhyun was going to drown.
   
He struggled against the tight hands holding him under, but when he felt those skeletal fingers graze his skin and run the length of his neck, Baekhyun's body became lax and light. He wanted to fight against the chill and numbness, but Death inched closer and wrapped a cloaked arm around Baekhyun as if to embrace him. Death kissed Baekhyun on the forehead and his lips moved to Baekhyun's ear as Death whispered, "I'm creeping in you heart I will overturn you, break and swallow you I steal you and indulge in you I will ruin you." Death whirled around Baekhyun as his eyes began to flutter. "Everyone fears me so I'm untouchable But why can't you honestly refuse me in the end I hide, watching you, and you're surprise I'm like an antinomy to you, but I'm part of you Accept me as I am Forget your fearful worries Enjoy the pain you can endure Fall deeper I'm toying with you in my palm however I want Don't run away, you will linger forever You can call me monster."
   
Baekhyun's body felt light as he was suddenly pulled from the water, and he choked and stuttered at the sudden sensation of air entering his lungs. Dazed-like, he glanced up and saw Yixing. He was crouched over Baekhyun and roughly yanking down Baekhyun's pants. Baekhyun couldn't fight. His energy was spent and all he could do was lie there, numb and paralyzed. Baekhyun rolled his head to the side and closed his eyes, not wanting to see Yixing's face as he slowly got closer. Baekhyun tried slowing down his heart rate because he didn't want to live through what he knew inevitably came next.
   
He wanted to stop fighting. He wanted to stop breathing. He wanted to stop living.
   
Byun Baekhyun wanted to die.
   
But then Baekhyun heard the sweetest sound, and even twisted in anger it was still the most beautiful sound Baekhyun had ever heard. Baekhyun opened his eyes and lifted his head weakly and saw the most beautiful giant running towards them. The giant's face was twisted in grief and anger, but still very beautiful, and it made Baekhyun's heart jump. Even in his current state he wanted to run to the giant and embrace him.
   
"Chanyeol," Baekhyun whispered weakly.

Chanyeol's p.o.v.

Chanyeol didn't expect to find Baekhyun the way he did. Soaking wet as he laid near the waters edge, and that man, Yixing, standing above him with a devilish smirk. With his eyes still holding Chanyeol's, Yixing knelt down to Baekhyun and shoved his shirt up so he could lick and kiss Baekhyun's stomach, then he moved to kiss Baekhyun's lips. Chanyeol was filled with rage as he ran at the bastard, tackling him around the waist and knocking him into the sandbank. They rolled before stopping at the waters edge, and Chanyeol straddled Yixing's waist as he punched him sharply to the jaw. Chanyeol felt a bone crack beneath his fist, much like the last time, but this time he didn't just simply want to hurt Yixing, he want to kill him.

Yixing had gone after Baekhyun. He's gone after Baekhyun his whole life. And now Chanyeol finally understood — or maybe he always did, but just had to see it. Yixing didn't just beat Baekhyun up and mark his skin with bruises like Baekhyun's father. No, Yixing took his violence to a whole other level. He made Baekhyun feel utterly vulnerable and had him believing that he was worthless because of the things that had happened to him in the past and still continued to happen. He left Baekhyun feeling insignificant.

Chanyeol punched Yixing again, but then heard Baekhyun croak, "C-Chanyeol?" followed by a sputtering, gasping cough, Chanyeol punched Yixing once more before turning to Baekhyun. Chanyeol gently snapped Baekhyun's pants back into place before moving to lift Baekhyun's head into his lap and brushed back the wet hair from his damp skin. Chanyeol's brow furrowed with emotion and he pressed his lips roughly to Baekhyun's forehead as he felt tears rolling down his cheeks and fall onto Baekhyun's skin.

Baekhyun's p.o.v.

Chanyeol was too distracted by Baekhyun to notice Yixing quietly rising to his feet from behind him. But Baekhyun noticed, and he also noticed the glint of the blade in Yixing's hand, and saw him lunge toward Chanyeol. With a scream Baekhyun pushed Chanyeol out of the way just before the knife could make contact with Chanyeol's back.

But Baekhyun wasn't so lucky, when he had pushed Chanyeol out of the way, he had inevitable exposed himself. Yixing's knife dug into Baekhyun's stomach, and with a gasp and a sputter of blood from his mouth, Baekhyun whispered, "Chanyeol, I'm so sorry." Then he clasped unconscious onto his side, blooding pooling out around the hilt of the knife.

Chanyeol's p.o.v.

"Baekhyun!" Chanyeol screamed as he scrambled forward and helplessly fluttered his hands over Baekhyun's body. "Oh, fuck!" Chanyeol cried as he quickly pulled out his phone and dialed nine-one-one.

"Hello, what is your emergency?" the operator asked.

"My boy—my boyfriend's been stabbed," Chanyeol sobbed. "Sir, what is your location?" the operator asked. Chanyeol quickly told her then whispered, "Please, hurry," before he snapped his phone shut and dropped onto all fours beside Baekhyun, heavy tears streaming down his face.

If Baekhyun dies, Chanyeol thought, then what's the point? If Baekhyun dies, I die too.

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Author's Notes

Hello, my lovely readers! Is anyone else crying? And sorry for the cliffhanger. 😬😭

Anyway, until next time.... 🌸🌸