Sorry it took so long to update. I've been busy, but here you go. I'll try to get chapter 5 out sooner.

I got home late. I took my coat off, throwing it on the floor. Walked across the room to the edge of my bed. Then did a belly flop onto it. Not intending on moving any time soon.

Tomorrow was the day I was going to ask out Kyoya. And trust me, I'm terrified. I don't know how my father is so sure that Kyoya is gay. I mean it would be great if he was, but I just don't know. Most people would be exited for tomorrow, asking the love of their lives out. But I'm scared. If he's not gay then I will probably lose him forever. I could really use some advice right now, but I have no gay/ bisexual friends. In fact No one but my father knows that I'm not straight. I guess I could ask him, but it would be a bit embarrassing.....

"UHHHHH!!!!!" I groaned then got up. Why does this have to be so complicated?

I decided to not over think it and decided I better try and get some sleep tonight. So I went to my wardrobe. And wondered what pjs I should wear. I wonder which pair Kyoya would like? I really wish my mind would shut up.

I grabbed my panda pjs and quickly slipped into them. Then got under my covers, shut my eyes, and willed myself to fall asleep. Until I did.

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I woke up the next morning not feeling much better but I had to get up and out of bed anyways. Today was going to be life or death.

I stumbled across my room, heading towards the bathroom for a shower. No matter how bad I felt I still had to prepare for the party. It's not like I can let my problems worry the rest of the club or the clients.

After my shower I put on a fresh uniform for school and packed up the costumes for the party.

I then went up to my bedroom door, taking a deep  breath to concur the day, then opened it.  I walked out and ran down the stairs. I heard one of our servants calling at me, asking if I wanted breakfast before I left. "No thanks. I don't want to be late. " I yelled back, I was going to be really early but I didn't care. I just had to leave before I changed my mind and stayed home.

I got into my car and raced down the driveway, then the road.
I can't believe that I'm actually going to do this. What if he says no? What if I lose him forever? I got so lost in my thoughts that the I must have swerved to the wrong side of the road. And some guy was honking at me. You know how people say right before they die, their whole life flashes before their eyes? Well that's what happened to me.

I quickly snapped out of it and went back to the right side of the road, just in time, before I ran into the other guy.

Maybe I should have let the guy hit me. It would have been a lot easier. I sighed, I need to stop having such bad thoughts. I shook my head, and drove the rest of the way with full attention.

When I got to school, I parked then just sat there for a second, thinking about how the day will go. I was going to wait until the party tonight to ask him. It may not be the most romantic holiday, but I couldn't wait. I need to know how he feels. If I just use some of my natural charm it shouldn't be to bad. Right? God I don't know. I'm so confused. Why can't this be easier.

I got out of my car, grabbed my bag and headed off to class. Knowing nothing good would come out of sulking in my car. As I walked into the school, I saw Kyoya walking to his class. I smiled worriedly. This was going to be really hard.

I went to class took out my books and waited for the teacher. (The one that kicked me out before).

She walked in and told us to turn to page 210 In our text books. We read for a bit then did some questions. "TAMAKI! Can you tell me what ended in 1634?"
I looked around. By the way everyone was staring at me I realized that I should know this. "Ummmm....." Come on! Think! "1633?" I said, giving her a awkward smile. She glared at me. "I'm going...." I said, going to the tamaki corner. Poking the mushrooms.