So, shit happened this weekend...
I will explain, or at least try to.
So, this weekend, shit happened at my house, I'ma not gonna say what happened, that's private and I'm gonna respect my family's privacy, but I cried for the first time in a long time...
One year, to be exactly...
So, last time I cried, except yesterday, I confessed my love to someone...
It was the dumbest way to confess to anyone, and yes, it was through messages. (Even though I confessed my love to my last gf through messages but it was someone who putted us together so, thanks Sans :3)
Anyway, I confessed to them through messages and they said that they never felt anything but friendship for me...
I was heartbroken and that was the first time that I cried for an unrequited love...
It was middle summer so I think that was the first time that I felt the void, so to fill it, I went to play GTA5 (I know, best distraction ever).
Second time that I cried because of one unrequited love was last year, but geez, just for the record, I was super stupid last year so, please don't judge me for this...
I tried to give a birthday present to my crush but they didn't want it and then they went to home when I was still at school, so, I was so sad that they didn't accept my birthday present that I went to the bathrooms to cry and then I listened to "My Confession" over and over again...
The thing is, yes, I was crying but not as much as for the first real love I had (like, I cried and sobbed and I was just a mess because they didn't feel the same as me, and deep down, I still think that a little bit of my heart belongs to them, but whatever), also, the birthday one was just a crush so I just cried a little, cleaned my face and then I was ready to go :).
And, then with that, it passed one year (and half to be precise), without crying...
In some occasions I wanted to cry, to show sympathy or to show that I'm not okay but I couldn't, I don't know why (I mean, I have a two theory's: 1- I couldn't cry because I let out all of my tears; 2- Void was (and is) eating my emotions, so i stayed one year without crying, but hey, that's just a theory), but I couldn't cry...
In the time frame of this year my grandfather died, I went to his funeral, one of my best friends went to Lisbon and I broke up with my gf this Friday, and with all of this events, I still couldn't cry, I still didn't cry in any of these events...
Not that I want to cry every time that something bad happens but why did i cried yesterday?
I mean, it was the anniversary of the day that my grandfather passed way but, I don't know...
Maybe I was influenced by that?
But like, did I really needed to wait one year to cry for my grandfather?
Or maybe I was crying because of something else?
I don't know, and maybe I will never know...
And the strangest part was that it felt good...
It felt good letting it all out...
Like, when my love said that they didn't loved me back, I cried and it felt awful but yesterday, it felt really good!!
I even want to cry more, but, I don't know if I will cry any sooner...
So yup, nothing good happened this weekend, except the fact that I had new ideas for tracks that I'm composing but it was just that :D, better than nothing, am I right? :3
So, good night, good day, good evening and good bye my dudes :3

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