The crying sound of her is piercing his heart as he sees sideways where his wife is laying under the blanket , the guilt resumed in him how could he face her now , his anger always brings out worst in him and that's what happen today he didn't wanted his reunion with his beloved like this . He wanted her to feel the love in his every actions where she will bloom and her eyes will shyly shut down due to his mischief he wanted her to look happy and cuddle with him after that but this what he not supposed will happen like this .

The more time passed the more she gets panic the more his guilt increased. Wiping a lone tear which escape through his eye he get up and wore his clothes which are laying on the floor he knows she may have some pain but will not going to accept it.

Gulping her tears down she sees him as she feels more vulnerable now why she didnt stop herself she don't want this now she knows that she like him and even started to fall for him but all her questions and what if are making crazy he might be also regretting her like this and that's what broke her most she wants to surrender herself when she will be in love with the person and they both will form their small world around them Where she will be playful and mischievous like with her parents and he will have to bear with it there are many dreams in her eyes but all got broken due to her impulsiveness and when her eyes gets locked with his more tears escaped and she felt embarrassed how she herself wants more.

" meerab get up I am preparing a bath , you will feel good .." He gently nudged her while placing her clothes beside her and left for the bathroom
Filling it with warm water he puts some essential lavender oil for her better and off the tap in meantime she puts the dress back on herself the broken self of her is disturbing him so much that he didn't dare to look up into her eyes which will see him as a guilty one and he don't want that look in his wife eyes .
The rage for himself builds in himself which he wants to relieve but first his utmost importance is his wife who is just sitting on the bed he silently took hold of her hand and started to move towards bathroom. She tries to protest meekly

" murtasim I don't need it ., leave me .." but he didnt stop she stops herself as she don't want to go anywhere and just wants to drawn herself in agony like this alone but he didn't leave her and halted in his actions without looking up he puts his hands under her legs and took her in his arms. She wanted to protest but puts her head on his shoulder leaning towards him she closed her eyes,  his presence is only making her feel good in all the chaos she is tired not only physically but even exhausted mentally the disappointment in herself the broken dreams., and the weight of unwanted responsibilities tired her .

Opening the door through his legs he puts her down on the floor , he knows she is not in the state to do anything for herself but he cannot leave her alone like this too feeling one more guilt he silently whispered " meerab may I..." He asked softly to change her clothes and puts her in bathtub and  looks in her eyes for discomfort ,feeling guilty again how he didn't ask this before and let himself drawn in his own desires he loathes himself most at this point as her eyes looked up to him she didn't look  back as her eye he turns her towards the bathtub gently and pulled her kurta up as she shivered with the proximity his heart thumped against his chest where her hands covered herself from the front feeling the cold air around herself , tears escapes again from his eyes as he asked
" you take this , mai tumhare kapde Lata hoon .." He said In his hoarse voice and turns to leave while she drawn herself in the water which soothes her body but the pain in her soul and In her heart didn't leave her.

Bringing her clothes he puts them on the cabinet outside and knocks down to change herself into fresh pair of clothes . In meantime he changed the bedsheet and when he goes to put it in the bin where she stands after changing herself,  her eyes shows pain when she sees the bedsheets in his hands reminding them again of that  he gulped back his tears as she opens the door and her hairs drips down the water on the floor she goes outside and stood there feeling numb now what she will do is there any place where she can scream badly and let all be this a nightmare her heart bleeds.

When she listens the sound of his shoes on the floor she didn't turn back and made her sit on the small stool which lay in front of the vanity table he started to wipes her hairs and more tears leaked from her eyes having enough of all this she finally Bursts up

" leave it murtasim. , don't when you regret this please band Karo please she stood up and hold his collar .., you regret this you regret me I know..."

He puts his finger on her lips he knows her emotional turmoil but what he didn't know that she thinks that he regrets this he regrets how they did this but he didnt regret this no in even his passionate moments he never hates, and regretting her never ., he will never regret her in his whole life even when she will shoot him he will not regret loving her

" shhh., main jaanta hoon tum ye nhi chahti infact tum iss rishte nhi chahti thi but never say that I regret you never .., main tumhe kabhi regret nhi kar sakta kabhi nahi .." He firmly told her but she shook her head and cried her out making him feel vulnerable again
" no you just lie , Tum haya ko chahte ko I know you also wants to leave me main to jana chahti thi lekin tumne ...why abb chodna chahte ho it's just I hate everything I hate myself murtasim I just hate it...".
He kissed her hairs andpulled her in his arms even when she protested by hitting him on his chest he didn't budge but pulled her more and kissed her hairs
" shh you are too overwhelmed by this stop hurting yourself,  khudko aziyat dena band Karo main sach keh raha khuda ke waste mera yakeen Karo Maine haya ko nhi bulaya tha mujhe sachmain vo chit padhke laga you want to mend everything between us isliye main Aya please believe me mera haya ke saath koi rishta nhi hai sach mai...," He holds her face gently and looked in her mirror eyes who held just broken look the meerab he knew will never looked this broken if anything happens to her but today she just feels vulnerable even after moment of his life with his wife he had nothing

Their anger and impulsiveness didn't make them glow in the effect of their love but made them more miserable and vulnerable

" murtasim you know I hate it to say please don't leave me ., main nhi seh paungi ye Maine rohail aur saba ko bhi yahi kaha tha ki I started to like you meri jindagi ka eham hissa ban gaye hoon tum ..I am too broken to now love anyone but please don't leave me after this..." she could not complete her words as she sniffed in his chest and he gets too overwhelmed by her confession for her she let's her insecurity out but for him nothing can be beautiful his wife reciprocated his actions his love this is nothing but a big achievement heck only she liked me but she is ready enough to believe him even after what happens between the heat of moment he felt out of the world and cried in happiness

" fikar mat Karo tumhari hisse ki bhi mohabbat main kar lunga aur wada karta hoon maut se pehle ye murtasim khan tumhara saath nhi chodega...' she closed her eyes and they remains in each other embraced feeling warmth of their bodies to each other and they knew they will passed this too

He broke the hug and kissed her forehead again holding her hand he asked her to lay down till he comes back her heart thundered no he cannot leave her like this he promised her to be there for her always no her eyes started to show her panic as he feels her state he caress her hairs as he puts her head on pillow

" I am coming back,  change karke aata hoon just few minutes kahi ni ja raha hoon main..." He shushed her softly and she nods her head slowly .

Freshing himself fastly he moved towards the bed where his wife is staring the ceiling with blank expression but she had some peace now as compared to before , she turned towards his side as he sunk down on the bed pulling her body softly in his body he puts her head on his chest and started to caress her hairs he knew many things happened against their wishes but the conclusion of out of it is good atleast she opens herself a little in front of him and he is at some ease sensing her comfortness in his embrace she feels safe in his arms

He vowed before too that he will be her protector but after she showed his trust in him he firmly vowed on his love for her that If he had to save her from himself he will do everything in his hands but will never let anyone hurt his girl who is just soft as a baby inside her heart.

Here haya is pacing outside the room to listen voices or let alone broking something so she can feel relief that her plans didn't not fail and today they will end this relationship meerab is not going to be easy on murtasim and he is too angry to understand and he will give her talaaq yes today all her planning will be achieved her something she always prayed murtasim the title of his begum the powers of it the keys of this house all will be with her she will own this room murtasim will listen to her she smirked on her thoughts but not listening anything from inside she frowned maybe he had given her talaaq and she is crying and begging him to not leave her ohh poor girl she don't understand murtasim he will never going to anyone above his pride she left the room planning for future.

While going to her room she stumbled with maa begum and she feared
" tum.., Tum itni raat gaye murtasim ke kamre ke baharkya kar rahi hoon aur abb batao bhi kaha hai murtasim aur meerab behan ki rukshati se jyaada kya kaam aagaya tha usse jo ruk naa saka ..."

" vo maa begum kuch malko ka hi masla ho gaya tha jaldbaazi main vo meerab ke saath chala gaya bass main unhe beech main milgayi isliye bata diya ., aur vo bahar kaafi log the na to mujhe laga koi murtasam ke kamre main naa agaya ho aap to jaanti haina usse bilkul nhi pasand ki koi uski cheezo ko haath bhi lagaye .."

Maa begum rolled her eyes and said " acha chalo jao jaake aaram karo kal subah naurez ke ghar nasshta bhi leke jana hai aur main haveli pe phone lagati hoon dekhoon to kab tak aayenge dono kam se kam kal behan ke ghar nashts ke liye to jayega na ."

" nhi maa begum..vo abhi thak gaye honge kya Pata kya ho raha hai aur Maine poocha tha murtasim se usne kaha tha subah tak aajayega aur aapse maafi maangi hai ki aapko bata na sako kuch aur aapko sab akele karna pada .."

Maa begum nodded her head and she believed a sigh of relief and then all retired for the night.