HOPESEOK
i heard my services have been requested 🧍🏻‍♀️

JINSEOKJEON
no

HOPESEOK
yoongi told me you needed them

HOPESEOK
but he also told me you was gon text me

HOPESEOK
and that was a couple of days ago

JINSEOKJEON
that's because i don't want to talk to you

HOPESEOK
if this is about jungkook being with me, not to worry

HOPESEOK
tae took him out to an amusement park or something

HOPESEOK
they've been out all day

JINSEOKJEON
...oh

JINSEOKJEON
well

JINSEOKJEON
i hope they're having fun

HOPESEOK
come to think of it, they've been spending a lotta time together 

HOPESEOK
has tae ever considered being a therapist ?

HOPESEOK
i think they do a pretty good job at it 

JINSEOKJEON
i'm sure tae is enjoying themselves with jungkook

JINSEOKJEON
he loves cuddling

HOPESEOK
jk does too !

HOPESEOK
huh

HOPESEOK
they fit really well 

JINSEOKJEON
thanks hoseok that is exactly what i wanted to hear

HOPESEOK
o-oh

HOPESEOK
let's pretend i didn't say that 😁

HOPESEOK
so you're having commitment issues ?

JINSEOKJEON
is that what yoongi told you ?

HOPESEOK
that's what it sounded like in y'alls convos

HOPESEOK
you're probably insecure too if i'm being honest

JINSEOKJEON
what do i have to be insecure about

HOPESEOK
you're old

JINSEOKJEON
😐

JINSEOKJEON
you just know exactly what to say to me, hoseok, you know that?

HOPESEOK
I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT 

HOPESEOK
you and jungkook got an age difference. couple of years. 

HOPESEOK
puts y'all in diff demographics 

JINSEOKJEON
das what i told yoongi

JINSEOKJEON
you sure yoongi didn't show you our messages 😐

HOPESEOK
what ? no

HOPESEOK
you forget jungkook's with me

HOPESEOK
u think ur the only one worried about your four year age gap

JINSEOKJEON
he's worried too ?

HOPESEOK
sheez you think he don't think about serious matters ?

JINSEOKJEON
i mean

HOPESEOK
omg don't tell me you don't think jk can't be serious

JINSEOKJEON
i mean

HOPESEOK
oh my god, you really don't think he can't be serious ? 

HOPESEOK
THERE'S A PROBLEM RIGHT THERE

HOPESEOK
yeah he's four years younger and he fucks around

HOPESEOK
a lot

HOPESEOK
but jungkook can be serious

JINSEOKJEON
every time i've tried, he's acted like anything but 

HOPESEOK
ur lying

JINSEOKJEON
now why the fuck would i lie about something like that

HOPESEOK
jungkook knows when to be serious. if he wasn't acting serious when you two were having serious conversations, then you probably weren't establishing that it was a serious conversation.

HOPESEOK
ur tryna act like jungkook is a fucking baby

HOPESEOK
he's literally not

HOPESEOK
y'all needa get that image out of your heads

JINSEOKJEON
so what? i'm the problem here ?

HOPESEOK
ur words not mine

HOPESEOK
look i know what ur feeling

HOPESEOK
ur scared

HOPESEOK
terrified even

HOPESEOK
i know because das how i felt 

HOPESEOK
it's like commitment issues but worse

HOPESEOK
i live on impulses. that surge of adrenaline when it came to new things, experiencing different lifestyles, everything. it was like that when i was with yoongi.

HOPESEOK
and when we got engaged, it was like endless adrenaline, y'know? like goddamn i'm so close to marrying the guy i love most in the world, or like the person, i'm supposed to love most in the world. i mean, i was set on marrying him

HOPESEOK
but then as everything started to be planning out, the adrenaline started wearing off and i didn't know what to feel. felt like i was starting to be stuck in limbo, not knowing where i was going to end up. that's when i started to doubt myself and when the time came... well you know what i ended up doing

HOPESEOK
i was terrified that i only liked yoongi bc of what he made me feel, not for who he was. and when i would see the way he'd look at me, i knew i wasn't looking at him that way. it scared the fuck out of me. it sounds fucking stupid but not feeling that rush was making me doubt myself. is why i felt like i had to leave. when it came down to it, i couldn't bring myself to say yes to him. idk, i just, had to leave

HOPESEOK
i never once talked to yoongi about how i was feeling. when it comes to uncertainties, you need to communicate

HOPESEOK
you and jungkook need to communicate. age doesn't equal maturity. yeah, jungkook acts like he's young AND HE IS, but i promise if you two just TALK, you'll be able to meet.

HOPESEOK
if y'all don't talk, y'all never gon fix anything

HOPESEOK
jungkook loves you. that man will literally do anything for you if you asked him 

HOPESEOK
he'd probably do sum illegal too but we don't talk about that

JINSEOKJEON
wow hoseok

HOPESEOK
HONESTLY DOE LIKE DID YOU NOT SEE THE WAY JK'S FUCKING TEXT STYLE CHANGE WHEN Y'ALL FIRST STARTED ARGUING ? LIKE YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT SHIT FLEW PAST YOU

JINSEOKJEON
okay so maybe i didn't notice that

HOPESEOK
ofc ya didn't 🙄

JINSEOKJEON
well, this has been enlightening, i guess.

JINSEOKJEON
thanks

JINSEOKJEON
ig yoongi did have a point in trying to get me to talk with you

JINSEOKJEON
how are you two by the way

JINSEOKJEON
never got the chance to truly ask

JINSEOKJEON
how's everything

JINSEOKJEON
you tell yoongi any of this? 

HOPESEOK
we have lots of things to talk about. i mean, it's been years.

HOPESEOK
we're just taking everything slow

HOPESEOK
it isn't like everything got fixed, y'know ? i gotta work on myself, then talk to him about everything, and then figure out what we're going to do

JINSEOKJEON
you're making progress at least

JINSEOKJEON
yoongi's still very much hurt. it's going to take a long time for anything to  

HOPESEOK
i know

HOPESEOK
we got time though

HOPESEOK
we don't have to rush into anything

HOPESEOK
it won't give good results anyhow

JINSEOKJEON
wow you're using your brain for once

JINSEOKJEON
proud of you

HOPESEOK
haha

JINSEOKJEON
👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

HOPESEOK
talk to jungkook

HOPESEOK
preferably in person

HOPESEOK
not right now doe

JINSEOKJEON
maybe later tonight

JINSEOKJEON
he's still with tae, anyhow

JINSEOKJEON
if tae's trying to cheer him up, i shouldn't intrude

JINSEOKJEON
i need to collect my thoughts anyhow

HOPESEOK
no one will be able to cheer jungkook up as much as you would be able to

JINSEOKJEON
hm

JINSEOKJEON
you think so

HOPESEOK
i know so

JINSEOKJEON
you're a much better therapist than yoongi

HOPESEOK
is that a compliment ?

HOPESEOK
if so, thank you sir 😼

JINSEOKJEON
it is

JINSEOKJEON
he started talking about sex 

JINSEOKJEON
can you believe him 😪

HOPESEOK
with you 🧍🏻‍♀️

JINSEOKJEON
asked who topped

HOPESEOK
i mean das a very good question

JINSEOKJEON
NOT YOU TOO

HOPESEOK
it's an easy question to answer anyways

HOPESEOK
don't know why it should even be ASKED

JINSEOKJEON
...honestly though

HOPESEOK
top jin supremacy 😏

JINSEOKJEON
eye-

HOPESEOK
now go away

JINSEOKJEON
HUH

HOPESEOK
and fix your relationship or something

JINSEOKJEON
go fix yours

HOPESEOK
i hate you

JINSEOKJEON
 and i more <3

a/n: HEY BESTIES ITS BEEN SO LONG OH MY GOD ARE YOU ALL STILL ALIVE BC I KNOW I AM CRAVING DEATH <3

just got my first official break since like fucking ever (it's a three day weekend for me and i am ready to just enjoy it and get to some writing).

i wish i wasn't so busy i miss writing so much like :((( IM ALMOST DONE WITH SCHOOL DOE LIKE GOTTA NYOOM NYOOM AHHHHHHHHHH

mister runaway is almost at 15k guys what i'm just 😳😳😳😳😳 THANK YOU FOR READING I WISH I COULD GIVE ALL Y'ALL KISSES MWUAH

i'll try updating as i have time, but honestly i got to start packing my shit to move out of my dorms and that's very time consuming rip. pray for me y'all so that i may be able to write and start my summer.

good thing is that i pretty much get four months of summer. very sexci and very much writing time 😼😼😼😼😼 EXCITEMENT

mister runaway almost done doe gotta start setting up bb, whoopsies

thanks for reading <3