dedicated to @byeongbaby , thank you for requesting! 🌼

I yawned at the painfully annoying sunlight shining on my face.

How dare it wake me up?! I whined to myself and sat up, making my way to my window with my eyes half-closed, half-open.

"God dammit you wind--" I stopped, looking outside the window.

My heart dropped to my stomach, seeing the person outside.

My heart raced a million times faster.

It felt like it was going to have a heart attack any moment.

It can't be him. It can't be him.

I froze for a minute, but then I got a hold of my senses, bolting downstairs as fast as I can. Thoughts were running around in my head as fast as I was.

Is it him?

It can't be.

Am I just hoping?

I swung open my front door, my eyes darting from house to house to corner to corner around my street.

My heart dropped even more. The street was empty, not a single person in sight.

I furrowed my eyebrows and felt my eyes water.

Why am I still waiting for you, Kim Byeongkwan?

YEARS AGO

"Hey." Kim Byeongkwan looked at me, and I stared in front of me, deep in thought.

We were in the park hanging out in our usual spot, but today felt different.

"Heeeeyyyyyy." He called again, poking my cheek. "I'm over here."

I snapped out of my trance, turning my head to look at him. "Hi Byeonk."

"Byeonk?!" His jaw dropped. "My name is Kim Byeongkwan. B Y E O N G K W A N."

I chuckled. "But that nickname is cute."

Byeongkwan stopped, and then shrugged. "I'm cuter."

"You are cuter." I said.

Byeongkwan laughed and pressed his cheeks together. "You know what's cuter than me though?"

"What?" I asked.

"You." He grinned and patted my head. "You are the cutest."

I blushed, looking at the ground.

"Are you all shyyyy now?" Byeongkwan teased and poked my cheek a couple for times.

I groaned and nodded. "Thanks."

Byeongkwan stared at me for a couple of seconds, and I tried my best to look somewhere else and avoid his gaze.

"I have something to tell you." Byeongkwan started.

I looked at his serious expression. "Yeah?"

"I like you."

My heart sped up a thousand times faster.

Those are the words I've been dreaming of forever.

Kim Byeongkwan likes me?

He likes me.

HE LIKES ME--

A massive grin made its way to my face. I was madly blushing, but that wasn't a surprise.

Byeongkwan, looked nervous and fiddled with his fingers. "It's fine if you don't like me back, I just--"

"Byeongkwan, what makes you think I don't like you back?" I asked and chuckled. "I like you. I like you so much."

Byeongkwan's face lit up. "Y-you do?"

I nodded.

"We like each other, then?"

I nodded again.

Byeongkwan jumped from his seat and grabbed my shoulders. "I thought you didn't like me."

"How?" I asked and snickered.

"Because you always avoid me when I touch you."

"Because I'm shy, and you make my heart go haywire, that's why Byeonk." I said.

Byeongkwan paused, his smile getting even wider. He leaned in, giving me a kiss on the cheek.

My entire face exploded in even more redness (didn't know it was possible).

"We like each other, so let's get even closer." Byeongkwan said. "And then, I'll become your boyfriend, and say I love you."

My heart skipped a beat at his words.

Boyfriend? I thought. I love you?

"O-okay." I replied and looked away.

"Haha, you're so cute!" Byeongkwan ruffled my hair. "Let's be inseparable forever."

I nodded. "I won't leave you."

"I won't either."

PRESENT

I sighed, making my way to the kitchen the taking out a can of soda, plopping myself on the couch.

Why have you never left my mind all those years? I thought to myself.

We weren't forever. He did leave me.

Kim Byeongkwan, after we confessed to each other, disappeared a few days later.

He moved away. He left me, alone.

I never knew why, or why he never told me before he left, and that was what hurt me most.

I was that little important that he wouldn't even tell me that he would leave.

It hurt me a lot. After I thought that I would be with him forever. That it wouldn't go wrong at all.

I did love him, and for a long time too.

I felt miserable, being alone, with no family, no friends. The moment I became an adult I lost all of that.

Life is cruel.

DING DONG!

The doorbell interrupted my thoughts, and I stood up. It's probably the mailman again.

I opened the door, with the most blank expression ever, until my eyes traveled to the person's face.

Am I dreaming?

My eyes widened, and I felt the feeling from before, but ten times more intense.

It's him.

It's really you.

"B-B-Byeongkwa-n...?" I managed to choke out.

There he was, he was real.

It wasn't in my head.

Kim Byeongkwan, the boy I waited for for years, he was standing right before my eyes.

Byeongkwan just let a wide smile make it's way to his face. He held his arms out, welcoming me in for a hug.

I stepped closer and he put both of his arms around me. I remembered the warmth of it like it was yesterday.

Before I knew it, my eyes were watering, with tears spilling out.

"I came back." Byeongkwan muttered. "I'm back."

"B-B-Byeonk..." I sniffled and hiccuped. "You're ba-back..."

"Are you crying?!" He asked, grabbing my face and wiping my tears away with his thumb.

I pouted and nodded. "I thought I'd never see you again...."

Byeongkwan stuck out his bottom lip. "Here I am. I'm sorry, for leaving you."

"Why..."

"My mom died." He said. "But I'm back. I'm back."

"I-I'm sorry. For thinking bad of you." I said.

Byeongkwan chuckled. "You don't have to be sorry. Now stop crying!"

"I c-c-an't!!!" I wailed. "I missed you so much..."

"Well I'm here now." He smiled.

"I'm not dreaming, right?"

"You're not." Byeongkwan said. "And I hope you know, even after all these years..."

My eyes widened when Byeongkwan leaned in.

He placed his lips on mine, pulling back as fast as he did the action.

Heat rushed to my face. Kim Byeongkwan. Just kissed me.

"I still love you."