Another year comes to a close

But I can't think of one thing worth remembering that has happened this year.

Should I start meditating? "Live life mindfully", they say... But will I really be able to do it?

Not lean onto my daydreams and breathe in the reality. 

I mean, I am living in reality. I am a quite realistic person. But sometimes real life becomes disappointing... Unfortunately for me, that 'sometimes' is just most times. 

Will I ever feel that life...is favorable to me?

Will I ever feel 'alive'?

Will I be able to taste and revel in that feeling?

Will it be something worth remembering?