Hey guys. Sorry it took so long for me to update. I've been really busy. This chapter is a little sad but I hope you like it.

BACK TO TAMAKI'S POV

I stayed home for a week, the boys kept calling me. I didn't answer, I just declined their calls. They texted me saying they were going to come over and check on me,but I just told the servants to refuse to let them, or anyone else in. I just want to be alone. The one thing I ever really cared about was gone. The worst part was when he would text me, asking if I was ok. It took everything in me to not respond.

It's now Sunday and I told myself that I need to stop wallowing in my self pity. No matter what I'm still the host club leader and the club needs me.

It's definitely going to be hard to be around Kyoya but I'm going to have to learn. At least I didn't technically get rejected. Even though it sure feels like it.... I now know what it feels like to love someone who doesn't love you back. It's a really horrible feeling. As if a part of myself has been shut down,or even died.

I frowned, looking down at my bed. Why me? Why do I have to go through this? Why is it that the one person I truly love not love me?

I felt a tear run down my cheek. "NO!STOP! YOU NEED TO STOP BEING SO UPSET AND GET ON WITH YOUR LIFE!" I started to cry much harder, covering my face with my hands. "why am I such an idiot?"

I cried for a while before I was able to calm down. I'm going to school tomorrow and I'm going to suck it up.... No matter how much it hurts.

I looked up at the clock, it was 4:21pm. I sighed. Another day lost. I realized how much I must be behind on so I grabbed my binder and did as much as I could before going to bed. Not even eating.

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I woke up, remembering I had vowed to go to school today. I moaned and got out of bed. Heading to the shower.

After my shower I packed up all my books and went downstairs for a quick breakfast, knowing that I will need all the energy i can get.

I could tell all my servants were surprised to see me out of bed, but of course said nothing. In all honesty I'm about as surprised as they are. I seriously thought I was going to back out and stay home but I know I need to talk to the guys and fulfill my duties as leader.

I finished up my breakfast then headed out. As I got into my car I took a deep breath. Do I really want to do this? 

I closed my eyes, convincing myself that I needed to. I then started my car, then drove off to school.

When I got to school I tried to get to class unnoticed. And I almost did until Carmen came up to me.

"Hey. Where have you been? Every one has been worrying." She said, looking at me concerned.

I looked down, feeling ashamed of being such a coward. She frowned, realizing what was wrong.

"Oh" I looked up at her and she gave me a big hug. I stood there taken back for a second, then hugging her back. Feeling a little bit better.

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