I was walking towards bus stop when a bike stopped a step away. "Come" That was a well known voice which made my heart skipped a beat.
"Zamil" involuntarily my tongue twisted to whisper that name and I turned backward to found him lifting the windshield of his helmet, proving me a little glance of his face.

"Um.. I..  I'll manage" I mumbled and took steps further but Zamil started his bike and held my wrist 

"Come" He ordered while lightly pulled me towards the back seat of bike, I was very tired of walking so placing my sling bag between both of us, I mounted next to him.

"Zamil" I collect all my courage to talk to him, but he silently glide his bike on the empty road without bothering to reply.

My refusal hurt him so much.

"Zamil I have to talk to you" I said after gathering all the courage I had, but Zamil didn't reply again. Suddenly a the bike passed over a speed breaker, giving a jolt which made me jump and soon my hands land on Zamil's shoulder to maintain my balance. He further increased the speed maybe to get tighter grip from me but I removed my hands.

Soon the bike was stopped at the front gate of college and I jumped off with a different feeling hidden in my heart.

"Well, for now we both are getting late for our lecture, but wait for me near library in lunch time, we'll talk then" Saying that Zamil parked his and soon he was disappeared from my gaze.

"Today I have to tell him everything" I decided in my heart and took step towards my classroom. I was eagerly waiting to tell everything to Zamil. Each and every minute was like a whole year for me but every wait is meant to be over.... As so in that case!

After few hours I reached to the place where Zamil told me and he was already waiting for me. "Why weren't you coming college?" I Asked to Zamil who smiled proudly.

"Maybe someone was missing me!" He said with his charming smile which I ignored and Zamil understand that I wasn't liking that playful answer.

"I had some work at home so  I was busy" He replied and I nodded while taking a deep breath but before I could say anything I was amazed to saw Richa and Vihaan coming there, like they both knew I would be there.

"Hmm.. So what's the matter?" Zamil asked to three of them while running his fingers through his hair to make them puffy, and my heart skipped a beat but he didn't get reply from any of us.

"Tell me" Zamil stressed in his words on which Vihaan and Richa shrugged while saying "Nothing"

"If there is nothing then why you both are not talking to Shama?" Zamil asked and Richa glare me.

"Zamil are you still asking the reason?" Richa asked with disappointment towards me.

Her disappointment was correct but I wasn't wrong on my place

"Richa Vihaan.... Its mine and Shama's matter! Why you both are behaving rude with her? Yaar we both can handle this on our own terms, you don't have defend me!" Zamil scolded both of them and I smiled lightly looking towards Richa.

"Guys I have to tell you something, I'm sorry Zamil I can't accept your proposal bec.." I was saying when suddenly Zamil gestured me to stay silent by putting his first finger on his lips, his action was so powerful that I couldn't help but obey.

"First of all sort out this matter after that we'll listen anything" Zamil ordered and after a short conversation the dispute between Richa and me was sort out and both the friends hug each other which brings smile on my lips.

"Keep smiling, you look beautiful while smiling" Zamil told me with a genuine smile on his lips while lightly hitting my nose with his index finger which killed my grin.

"Shama I really love you, honestly you'll be happy with me ever after" Holding my hands in his Zamil said with full of emotions in his voice but my eyes drop some tears at the same moment. I was feeling the pain of losing my dream but I was also helpless.

'Control Shama.. You're Mrs. Shama Abbas' my soul was screaming only that sentence every now and then.

"Zamil I have to tell you something, and after knowing that your love will flew away" freeing my hands from his grip I asserted, my eyes were still shedding tears which Zamil wiped with the back of his fingers, giving my heart a tinkling, I couldn't help but like his soft touch but control the shy smile which was begging to capture my lips.

"I'm ready to listen everything, and my love won't be less for you in any situation but...." Zamil stopped after that and I was confused about his 'BUT'

"But what?" I asked in hushed tone. Vihaan and Richa were witnessing the scene silently.

"But I'm dying of hunger, let's go out for lunch and after that I'll listen what you want to say." Zamil said and I nodded as I didn't had any other option beside that.

......................

"Shama... Order for yourself!" Zamil passed the menu card and I nodded half heartedly.

"Shama what do you want to tell us?" Richa asked and I open my mouth but suddenly every eye moved towards my mobile which was placed on the table top as that started ringing.

"Abbas!" Vihaan read the caller name flashing on the screen, I hurriedly  received the call after mumbling "Excuse me"

"Hello" saying meekly I made my way towards washroom

"Who is this Abbas?" Vihaan asked in whisper and Zamil shrugged!

"He always call her" Richa replied and Zamil narrowed his eyes like he was thinking something.

"I think he is her guardian... Because she told me once that Abbas is responsible for her studies" Zamil said and both the others nodded in agreement, I was listening their conversation as well as the whispering conversation of my friends too who were discussing about Abbas only.

"Theek hai aa jao"

(Okay, come)

Shama replied and hang up the call

"It's better that he come here by himself.... Now I'll introduce him with three of them" I said to myself and took a deep breath.

"is everything fine?" Zamil asked and Shama nodded with a difficult smile on her face.

"Oyeeee...ye to wahi cartoon hai na" Vihaan yelled in whisper when a man entered in the restaurant and looked here there for an empty table and my heart skipped a beat.

(Hey... See... Her is the same cartoon type man.. Isn't he?)

"Yeah he is same joker but why he here?" Richa asked in arrogant way while rolling her eyes but then got busy in making his fun.

That man was no one else but Abbas, He was feeling happy because Just a few minutes ago he call me to summon me in the same restaurant in which I was already ordering my meal with my friends. He wanted to gave me my belated birthday treat so calling me there. Abbas was watching the restaurant and smiling like fool. I was silently noticing his every act and his aura through the small mirror act hanging on the front wall but my back was facing towards him so he wasn't able to see me. He was wearing a white pajama with dark blue kurta, his condition was almost like last time but he was looking a bit better than before.

Only a little bit... Not much!

But Vihaan and Richa were making fun of his dressing sense as well as his appearance.

Holding my mobile tightly in my hand, I looked towards Zamil and gathered all the courage one more time.

"Zamil" I open my mouth.

"Yeah" He smiled

"Vihu he's watching the restaurant as if he come in paradise" Richa made fun of Abbas and I felt embarrassed, Zamil and Vihaan also giggled on her statement and nodded.

"I'm confused, how would he select the size of his pants, look at his drum like belly" Vihaan muttered and Richa somehow control herself to burst into a laughter.

When I noticed my friends and Abbas sitting at the same place, all my courage was converted into vain, I wasn't mature or strong enough to handle all those things...

"Shama you were saying something!" Zamil said and  I nodded slowly while watching Abbas through that small mirror art, he was completely unfit in that environment. Vihaan and Richa were still making fun of him and my eyes filled up with tears when I compared Abbas with Zamil.

Since two years I was living in hostel, studying in a girls school with teenager girls who are generally having dream to have a caring, loving and handsome guy as their life partner, somewhere that dream or wish affected me too.

I was only nineteen! A teenager who was watching new shades of life in teenage.

Teenage; in which heart runs faster than the brain....

Living in city affected me very much, in those two and a half years I had also made a dreamland for myself. Though I didn't think about anyone else than my husband but then he wasn't fitting on the place of my dream guy.

Looking towards Zamil I wiped the tear which stubbornly rolled down from my eye. "Shama what happened" Zamil asked while placing his hand on mine but I pulled that. I ran my gaze towards Abbas who was watching towards door every now and then, he was waiting for me without knowing that I was sitting few tables away! just in front of him! His big grin on his dark brown complexion was saying how happy he was.

"Excuse me" I mumbled and stood up taking my mobile in my hand, Zamil also stood up but I gestured him not to follow me and moved towards washroom.

"I don't have any choice.... He is my husband" I felt a sudden mild pain in my heart while confessing the reality to but I didn't had guts to say that in front of my friends who were still making fun of my husband. I dialled Abbas' number and he received the call in very first ring.

"kithe reh gayi tu?"

(Where you have been stucked?)

Abbas didn't bother to say hello but ask that question without wasting any time.

"Umm.. Main nahi aa sakti.. Class hai.. Aana mushkil hai"

(Umm... I can't come... I've to attend class so it's difficult to come)

I lied, I knew that I was making his heart break, he was there to give me my birthday treat but I was helpless!! His plan was ruined by me.

"10 minat de layi wi nhi aa sakdi? Ajj roti sath kha lawange..."

(Can't you come for even ten minutes? I was supposed to have our lunch together)

Abbas asked with a different level of emotions in his voice and I tightly pressed my lips to suppress my sob. I could feel he was hurt and upset too

"Nahi.. Nahi aa sakti"

(No.. I.. I can't come)

I replied meekly

"Chal koi nii... Ajj shaam wich tayyar rahiyo, main ten'nu len waaste awanga"

(Oh, it's okay.. But be ready in evening, I'll come to pick you)

Abbas said and my  brows become furrowed.

"Kaha jana hai?"

(Where we have to go?)

I asked suddenly

"Sur... Surprise hai"

(It's a Sur... Surprise)

Abbas said and I felt him smiling but he said 'surprise' with great difficulty as that was an English words and a tongue twister for him. After some five minutes I peep out from washroom and noticed him going away from restaurant then I came out while trying to show myself normal

"What happened Shama?" Zamil asked suddenly and I shook my  head in response but maybe my eyes were addressing the tears which I flow just a few minutes back.

"Shama.... You've missed a great scene" Richa said while laughing like mad and I felt embarrassed as I knew what was that scene.

"Yaar Richa he was here for Date..." Vihaan mocked and Richa nodded while wiping her tears which were present in her eyes became of over laughing.

"Yaar aise cartoon type character ko bhi girlfriend mil jati hain?"

(Dude, such cartoon type characters also get girlfriends? Wow!)

Vihaan laughed while giving high five to Richa and she shrugged while holding his hand with entangled fingers and they both were still laughing.

"Haven't you see his girlfriend refuses to come..." Richa mocked and vihaan took a deep breath to control his laughter.

"But actually I'm feeling bad for him... He wanted to have lunch with his so called girlfriend" Vihaan said in his playful way. "He should think by himself that he isn't capable to be in the race of having girlfriend" Richa giggled but rolled her eyes to make fun of Abbas, but I was done by then. I picked my bag and stood up with a jolt.

"I'm going" I said and Zamil looked confused

"What? But why?" He asked suddenly

"And you had to tell us something... What about that?" Richa asked but Vihaan held her hand.

"Richa I think we should leave them alone for some time... You can understand what I'm saying!" Vihaan said and Richa nodded with a mischievous smile on her face.

"All the very best, don't be shy today" Richa whispered in my ear before going out from the restaurant, but I was standing like a statue, without any emotions and without any reason for my that situation.

"Shama" Zamil snapped in front of my eyes and I blinked suddenly.  "Hmm.."

"You have to tell me something" Zamil asserted and I nodded with great difficulty.

"Zamil I.. I can't accept your proposal... That's it... I don't want to give any clarification." I said with great difficulty, trying to avoid eye contact with Zamil and tears rolled down from my eyes.

"But Shama.... Try to understand... I really love you" Zamil catched my wrist but I jerk his hand abruptly.

"Stay away" I demanded but he held my hand again "Shama try to understand we b...." I didn't let him complete

"You try to understand Zamil.." I shouted without noticing that people sitting here and there were watching us "Its.. Its impossible for me" This time only a whisper left from my mouth

"Shama... I can see love for me in your eyes... What's your problem at least tell me... I promise I'll make everything fine" Zamil Said while cupping my face but I jerked his hands away.

"You're my problem Zamil... Why you come in my life... I.. I don't have any place for you. Please stay away from me." I cried out and Zamil was shocked to listen what I said just a moment ago, he try to open his mouth to say something but I didn't give him any chance and turn to go away from there. Before leaving restaurant I glanced at him, he was standing with a shock expression on his face. I stepped out from the restaurant while trying to gather the pieces of my broken heart and shattered personality.

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Hiiiii...

As after reading you all must be understood that this is unedited (as same as all my other books 😅😅😅) so plz tolerate it

_Naaz Jamal