That's been two month when I took admission in BA. LLB, it's like a dream coming true for me. Sitting in my room I was making notes, but my eye lids started getting heavy. As the clock hands were showing 10:30 and I use to sleep early at night. I had adopted city lifestyle but still a villager side was present in me, I wasn't like my friends who use to party for whole night and sleep for half day.

That night also wasn't different for me, placing my book on correct place I lay down on my bed after adjusting my head on not so soft pillow. A smile made its way to my lips after remembering how I enjoyed whole day. We four went to have lunch, in the all those memories of my friends I didn't realise when I entered in the land of nod.
But my slumber was short-lived because after some time I felt disturbance in my room, though my slumber wasn't allowing me to open my eyes but the commotion pushed to open my eyes and....

"Happy birthday to you"
"Happy birthday to you"
"Happy birthday dear Shama"
"Happy birthday to you"

I was really amazed to witness Richa, Vihaan and Zamil in my room and a big grin captured my lips.

"Thank you so much" I tried to say loudly but only small whisper came out from my mouth and Richa placed a small pine apple cake in front of me.

"Come on birthday budiya cut the cake" Vihaan hooted and I  was gawking at him but Richa giggled as so Zamil.

{Budiya = old lady}

"You remembered my birthday!" I exclaimed and Richa nodded with a proud smile on her face, I was truly on ninth cloud that Richa keep remember my birthday.

"Oh hello... You didn't even remember the month, birthday is a far away thing" Vihaan lightly glare Richa and she eyed him back.

And then I got to know from Vihaan that Actually Richa didn't remember my birthday but Zamil noticed my date of birth when I was submitting my documents at the time of admission.

"It's not a small deed that you are remembering my birthday and celebrating it" I thanked both the boys and hugged Richa.

Three of us were busy in chirping and chatting but Zamil was quietly standing in the corner of room.

"May I get the attention of pretty birthday girl?" Zamilsl's  loudly asked question grabbed the attention of we three, we watched him with confusion in our eyes. Taking few steps closer Zamil kneeled down in front of me. For a moment I was shocked, my smile was already gone and heart started pondering.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" Lifting a beautiful red rose towards me Zamil asked with hopeful eyes and I forgot to breath for a moment. My heart skipped a beat or maybe two. I was dying from inside to accept that rose but only I knew how I stopped to obey the demand of my heart.

"Shama what are you waiting for?" Richa whispered after elbowing me but I was shocked to understand anything.

"I.. Sorry.. I can't"  I took a step backward, my lips were trembling as I was going to cry at any moment, but Zamil stood up and smiled while holding my both hands.

"For now I'm asking to become my girlfriend but after completing my studies I'll propose you to marry me" Zamil gave his clarification, maybe he was thinking that I was taking him wrong.

"I.. I Can't Zamil, I'm sorry but I can't accept your proposal." I mumbled and pulled my hands from his grip giving a big shock to Zamil as well as other two.

They three were amazed.. Zamil could be a dream guy for any girl, even mine too, but not every dream comes true. His handsome face, charming smile, wheatish complexion with perfectly grown stubble and moreover he was only son of a wealthy business man

What else a girl could dream for?

"Shama why are you over reacting?" Richa scolded me but Zamil stopped her.

"It's okay Richa.. Don't say anything to her" Zamil said and went back, Vihaan also went after him, but I saw a different hurt feeling in his eyes. I was feeling pain with his every step going away from me.

"Shama tumhari pareshani kya hai? Had hoti hai har cheez ki... Tumhe kis baat ka ghamad hai? Zamil jeesa ladka tumhe propose kar raha hai aur kya chahiye? You can't get better than Zamil"

(Shama what's wrong with you? Dude There's a limit of everything… What's special in you that so are you proud of? Zamil is proposing you what else you want? You can't get better than Zamil)

Richa scolded me but I was weeping sitting on my bed, but that was enough...

"Richaaa just stop it.. I know... I can't get better than him!" I yelled on her and covered my face with both hands, I was feeling broken but I can't do anything.

"If you know then why you can't just accept his damn proposal?'' Asked the angry Richa and I smiled bitterly while wiping my tears.

"Life of each one is not so easy that they get everything what they want! Some people live a punishment on the name of life. Don't judge me without knowing everything" I shouted on Richa and she went to her room after smacking the door very loudly while mumbling "Half crazy, mad, idiot"

I spent whole night while preparing myself to tell everything to my friends. "No matter how is Abbas... But he is my husband" I muttered and my heart skipped a beat while imagining him introducing to my friends.

Next morning I gathered all my courage and took a deep breath while stepping out from my room "Richa I have to tell you something" I said but Richa glare me before stepping towards the main door.

"Richa" I call her but She was already stepped out from the home, grabbing my bag and mobile I took long steps after Richa, but she already went downstairs and I took some time in locking the door.

When I went downstairs, found Vihaan mounted on his bike and Richa was making herself sat next to him, before I could say anything they both were already gone. I was feeling the urge to cry but somehow I controlled my eyes to become the mirror of my heart's state. Looking here there I didn't found any auto rickshaw or taxi so I started walking towards bus stop but that wasn't easy, because my new punjabi jutti was already biting my soft skin giving blister to her ankle. That distance was very long and it seems more difficult for me, otherwise also I wasn't use to of walking for long distance because . Usually Vihaan come to pick Richa and Zamil gives pick and drop service to me but that day I was counting each and every step towards bus stop.

{Punjabi jutti is a type of close shoes}

Anyhow after a very painful journey I reacher college that too late. I tried to talk to Richa but she didn't respond as so Vihaan and Zamil was no where.

Sitting in college garden I hissed in pain while examining my feet and removed my Jutti to found a small bleb in both ankles.

"What a birthday wishes I'm getting" I muttered bitterly and looked here there to found Richa or Zamil but no one was there.  I bunked next lecture as I knew I hadn't been in the state of study anything. Meanwhile my mobile started ringing and I received the call with "Hello"

"Ki hoya?"

(what happened?)

As soon as my voice fall in his ear He asked suddenly.

"Kuch nhi"

(Nothing)

I mumbled controlling my tears.

"Ajj to teri saalgira hai na.."

(Today is your birthday!)

I was shocked that he remembered the same.

"Tere waaste ek tohfa liya hai, kuch dina wich awanga"

(I have a gift for you, I'll come after few days)

My heart skipped a beat after listening the same. I didn't wanted Abbas to come to meet me, but he was sounding so happy that I couldn't refuse. I was unable to do anything except agreeing. After a short conversation I hanged up the call.

I know if I put my situation in front of anyone then they will give negative judgement about me, but what about me? I was still a nineteen years old girl.... A teenager heart!
I was stucked in between my callow and blind heart was going towards Zamil on the other side my Ethical and righteous soul was stopping me and making me remember about my husband. I was fighting with my own self, which wasn't easy!

I wanted to get rid of that problem and there was only a solution...

Telling everything to Zamil and Richa. I was trying my best to talk to both of them but unfortunately circumstances were going against me.

For next two days Zamil didn't attend college nor he attended my call and Richa was not listening anything.

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_Naaz Jamal