HOPESEOK
i'm sorry

SUGAYOONIE
so you've said

SUGAYOONIE
it's what you said yesterday

SUGAYOONIE
what are you sorry for this time?

HOPESEOK
i don't expect you to be understanding

SUGAYOONIE
for fuck's sake hoseok trying to understand you is all i've been trying to do!

SUGAYOONIE
no one knows what goes through that brain of yours

SUGAYOONIE
and i'm willing to bet you don't either

SUGAYOONIE
we're going to keep going in circles

SUGAYOONIE
and it's because of you and your indecisiveness

HOPESEOK
i fucked up yoongi, is that what you want me to tell you?

HOPESEOK
do you need me bowing at your feet?

HOPESEOK
you know i've never been good at this emotional shit

SUGAYOONIE
wow who would have thought

SUGAYOONIE
the only regret i ever have was not confronting you earlier

SUGAYOONIE
i didn't know if you were losing interest in me

SUGAYOONIE
but i knew something was wrong

SUGAYOONIE
how could i not tell that the person i love was slipping from my fingers?

SUGAYOONIE
it was obvious as day, hoseok

SUGAYOONIE
how you were shrinking into yourself

SUGAYOONIE
pushing me away

SUGAYOONIE
yet i did nothing

SUGAYOONIE
because i thought if you really wanted to tell me, you would

SUGAYOONIE
i let it slide and look where that has me three years later

SUGAYOONIE
where that has us

SUGAYOONIE
we can't even speak to each other like we used to

SUGAYOONIE
you're so guarded talking to me

SUGAYOONIE
do you think i'm not able to notice?

HOPESEOK
things aren't the same yoongi

HOPESEOK
i've moved on

HOPESEOK
it's been three years

HOPESEOK
we aren't close anymore

HOPESEOK
we don't know each other anymore

HOPESEOK
how am i supposed to talk to you?

SUGAYOONIE
if you had moved on, that's all you had to tell me

SUGAYOONIE
you could have left it at that

HOPESEOK
i didn't mean move on like that

SUGAYOONIE
then what did you mean, hoseok?

HOPESEOK
i shouldn't have left you all those years ago

HOPESEOK
but that doesn't mean i didn't try to do something of myself

SUGAYOONIE
so you regret leaving

HOPESEOK
i do

SUGAYOONIE
why haven't you come back yet

HOPESEOK
it's not that simple

SUGAYOONIE
not to you

HOPESEOK
still

SUGAYOONIE
that doesn't mean you should be a fricking
coward about all this, hoseok

HOPESEOK
i'm not ready. i don't know when or if i will

HOPESEOK
i'm sorry

HOPESEOK
i don't deserve you

SUGAYOONIE
i know

SUGAYOONIE
i should have moved on from you

SUGAYOONIE
you're giving me the answers i want

SUGAYOONIE
for some reason it hurts a lot more than when i knew nothing

SUGAYOONIE
all this time i wanted you to talk to me

SUGAYOONIE
to say something

SUGAYOONIE
and now you have

SUGAYOONIE
and it's not enough

SUGAYOONIE
but it's still hurting like hell

SUGAYOONIE
who would have thought

HOPESEOK
i just don't know how to explain myself

SUGAYOONIE
THEN WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE

HOPESEOK
yoongi...

SUGAYOONIE
NO

SUGAYOONIE
DON'T YOONGI ME

SUGAYOONIE
IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO SAY

SUGAYOONIE
IF YOU CAN'T MAKE WORDS

SUGAYOONIE
WHY ARE YOU TEXTING ME

SUGAYOONIE
WHY ARE YOU STILL TYPING RESPONSES

HOPESEOK
i swear i'm trying

HOPESEOK
you KNOW me

HOPESEOK
YOU KNOW I'M LIKE THIS

SUGAYOONIE
no

SUGAYOONIE
i knew you

SUGAYOONIE
it's been years

SUGAYOONIE
i don't know who you are anymore

SUGAYOONIE
fuck i cna't swe mt screeb anymroe

SUGAYOONIE
im gonna go niw

SUGAYOONIE
bye

HOPESEOK
i'm sorry

SUGAYOONIE
i know

SUGAYOONIE
but sorry means nothing if you don't mean it

SUGAYOONIE
no matter how many times you say it

SUGAYOONIE
it's worthless to

HOPESEOK
i mean it

HOPESEOK
i swear i do

SUGAYOONIE
sure you do

SUGAYOONIE
when's the last time you swore something to me?

SUGAYOONIE
oh right

SUGAYOONIE
you swore you couldn't wait to marry me years ago

a/n: heehee i forgot to say there's gon be more pain where last chapter came from. i'm trying to showcase the difference between 'hopeseok' and 'hobiwobi'. i think i'm doing okay for now

next chapter is going to be writing based (+ texts included)

also, i'm watching the last episodes of fairy tail so i think that's contributing to these painful chapters 🥲🥲😔😔😔