"YOU'RE WHAT!?"

Your friends all asked as you revealed what you wrote to them in your notebook. You flinched back slightly at their loud voices. 

"You're graduating early!?"

"Amazing!"

"Congratulations!"

"Y/N!!!!!" You were engulfed in a hug by Sasha. 

"You're fighting skills got you a spot in the Survey Corps, that's awesome!"

"Why the Survey Corps? They could have put in any other branch that could get her out of danger."

You gently smiled at them, they all seemed pretty supportive of your decision. You looked amongst their excited faces, until you noticed Eren, Mikasa, and Armin's expressions. 

Armin and Mikasa looked seemingly happy for you, Eren on the other hand didn't look happy. 

In fact, he looked jealous. 

"That's great, Y/n." Mikasa said. 

"You'll do great!" Armin gave you a closed eye smile. 

"Graduating early? They allow something like that?" Eren asked, obvious annoyance in his voice. 

You furrowed your eyebrows. No way he was acting like a brat now. 

"So which squad are you entering in!?" Sasha asked, completely blocking your vision from the three. 

Your crowd of friends soon swarmed closer around you, making Mikasa, Eren, and Armin appear in the far back. 

You wrote it down in your journal and showed it to them. Their eyes widened. 

"No way!"

"You're in Captain Levi's squad!?"

"Humanity's Strongest!!"

"You met him!?"

"What's he like!?"

You were bombarded with questions once more and they closed in on you even more, making you take a few steps back. 

"Ha..." You made an uncomfortable little noise. 

Out of the corner of my eye, you saw Eren storm off with Mikasa (obviously) and Armin following after him. 

Oh dear...

"Hey, that's enough guys. You're making her more stressed than she already is." the crowd dispersed, and Marco gently took your hands. 

"Are you alright, Y/n?"

"Hm!" You nodded. 

"We don't mean to stress you out, Y/n. We're all just very excited for you."

Not 'all' of you. Your worries were on your friends who just left.

"Hey, where'd Eren go?"

"Mikasa and Armin are gone too."

"What do you mean? They were just here."

Looks like you weren't the only one who noticed they left. 

You needed to see if they were alright. For all you know, Eren could be throwing a fit right now. 

Marco sighed, already having an idea of what's going on. 

"Y/n, you should probably go look for them." He suggested. 

You nodded and made you way out to find your friends. 

It didn't take long for you to find them. 

Walking slowly and quietly, you began to hear soft voices talk in front of a nearby cabin. 

"Eren...you're being ridiculous." You heard Mikasa say. 

"So, what if I am!? Why does she get to graduate early!? Is that even allowed!? We're already so close to graduating and just like that, she gets to leave!? They might as well scout you too!" You heard Eren yell. 

"But still, it's a good opportunity that she is. We all seen how she fights during hand-to-hand combat. You even said it yourself Eren, you expected she'll land a spot in the Survey Corps. " Armin added. 

"But I didn't mean now!? How is that even fair!?"

"You're overreacting. So, what if she graduates early and gets a head start. We're still going to see her. There won't be much of a difference."

"That's not the point! I've been dreaming since the day I saw them that I wanted to be a part of the scouts! Y/n didn't even know a thing about them. She wouldn't even be here if I never talked about it! And now she gets to go off living my dream first and it's just stupid!" Eren snapped. 

"...!!" You were taken aback by this. 

Is he being serious right now?

You were close to just revealing yourself and punching the hell out of Eren. You were about to step out of the corner when...

"Eren...calm down..." Armin said quietly. 

"..." Eren stayed quiet for a moment. 

"I...I just...I want to be happy for her. But it's hard seeing someone one up you on something you've been dreaming your entire life." He admitted. 

Your eyes softened a bit as you let out a sigh. 

"Dammit Eren..." 

Was that how he really feels? 

You felt bad for him a bit. You were practically living his dream earlier before him. 

But how was this any of your fault!?

It was Shadis' choice, and whether he likes it or not. You were still going to be scouted regardless of if you graduated on time. 

You turned the corner, revealing yourself to your friends. 

"Y/n!?" Armin gasped. 

Eren immediately looked at you and his eyes widened. They all realized you heard everything they were saying. 

"Y/n...I--I--" Eren began to say. 

"Y/n, it's okay. We're just--" Armin continued. 

"Did you hear everything?" Mikasa asked the real question. 

You nodded slowly. Eren let out a sharp exhale, knowing he messed up. 

Your eyes looked at Eren, hurt was evident on your face. 

"Y/n...I didn't mean it like that. I was just--" His words stopped as you just shook your head disappointedly. 

"When will you grow the hell up?" You thought before storming off. 

"Y/n!" Eren called out. 

"Y/n, wait!" 

"Eren! Armin...just give her some space." You heard Mikasa said. 

You were storming off to who knows where, you didn't care where you were going. 

"---...I'm telling you, it's her!" You heard voice. 

"Did you see the way she fought. I recognize that fighting style."

Was that...Reiner?

"Even if it is her. She doesn't even remember us. She looked at me, like she didn't even know." 

...Bertholdt?

"Even if it is her, how can we be so sure we should trust her. She has no memories of us, so I doubt she knows why any of us are here." 

Annie...

Who were they talking about?

"I just can't believe it. I thought she died." Bertholdt spoke. 

Silence...

"Is this a good thing? That she's alive? What are we even supposed to do!?" Bertholdt exclaimed. 

"If she can't remember then she's useless to us. We carry on." Reiner replied. 

"Reiner! Are you sure? Maybe there's something--"

"What else is there do if she can't remember!?" Annie exclaimed. 

"Woah...Annie? Are you upset?" Reiner asked. 

"..." Annie didn't reply. 

Something told you that you shouldn't be there. You slowly backed up and quietly fled the scene. 

That was a conversation you were not meant to hear. Who knows what could have happened if they noticed you. 

*Time Skip*

"So, you're leaving two days from now, right?" Krista asked. 

You nodded, your head down on the table. 

"Ah...that's so little time to pack."

Not that you have much stuff...

"If you need any assistance, I'll be happy to help."

Your eyes slightly widened. 

This feeling of kindness...is not all fake this time. How come?

But your eyes grew blank once you found your answer. 

Pity. You could smell the feeling of pity mixed with the fake kindness. But the pity she was feeling was real. She is actually concerned over your well-being. 

"Y/n...you're barely eating. Are you alright?" Marco asked you. 

You slightly shrugged your shoulders. 

After what happened, you grew stressed and can't even find the urge to eat. 

"I CAN HAVE IT!!!" 

"Sasha, shut up!" Jean yelled. 

You just want to be alone right now...

'You can have it Sasha.' You wrote in your journal. 

You picked up the piece of bread and stuffed it in Sasha's mouth, a little too deep because she started to choke. 

"Ah! Y/n!"

"Stop that! You're making Sasha choke!" Connie yelled as he gently tugged on you arm. 

"...!!"

You quickly got the message and let go. Sasha coughed out the bread as you patted her back. 

'Sorry' You wrote. 

"What was that for!? Did I make you mad or something!?" Sasha yelled at you with teary eyes. 

You grew uncomfortable since you're not used to comforting people who cry, so you awkwardly patted her head, which confused her a bit. 

"You at least need to eat a little, Y/n. Here..." 

Marco tried his best to feed you the piece of bread, but you shook your head and turned your face away. 

"Maybe she really is not hungry..." he mumbled. 

You didn't pay attention; your eyes were on your three friends as they talked amongst themselves. You were leaving in two days. Could this be the last time you see them...?

The last time...you see all of them?

"..." The stressful feeling returned. 

Later that evening, you could barely keep your eyes opened. All the events that happened today stressed you to the point of exhaustion. 

Eren's outburst, the conversation between Annie, Bertholdt, and Reiner. 

It was too much for you to comprehend. 

Your head hurts. 

You could barely keep my eyes opened when dinner was served. As your friends talked amongst themselves, you were trying to keep your head from falling face first onto the table. 

Armin was quick to notice your actions. 

"Y/n...are you alright?"

"Hm?" You hummed faintly as you stopped yourself from sleeping once more. 

"Long day, huh? You must be tired." Jean smiled a bit. 

"Hmm." You nodded while laying your head on Jean's shoulders. You could feel him tense up, but didn't know what face he was making. 

Just then, you heard a chair get scoot back abruptly and someone grab your hand. 

"I'll take her back." Eren said with slight annoyance in his voice. 

"Eren-" Mikasa started to say, but Eren already pulled you away.  

"...!" That woke you up a bit.

After what happened, Eren is the last person you want to interact with today.  

You tried fighting back but couldn't do much with your tired state. You huffed in annoyance. 

You'll drop kick his ass in the morning once you see him. 

Just then, you felt Eren stop and sat you down on a bench near your cabin. 

He sat down close next to you and stared up at the sky. A comfortable silence fell over you two. 

"..." You felt yourself get embarrassed a bit. He was sitting quite close to you.

"I'm sorry." He apologized. 

"Heh?" You raised an eyebrow at him. 

"For what I said earlier. I was...jealous. So...I'm sorry." He muttered. 

....

"Pfft--" You held back a chuckle. 

Then, you couldn't hold back as you let out muffled laughs. 

"Seriously!? I'm apologizing and you're laughing!?" He exclaimed. 

Weak ass apology if you ask me. 

But apology was an apology. 

You slapped his shoulders a couple of times as you laughed. You shook your head in amusement before mouthing the words. 

'I forgive you.'

"Heh...thanks."

It was then you both realized how close your faces were to each other. Silence loomed over you both as none of you made the attempt to move away. 

Something about Eren's eyes completely memorized you. Not like you were attracted to him or anything. But--they were just so...beautiful to look at. 

"...!" But that moment was ruined when you saw Eren's eyes look down from your eyes to your lips in a quick second.

Realizing what he just did, he leaned away to face forward again. 

"But that's not all what I wanted to say. Y/n...I..." His voice trailed off. 

He thought for a moment, seemingly fighting on what to say next. He let out a sigh, probably giving up. 

"I wasn't kidding about what I said earlier. I think you'll be great in the Survey Corps. And I guess the reason why I was so upset was that horseface--Jean, said that you'll end up becoming better than I was. I didn't want to admit that he was right and see that smug look of his face. But I guess with your news now, I won't hear the end of it."

You chuckled. 

Sounds like them. 

"But yeah, that's all I wanted to say. That I'm sorry, I guess."

He's really not used to apologizing and you were touched that he was at least trying. 

You leaned into him, letting your shoulders touch. 

"Thanks, Eren..."

Eren smiled back awkwardly. 

"You'll show them, right?" Eren held up his fist. 

"Hell yeah." 

The two of you bumped fists. 

"Can't wait to see you there."

"Me too."

Finally, the stress you felt melted away as you relaxed into Eren's shoulders. You'll find your will to speak again, you know you will.