"Daaaad!!!"

Caleb, while crying run to the right side of my bed. He clutched the bedsheets on the bed as his tears kept on falling down.

"What happened to you dad?! Wake up! Wake up! You can't just leave me! You need to wake up!" Caleb wailed loudly which made Diam pull him into a tight hug.

He rubbed my son's back as he tried to calm him down but Caleb didn't stop crying as he called out for my name. His voice was hoarse and pained that it left a prick of pain in my chest.

His small hands that I held the day when he was born was reaching out to held my own pair, afraid that I would be gone if he wouldn't manage to hold them.

"Uncle, my dad... m-my dad? What happened to him?!"

"Sshh Caleb, your dad will be fine. He's a strong person, he won't leave you. He's just having a good sleep to recover himself." Diam stated as tears started to form in his eyes.

As I listened to the both of them, I could feel my heart breaking. I am here in this very room but I couldn't even do something to stop my own son from crying. All I could do is watch him as Caleb desperately called out to me. How much I wanted to pull my son to my embrace and whisper that I am very much alive and healthy. I wanted to reassure him that I am fine but I couldn't, all I could do was to watch in agony and pain.

After a few minutes, Caleb finally calmed down as he slept soundly on the couch. His body couldn't handle from all those crying and quickly drifted to sleep the exhaustion and the pain away. Diam stood by my side as Alexander, who was left frozen on the side, finally had the urge to talk.

"Who are you?" He asked. His eyes were full of confusion.

Diam heaved a tired sigh before finally acknowledging Alexander's presence. With cold eyes, Diam turned to look at Alexander. I turned to swallow my own saliva in worry and nervousness. This was too soon to be happening but Alexander had seen his son and my twin brother. I know for sure that shit's about to go down.

"I asked you, who're you?" Alexander asked once again since Diam didn't manage to answer his question before.

With a smug look, Diam gave out a cold stare. "Isn't it obvious Alexander? Me and Lay are twins."

Confusion etched in Alexander's face. "Lay never had any siblings."

"Then what do you call me? A goat?" Diam sarcastically retorted back.

I knew how Diam hated Alexander from every fiber of his being from what he did to me but for the sake of Caleb, he's willing to give Alexander a new chance in me again but it is for me to decide if I would let him or not.

But now seeing my state, I knew how Diam could be when he's angry. He wouldn't stop talking and let every pain and suffering our family had tasted be revealed right here, right now to serve as a great slap into Alexander's gut.

"Me and Lay were separated when we were born. Our mother -Kayne- only loved your father's bestfriend and not your own father. Your father was a greedy man and wanted our mother all to himself that mom and Lay didn't managed to escape the mansion that night. After finding out that our mother wanted to escape, he took him somewhere and then murdered him." Diam spat, venom was evident on his voice.

"Your fucking mother even joined the party and destroyed the brakes of the car they were using. What kind of family are you all?! A family of killers and liers?"

I felt my hands shake as my heart kept on beating loudly from within my chest. Is what I'm hearing all true?

With a confused look Alexander asked. "Murdered? My father died in a crash together with Kayne! My father isn't a murderer!" Alexander denied.

The once silent room was filled with Diam's laughter.

"Alexander, don't play dumb with me like I'm an idiot! Your father killed our mother before your father finally stab himself to death. Then your mother decided to ruin the brakes of the car causing the vehicle they were riding to crash. He was so obsessed with our mom that he was willing to do that gruesome intent! And don't tell me you didn't knew, you liar." Diam shouted while pointing at him with his index finger.

When I heard those words came out from Diam's very own mouth, It was like a bucket of cold water was poured down to me. A bomb more powerful than any bomb exploded deep within me.

"When you knew what happened, you ordered people to keep this thing a secret and told everyone in your family that they died during the crash but that was a lie! A big fat lie!?"

"Your mother even boasted to Lay that she killed them on her own but the truth was your father killed our mother then the crash happened. Fuck!" Diam breath out exasperatedly.

Alexander looked so lost and empty and just like his eyes, my heart felt the most empty and lost from all the revelations. His eyes were spilling tears that seemed to be on a race as he looked at my brother.

"I- I'm sorry... I- I didn't knew it would lead to this. I was just afraid to tell Lay what really happened. I- I was scared, I was still young at that time..." Alexander couldn't find his proper choice of words and ended up stuttering which made my brother fume in anger.

"What kind of young kid would do such a thing, a thing to lie about a serious accident? Oh! Yes you! You were also a young kid but yet, you dare tell a lie about someone's death! Fuck you Alexander." Diam spat.

"Listen to me. I was scared okay?!"

"What are you even scared of Alexander?! Tell me! Tell me why you were so scared to tell the truth! You made our mom be the laughing stock of your family, they saw him as a servant who seduces, giving pleasure to his master in the bed. You hurt our mo-"

Diam didn't managed to finished his sentence when Alexander suddenly yelled, startling me and Diam. Caleb started to squirm on his position but still went back to sleep.

"I was scared of losing him! I was scared of losing Lay! I was so scared that once he knew the truth about Kayne's death, he would leave me behind. I was scared." Alexander broke down and collapased on the floor still crying.

I've seen Alexander cry in front of me but never in my life that he would break down like this. Seeing him like this made an intense pain to erupt in my chest. Why did it turn out like this?

"Your mistake has cost so much in our family Alexander but despite all of that I wanted to give you a chance to be with my brother. I am willing to take those lies you've made to my grave just to see my brother happy, but seeing him in a state like this, I couldn't keep calm anymore."

"Alexander, You're becoming more like your father. I'm afraid that if I let you take a chance on Lay, you will also do the same to him." Diam stated in a small voice.

The once room that was filled of anger finally went silent. Diam stood beside the couch and pulled Caleb's sleeping form into his arms and carried him to exit the room but he stops when a sad voice erupted in the room. Diam turned around to look at Alexander who was now sitting on the floor like a lost child.

"To make up from the grave mistake I did, I promised to myself to take care of Lay. To make him happy all the time and to make him feel loved like he never felt even from Kayne. I wanted to see him smile always, to enjoy how innocent and loving he is. His face, his everything is where my world revolves but I don't know why I kept on hurting him?"

"Is it karma for all the lies and mistakes I've done? Or is it just our fate that's been playing at us? I don't care anymore. I just want Lay to see me as the man he fell in love with. The very man who took him to the altar and gave a promise of eternity. The very man who became his husband. Is it so hard to ask for it?" Alexander asked before stiffling a laugh.

"Yes it is hard. And because I am a sinner, I commit sins just to protect my love. I lied to him in order to make him stay by my side. I know my love have become obsessed and greedy..." Alexander lifted his head to look at Diam's own pair. Tears were cascading one after another as he kept his intense stare. Like he was opening a window through his eyes to make Diam see the sincerity of his words.

"But I am willing to do anything to keep Lay by my side forever." He croaked out.

I knew Alexander was never perfect in any way. Even our love wasn't perfect if you look at any angle and in any perspective. There are bound to be a good ending and a disastrous one. Even though he knew he wasn't perfect, he knows how to be perfect in every way possible just to make me smile. His love was just enough for me, enough to make everything blurry and focus only him.

His love was enough in our own imperfect perfect fairytale.

There was no prince. There was no princess. We were a creation bound by one soul and heart that was brought to many trials to prove its strength and compatability. Despite the cracks and deformation of our love, we need to hold on and fight for it because we see righteousness when we love. We see truth that sets us free. We see hope and peace through it.

But the question is, how strong will we last? Do we still have the strength to keep our love intact or to finally give up? The choice is in me. The choice to fight or the choice to walk away further?

Which is it?