I continued ignoring Jinyoung for the rest of the dinner, and he continued trying to get my attention, FOR THE WHOLE HOUR.

"Jihyun~~" He whined.

"I'm sorryyyy!"

"Can you stop being mad at me nowwww--"

"Jihyunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn~"

"Don't be maddddd--"

"Jihyun he really wants you to pay attention to him." Byeongkwan said.

"Jihyunnnnieeeee~~"

"Jihyunnnn--"

"Butterflyyyyyy~~"

"Aish I can't take it anymore." I said, turning to him. "I'm not mad, so shut your mouth."

"Yes!!" Jinyoung did a victory dance before eating again.

"They should really date, don't you think?" Hangyeom whispered to Ryujin in front of him.

Jinyoung and I looked up at the same time.

I held an X up with my arms. "No. Plus, we're competitors."

"So? It shouldn't get in the way of us--" Jinyoung started before I put my hand on his mouth. He licked the palm of my hand.

"Every time you try to shut me up that way I'll just do that." Jinyoung said, smiling widely.

"Jinyoungggg stopppp!" I groaned and wiped my hand on my napkin.

"Sorryyyy."

_

"I'm so full." I said on our way out.

Jinyoung put his arm around my shoulder. "You ate a lot."

I eyed his arm but played it off. "Are you calling me fat?"

"No, you need it anyways, you're skinny."

"What if the tomorrow I show up rolling to the practice?? Oh no--" I started doing push-ups on the sidewalk.

"Jihyun, just because you nearly ate the  whole plate of meat doesn't mean you'll gain 100 pounds a night!" Jinyoung burst out laughing at me exercising on the street.

I stopped and stretched. "I think I might throw up now."

"Not on me you aren't!!"

_

On the ride back to the dorms I sat next to Jinyoung, since Ryujin ditched me for Hangyeom (I didn't know they became friends but I guess Hangyeom found Ryujin's face-stuffing charming).

I yawned and fought to keep my eyes open. I wonder why I'm so tired. Oh right, I jumped around yelling nonstop at the Bigbang concert, then ate nonstop at the restaurant.

I tried to stay awake, but I soon fell asleep.
_

Someone tapped my shoulder, then poked my cheek a couple of times.

"Aghh I'm tired..." I whined groggily. I forced my eyes open and saw Jinyoung's face close to mine. It kind of shook me so I bolted straight up, my head bonking into his. "Ow!!"

Jinyoung rubbed his head and looked at me. "We're here."

"I had such a good sleep." I said, stretching. "I haven't slept for longer than 30 minutes in days~"

"Was my shoulder comfortable?" He asked, stretching it with a painful expression.

"Yeah, it was like a pillow." I said. "...wait...." I then imagined how it looked with me leaning on his shoulder the whole trip, and his stupid smirking face. "I hate you."

He started laughing and raised both his hands in defense. "You're the one who did it."

"You should've let me suffer." I said.

"How could I ever do that to you~" Jinyoung reached up and pushed my cheeks together.

"Jinyoungggg stoppppp!" I whined and got off the bus.

"Bye bye!" Jinyoung said when we stopped at the front of the girls dorm.

"Bye--" I started but Jinyoung interrupted me by wrapping his arms around me tight, enveloping me in a warm hug. My heart starting racing like I ran a marathon, like always when he does these little tricks.

He let out a fake sob. "I'm going to miss you."

"It's not like we're not gonna see each other tomorrow, dumbo." I said, trying to hide my smile. "Okay, you can let go now."

"No."

"Yes."

"Fine." Jinyoung let go and patted my head. "Bye byeeeee~"

I walked to the entrance of the girls dorm building and waved. He waited until I entered, and then walked off to the boys dorm building.

I grabbed my heart immediately when the door closed. "I'm gonna pass out or have a heart attack one day--stop it stop it Jihyun." I smacked myself repeatedly on the face.

"Don't think I didn't see thatttt." Ryujin smirked.

I jumped. "When did you get here?"

"Like right after you."

"Don't think I didn't notice you left me for Hangyeom........." I whispered and she hit my arm.

_

When I got home, and laid in bed and stared at the ceiling. Why haven't they called me??

"It's been one week and two days." I muttered. "She must be taking longer then they thought."

I reached for my phone and decided to contact the doctors that were taking care of my mother.

"Hello, how may I help you?" A voice was heard on the the other end.

"This is Hwang Jihyun. I'm Min Chansu's daughter."

"...oh." He said. "It's taking longer than we thought, we are trying to do all we can. Have hope, we will call you when we are sure of the outcome."

"...okay." I said. "Please be honest, will she make it? Please be honest."

"W-we don't know, as of now."

"Okay. Thank you." I said, hanging up immediately. I carelessly threw my phone on my nightstand with a loud clank.

Now that I had nothing to do, the negative thoughts filled my mind again. I was hanging onto a small thread of hope, but the weight hanging from that small thread is too much, once the thread is snapped, everything will crash down hard.

Mixnine was becoming a stress again. It wasn't as fun as the beginning, and now I was petrified of losing my top spot and disappointing my mother. I wanted to be the best, that was the least I could do for her.

"I have to debut." I said to myself.