(Author's Note: I'm bored so I decided to update. Your welcome.)

Update: 5/28/21- Changes to some scenes. 

Captain watched you closely as everyone else looked at him in surprise. 

"Panic attack?"

"As long as we don't crowd her and allow her to breathe, she'll be okay. Just give her time..." Captain explained. 

You continued to breathe hard as you tried desperately to calm down. That dream...

No, it wasn't a dream. That was real!

What you saw was real. But what was that?

Rod's words repeated in your head. Your head throbbing as you couldn't remember the story he said. 

You were with the royal family? They tried to take your power. You fought back and almost killed them. You stole some powers of the Founding Titan?

But why did those words trigger your bloodlust. 

And what you just did to Eren. You almost did it. 

You almost killed him then and there. You wanted to kill the others. 

Why...? Because it felt...like you needed to?

But why? All of this didn't make sense!

You wanted to remember your forgotten memories just to get answers but doing so would mean remembering something you weren't supposed to. 

You should have never joined the scouts. 

You should have just continued to remain ignorant!

Why! Why did you have to be like this!?

Then, you heard words you wanted desperately to hear. 

"Breathe kid. Just breathe..."

You slowly looked up and saw Captain Levi staring at you. 

You looked back at him fearfully; you backed up a bit. 

No... you still weren't ready. 

He lowered himself to your level, still keeping his distance. 

"Take all the time you need just breathe."

You listened and closed your eyes. You took time breathing, breathing in and out deeply. 

His words were comforting. Familiar almost...

It reminded you of someone. Someone you couldn't remember but you know you met.

You smiled a little as you faintly remembered a face, tears dropping from your cheeks. 

What was this emotion you were feeling? 

You missed this person, yet you don't even remember who they are. 

Finally, you calmed down. Opening your eyes once more. 

Everyone stared at you expectantly, Captain awaiting your next move while the rest just stared in worry. 

They wanted desperately to come to your aid but didn't know when the right time was to do so. 

"You okay now?" Captain asked. 

You nodded, still shaking a bit. 

"I'm okay..." You mouthed. 

"Good, now don't try to move. Your head is injured from the explosion. We're going to get out of here. Just focus on keeping awake." Captain explained. 

You nodded. Captain stepped back while the others slowly approached you. 

Long story short, they were glad you were okay. 

"Y/n...I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Historia apologized. 

"What for?" You mouthed. 

"For almost eating you. You were dragged into a mess you didn't deserve. I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry too. For almost pulling you to the grave with me. It wasn't fair to you. I was only thinking about myself and didn't think of you." Eren also apologized. 

You stared in shock. You were surprised Eren of all people was apologizing. But he should rightfully so after the shit he almost put you through. 

"It's okay." You mouthed. 

Captain waited until everyone calmed down before continuing next action. 

"Let's go. We have a big ass titan to catch."

"Who's going to carry Y/n?" Connie asked. 

"I can handle myself; thank you." You went to stand up. 

"Sit back down!" Captain yelled. 

You sat. 

"Or not I guess..." But he was right. A head injury like this could be serious. 

"I can carry-" Jean began to say. 

"No. I'll carry her." Eren interrupted. 

"Wait, what?" You looked up in surprise. 

"But, Eren. You might be a bit weak from your transformation. You might drop her. Let me carry her at least-." Mikasa began to say. 

"I said I'll carry her," Eren replied with more hostility while walking towards you. 

"Yeager, stop. Just leave it to Ackerman to handle her."

Your eyebrow twitched as you felt the almost obvious annoyance of Eren and the disappointment in Jean in the moment. 

You hated your situation right now. 

"Is she too heavy for you?" Jean asked the forbidden words while Mikasa placed you onto her back with ease. 

Your eyes narrowed sharply at Jean, who shut up and flinched really quick. 

"I'm fine. She's fine." Mikasa replied while walking off. 

"And I'm not that heavy!" You thought. 

"I-I didn't mean that!" He tried to apologize. 

"Hmm..." You grumbled. 

You much rather preferred Mikasa carrying you anyways. 

"Y/n...? Are you sure you're, okay?" Mikasa asked with worry. 

"Hm-mm." You nodded. 

"Is this...the first time it happened?"

"....hm mm" You lied. 

Not exactly the first one.

You all then climbed out through the opening Connie and Sasha found, Armin giving Eren an extra hand. 

"Woah, what happened?" Armin asked, referring to your bleeding head. 

"A lot happened. But Y/n's okay." he replied. 

You met up with everyone else and you were placed on a carriage to meet with the others, Mikasa being extra careful with you. 

Jean tried to place a hand on a shoulder to calm you down a bit. Only for Eren to roughly brush past Jean and situate himself next you. 

Your head was wrapped up and you laid your head back just in case you pass out from your injury. You really hope you didn't get any brain damage from this. 

"You can lay on my lap if you want?" Eren quietly suggested. 

You gave him a look before rolling your eyes and instead, pushing both your legs up to situate them on Eren's lap. 

Your back propped against the end of the wagon seat and your legs sprawled out across Eren's lap. 

You snickered as Eren got annoyed but made no attempt to push your legs off his lap. 

Once you all met up with Erwin, you all headed after the titan who was somewhat quickly approaching the walls. 

"Well...this certainly is a conundrum," Hange said after summing up the information they heard. 

"But what confuses me that all of this has nothing to do with why they wanted Y/n. Yes, she's a titan shifter. But why her?" 

You, Eren, and Historia exchanged looks. Hange noticed their change in attitude. 

"What's wrong?"

"Actually...there is a reason to why they kidnapped Y/n..." Historia said. "And it's nothing like we ever thought."

"And what is that? Does she have sort of a connection to the royal family?"

"Well...sort of...."

"Then what is it?"

The group remained silent as they listened to what the two had to say. Eren looked over at you. The look on your face said it all. 

You didn't want to believe it...but you had to. 

You nodded at Eren, allowing him to continue. 

"Y/n's...somehow connected to the royal family."

Everyone's eyes widened. 

"Wait, what!?"

"You're kidding!!"

"Are you serious!?" Hange somewhat stood up, forgetting they was injured for a moment. 

"Connected to the royal family!? As in like the Founding Titan?" Armin said. 

"And apparently the coordinator." Historia then went onto to explain everything that her father said to her. 

"Her memories couldn't be manipulated. They forgotten her titan existed because they thought it was destroyed centuries ago." Historia explained. 

"Interesting...but that doesn't explain why he kidnapped Y/n," Hange added. 

"Apparently Rod wanted Historia to eat Y/n as well to gain her titan abilities. Wanted to kill her since she proved to be a threat to the royal family." Eren's voice trailed off. 

"Did he explain more about her abilities?" 

Historia shook her head. 

The group remained silent; all eyes were on you. 

"..." You didn't respond, not like you couldn't. 

"Well, thanks for telling us. That answers the question what Rod might have wanted from her. But it's strange that Y/n doesn't remember anything from that event."

"That's probably Y/n's business." Armin answered. 

Eren kept his gaze on you, who refused to make eye contact with anyone. With all the partial information he learned from Rod and from what she had just done, Eren became even more worried--no, afraid for you. Surely if something like this was to happen again, who knows what could happen. 

He began to become more and more curious about you. Reiner, Bertholdt, Annie, and now Rod. They all know who you are and what you can do. But you and the others don't have the slightest. 

How can you not know anything about yourself. 

Unless you do and you're trying to hide it. Trying to live in this false reality and playing ignorant. 

No...you couldn't be. 

Historia noticed his gaze towards you. 

"Eren, what's wrong?"

Eren lowered his voice. 

"It's just...I'm really worried about Y/n. Everyone that became an enemy knows about her and what she can do. But we don't know anything about her. Not even Y/n herself knows. It just confuses me on who she really is. Is she even the person we know?"

"Can you stop?"

"Huh?"

"Stop thinking about all the bad stuff about what Y/n is. But instead, be intrigued and happy about the Y/n we have. She's our friend; even when she lost control, she never once tried to harm any of us. She's not perfect, but she's still our friend."

"That's not the point..."

"Huh?"

"It's just...I really admire Y/n...so much..." Eren admitted genuinely. 

"Me too," Historia replied. (A/N: 👀 What do you mean by that Historia?)

"I just wish I could understand her more...To know more about that side of her. It just feels like I'm so far from understanding her."

"Since when did that matter?"

"Huh?"

"Apart from the titan abilities and other things she can do. She's the real Y/n. The real Y/n who you have and still are friends with. The Y/n who you admire and love." 

Eren remained quiet before smiling a bit, looking back at you. 

"Yeah...you're right..."

Author's Note: Might take long to update since I'm still working on my other book, so just bear with me for the time being. And forgive me if there are any spelling errors.