But, my body felt relaxed and I slept easily tonight.

The next morning,

I felt refreshed and full of energy. I thought, I will not think about that handcuff and all now.

I felt guilty about my uncontrollable hormones.

I think I should meet a counselor but problem is what will I tell him / her that I want to being roughly taken by a man is now my favourite fantasy.

I needed a man who would manhandle me. This is so embarrassing to accept.

I thought I will stop reading about Mafia and submissive and master content.

And I went to have my break fast continuing my day now,

I had a good day at university and I felt happier within myself. Because, I rid of my naughty thoughts today.

My sexual frustration was still there but my last night orgasm made it slightly relieved.

But it was again start lingering as evening going darker with time.

I got more ignition in my temptation.

When, I was sitting with few of my friends and one of them talked about her sex experience in which her boyfriend tied her with bed.

Hearing this, everyone make disgusting faces but I turn horny as hell and I needed relief again.

But, I could never imagine finding a man that could satisfy me the way I want.

I came back home as I decided I won't read books.

I tried to sleep and I fell asleep that night somehow.

Few days passed away,

But now, I am craving to read about mafia's or something rough as I am addicted.

I realise I want it so badly.

I decided to visit a psychologist.

I took appointment and as soon she asked me, I told her all my problems in single breath.

Stay tuned.