I really don't know what to say. I wish I did. I wish I knew how to get you out of this. I never expected things to go this way. It hurts. It hurts so bad. I can't take it.

It's hurting me because I can't see you like this. I don't care if I get shot. I'd still smile for you with a bullet hole in my heart. Because all I want is for you to smile at the end of the day. This distance apart is killing me.

The pain is pulsing through me with every heartbeat. Every step I take to get closer kills a part of me inside. I've surrendered myself to you. For I have no one by me. No one... To hold. No one to keep happy. I want to cry. But I hold it inside so you don't think that I'm not strong enough to help you.

But I broke. The pressure inside me was too much. It started to crack until it finally burst. Why do you do this to yourself? I really can't see you like this. Why do you blame yourself for everything? Why... You're losing yourself. It pains every second your name crosses my head. And your name crosses my head every second.

But I stay. I stay because I promised. I'm staying because I don't want to leave. I can't leave you. All I ever wanted for you was better. Even if I wasn't the one... There's a hole in my heart. And my heart is skipping a beat every other second. My mind is twisted crushed crumpled and broken. My mind kills my heart. My heart cries through my eyes.

I don't want to leave you. I want the pain to end. I want your pain to end. I've become weak. Helpless. I can't carry myself anymore. I can't stay away from you. I want to talk to you every minute knowing that every second will hurt me. Every second... Will stab a dagger in my heart and drag it down painfully.

This pain wasn't there until I started to care about you. I don't want to stop caring about you. But I can't handle the pain either.
I don't want to look weak. But... I can't go on.
I'm torn.

Somebody please put our hearts back together... I don't care if you mix up the pieces..

Please.