chapped lips on sun-kissed skin, puffs of warm breaths, tenderness lingering behind every soft touch. if tyler wants josh to have sex with him to distract him from his own head, the latter is going to make damn sure it does the trick.

his lips remove from tyler's neck, the same spot he's been kissing for the past five minutes. he takes a moment to eye tyler in all his glory, completely naked but still looking heavenly as if he were made entirely of angel dust.

"i hope you realize how beautiful you are," josh says in a soft, yet husky voice. he smiles in the slightest as the brunette lights up, his cheeks quickly turning a shade of velvet.

"even when i'm naked?" tyler squeaks, feathering his fingers over the bruising skin of his neck.

"yes, even now," he's informed, watching curiously as josh trails his hands down his sides. "your body is beautiful, your face is beautiful, your voice is beautiful, your heart is beautiful, your love is beautiful, your-"

"wouldn't those two technically be the same thing?" tyler teases, josh smiling along. "just kidding."

"you know what i mean," josh chuckles, dipping his head down once again to leave a trail of kisses going down the boy's stomach. he squeezes a bit of pudge between his fingers, ignoring tyler's noise of complaint. "and your skin is beautiful, it's so soft."

"stop pulling at my fat," the boy whines, swatting josh's hand away.

"it's not fat, it's pudge, and i love it," he declares, patting tyler's stomach. next, the boy's bare thighs are being squeezed between his fingers, josh being completely aware of (but trying to ignore) the spot tyler is craving to be touched. "and i especially love these."

"josh," the brunette whines, rolling his eyes. "it hurts."

the man just chuckles, slowly encasing his fingers along the tyler's length. said boy inhales sharply, jaw falling slack as a tiny moan escapes him. "and i love the noises you make, so pretty."

tyler doesn't say anything in response, he's too caught up in his own head. in a good way, this time. josh can tell from the lust-blown pupils and the way fingers curl into the bedsheets. it makes him smile to know he can make tyler feel so good so easily.

josh licks a stripe along his shaft, trailing his mouth up around the tip and swirling his tongue there for a few moments. he pulls away when tyler's hips buck, resulting in an exasperated groan from the latter.

josh shushes him, playful smile etched on his lips. "i need you to be quiet if we're trying to keep things secret."

"okay, okay, just come on," tyler whines, gasping as josh's grip tightens around him.

the older is quiet for a few moments, watching intensely. tyler frowns, a bit confused and a bit annoyed. "what?"

"hold on, i'm gonna grab something."

he leaves tyler with that, getting up to search through one of his dresser drawers. he finds what he's looking for and joins the boy again, holding the item behind his back. "it's just an idea, okay? you can say no to it if it makes you uncomfortable. i bought it the other day, just figured it would come in handy."

before the brunette can question him, josh reveals a pastel pink... gag?

tyler raises an eyebrow, staring at the foreign object a bit nervously. "i'll be safe?"

"i wouldn't ever put you in danger. it won't hurt you, and it's nice and new. what do you think? we could just use one of my ties if that would make you feel safer."

tyler considers it, but decides he wants to be daring. a tie would probably be less efficient, anyway, and he wants to try this out. "no, let's use it."

"you're sure you want to? i'm okay with you saying no," josh checks.

"yes, i'm sure. but... what if i decide i want it off? or if i want to stop?"

"hmmm..." josh stares off into the distance for a second, gasping as a brilliant idea pops into his head. "easy, just flip me off."

tyler giggles. "isn't that a bit rude? can't i just give you a thumbs-down or something?"

"but then it would feel like you're thumbs-downing my sex skills and my feelings would be hurt." josh makes a pouty-face, and it's the most adorable thing tyler has ever seen.

"okay," he agrees, still chuckling. "i'll flip you off, then."

josh smiles along, kissing the brunette briefly before adjusting the gag around his head. "how's that? comfortable? feel okay?"

tyler nods, feeling a bit more vulnerable now that speech has been stripped away from him. it's not too tight around his head, not too big for his mouth... it fits perfect, honestly.

"now, would you like me to continue?" josh asks, grinning as tyler nods his head furiously.

the man returns to his spot between his thighs, wasting no more time as he takes tyler into his mouth. the brunette moans instantaneously, but the sound is muffled almost completely. josh already misses hearing those pretty noises, but it would be a lie to say he isn't turned on either way.

with hallowed cheeks, josh bobs his head along tyler's dick. spit coats it's entirety, only making it more slick for lips to glide against. tyler is a moaning mess, although it's difficult to tell. he feels a bit more secure in this way, at least he won't feel embarrassed over how loud he usually is.

before he can come, josh's mouth removes and readjusts itself at his hole. his warm tongue flicks against it, quickly dipping inside as he eats the brunette out. the latter's thighs close around his head, a feeling josh has come to love. strong hands hold them in place, gripping flesh hard enough to keep tyler still.

josh knows his climax is building when his thighs begin shaking, so he quickly sets tyler's legs down and pulls away. the latter groans, desperate to beg for more but unable to.

"patience, dear," josh scolds playfully. he grabs the bottle of lube and coats himself graciously, having to bite his lip to refrain from moaning. tyler isn't the only one who's sensitive.

the older pushes himself inside slowly, slowly, until there's no more to give. he pants softly, leaning over tyler and kissing his temple. "fuck, i'll never get sick of this feeling."

tyler lets out some sort of hum/moan of agreement, eyes rolling into his skull when josh pulls out and pushes all the way back in. it's slower than usual, but he certainly doesn't mind. it just means he gets more time to admire josh's bare, freckled skin.

"still okay?" said man asks, his forehead just inches from tyler's.

tyler nods, managing to raise his hand to give a thumbs-up. josh laughs louder than he expected, making him smile as best he can with a gag in his mouth.

the pace finally begins to pick up, but it still isn't the skin-slapping-skin contact tyler is so used to. as hard as it is to choose, tyler might enjoy this more than their typical rough sex. sure, he has a gag in his mouth, and sure, he was expecting more, but he certainly is not disappointed.

"fuck," josh groans in his ear, causing goosebumps to form along his arms. "you still sound so pretty."

tyler can only moan in response, turning his head to rest their faces against each other. the simple contact makes his heart swell. he takes a moment to just appreciate josh, glancing down to watch as his hips roll. so badly he wants to spew out an i love you, but since he can't, he tangles one hand in the man's hair while the other rests on his waist.

as if he could read his mind, josh ushers a, "god, i love you," one hand reaching down to pump the brunette in timing with his strokes. such a simple action sends tyler over the edge. he finally releases the heat that had been building in the pit of his stomach, pretty eyes hidden as he squeezes them shut.

"that's it," josh hums, working the boy through his high. he continues for a few minutes, suddenly pulling out and releasing onto tyler's stomach with a string of cuss words.

the brunette's face is beet red after witnessing such, giggling when josh winks at him. "sorry, didn't want to make you feel dirty. let's take this off."

he nods, lifting his head so josh can properly remove the gag. it gets put away while he retrieves a towel and cleans up the mess tainting tyler's honey skin. josh curls up beside the boy immediately after, taking him into his arms to snuggle against him.

"i love you," tyler finally gets to say, feeling so at ease when josh kisses his forehead.

"i love you too, dear. how's that head of yours?"

"thinking happy thoughts," tyler grins, casting loving eyes up towards the man.

"good," he responds. "you know, sometimes i don't think you realize just how special you are."

"sometimes i don't," tyler admits, "but then you make me remember all over again. you always do."

"good," josh repeats, then realizes his damp skin is probably grossing out the poor boy. "do you want to get dressed?"

"do we have to?" tyler whines. "your skin feels soooo good on mine."

"no," josh chuckles, "i just thought my sweat was grossing you out."

"nope," he says, popping the 'p'. "you're nice and warm so i don't care."

"you're adorable."

"you're handsome."

"oh yeah?" josh challenges. "well you're my favorite person."

"hey, you're mine too!" tyler argues, making a pretend angry face.

"look at that, absolutely adorable."

"oh, shush," the brunette smiles.

he absolutely loves this. how could he ever think for second that josh doesn't care about him, that all he wants is sex? it's so far from the truth. he just needs to learn how to get that through his head. he knows josh wouldn't be putting in so much effort just to get in his pants. he could easily find a different person to fuck every night if that's all he really wanted. tyler knows this, but sometimes his brain just psyches itself out.

"whatcha thinking?"

"that i know you love me."

"yeah?"

"yeah," tyler nods. "it would suck real bad if i ever lost you, josh. you're the only person who's ever been able to help me and my stupid brain."

"your brain isn't stupid, dear. i find it quite lovely," josh compliments, patting the floof of hair adorning his head. "and it would suck quite a lot if i were to lose you too, dear. i don't really know how that would feel, but i imagine it wouldn't be too pleasant."

"yeah," tyler agrees, "but i promise you'll never lose me."

"i promise you'll never lose me, either," josh smiles, lifting his chin to give him a big, fat kiss. "i'll always be by your side."

__a/n__

i wrote this while listening to one direction

i miss them