There was a grime silence.

"Jiraya boy, he was..... he was killed in our last mission." Fukasaku managed to croak out.

Naruto felt a wave of nausea and a all familiar ache in her chest.

"What?" She managed to breathe out her voice quivering.

Tsunade lowered her head her body shaking as she was trying to hold back a sob.

"He was killed in our infiltration mission." fukasuku repeated

"The leader of Akatsuki was too strong for us. They had a doujutsu named rinnegan it's abilities and unpredictability ended up being Jiraya boys downfall."

I let out a choked sob. "No, it's not. he was... someone I considered... why!" I cried out my vision was blurred out by tears as I felt familiar arms wrap around me.

"Naruto, breath please." Sakura soothed, but I cried the pain in my chest didn't stop.

"Why was he even fighting the leader of akatsuki... grandma Tsunade you sent him didn't you. You knew how dangerous it was. He died for kami sakes!" I yelled at the top of my lungs.

"Jiraya wouldn't have sent you, he would've realized that... that it was to dangerous." I cried and I heard a loud crackling sound .

I looked up. "I didn't want him to go, but he was stubborn he knew what he was going to do, he knew what he was getting himself into. "Tsunade snapped her eyes filling up with tears.

"but Jiraya managed to send one final message." she croaked out. fukasaku began taking off his cloak and showing the code written on his back. "What does it say." I whimper out.

"We have yet to figure it out. nobody knows what coding he used. it isn't Konohas standard coding or anbu coding." Tsunade stated as I tried to calm down.

I looked down at the code not having a single idea on what it meant.

"when you crack it, tell me what it says."I mumble through the cries.

"Lets go home naruto." sakura stated as she walked me out.

The second I was out of the room I began crying again.

"Do you know if they recovered the body?" I asked sakura.

"His body was lost at sea. At least his body won't be used against us." she stated and I nodded.

We walked through the village people would glance at us as tears streamed down my face.

"Can you stay the night sakura. I don't think I should let the twins see me like this." I mumble and she nodded.

"You should rest Naruto, I'll watch the twins." she mumbled.

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There was a small funeral for Jiraya, there was a small grave set up for him.

The code had yet to be cracked. The twins didn't understand why I was sad. They also asked when Jiji-sage was going to come back. I didn't have the heart to tell them that he wouldn't.

"Mama, why do you keep crying? are you sad?" Ryuu asked as he held my hand as we went to get groceries.

"Sakura-nee and Hina kaa-san have been coming over a lot lately too." Aki stated as she ate the lollipop I bought her.

I didn't reply. "are guys hungry for something in specific today?" I asked trying to change the topic.

"You shouldn't push they're worries aside. They don't really understand what's going on." kurama stated.

I glanced at them. 'I just. I just don't know what to tell them.' I replied feeling tears swell in my eyes again.

"mama you're doing it again." they stated tugging on my hand. I blinked and began wiping the tears.

"it's nothing. I just, don't worry about it ... ne" I tried to smile at them they glanced at each other and frowned.

"They aren't buying it. And you aren't very convincing. If it's really that hard for you I'll talk to them and tell them." kurama stated.

'they'll be heart broken. They were really close to Jiraya.' I say to him.

"They need to know. besides you don't seem to be getting better. I've been taking care of the twins more than usual while you cry yourself to sleep in your room. ' kurama stated.

I grimaced, he was right. Recently I had been a crying mess. I was shutting myself away and I knew I shouldn't I should talk to them. tell them how I feel and explain things to them.

But they were just children. "At their age you were living by yourself you know." kurama stated.

I didn't reply. I'll leave them with their innocence for a little while longer.

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I heard a knock on the door and I slowly got up from the couch. I wiped the tears from my eyes and hoped my eyes weren't puffy.

I slowly opened the door and Iruka-sensei was standing there. My lip trembled.

"Hey Naruto how have-" he didn't get to finish before I bursted into tears. I jumped into his arms and began to cry.

I felt him wrap his arms around me and hug me. "it's okay, I know how much Jiraya ment to you." he whispered as he let me cry on his shoulder.

Jiraya was my godfather, I had cared for him a lot even if he was a pervert. but Iruka sensei, I saw a father like figure in him.

He had been one of the first people to acknowledge me. He had watched out for me for years. He scolded me and taught me almost all I know about being a ninja, just that I had been to hard headed to realize.

"Its nor fair Iruka-sensei. My precious people keep dying or running away. It's hard. I'm a single mom who, I don't even know how to be a mom! I never had one so I wing it. I'm being hunted down by S rank criminals, the man I love is probably dead or is being held by the S rank criminals. Above all I'm a shinobi and I'm constantly fighting for my life and my children's lives. It's just too much." I cried finally letting out all my bottled up emotions.

He sighed. "Yes you're right. There's so many things that keep going wrong. I can't fix them for you even if I wish I could." Iruka stated

"But you are making it, things don't always go as planned and that's okay. You raised your kids to the best of your ability, you uphold your ninja way. You bring pride to your village and to your late godfather. But from the very being a large burden and responsibility was handed to you. One you nor Kurama never asked for so it's okay to feel overwhelmed to feel like everything is to much. That's what makes you human. I can't tell you that by tomorrow morning it will be all better, but it's another day that proves you conquered the previous day and proved to everyone that ever doubted you that you are strong." Iruka stated firmly.

I could feel the tears slowly stream down my cheek.

"You are Uzumaki Naruto, hyperactive most unpredictable ninja that's proved everyone wrong since she was in the academy. A strong independent Kunochi who is one of Konohas strongest assets, valuable civilian, and my favorite knuckle head student. Because someway, somehow you manage to do the impossible." he finished off.

I felt a bit better. "Jiraya wouldn't want to see you withering away, he would want to see the energetic strong Naruto that will triumph over all obstacles even if she doesn't believe in herself. Besides he might have passed but he's still with us, in our memories and in the legacy he left behind. So I'm presuming there's gunna be a new Toad sage around in Konoha." he finished off as I wiped my tears.

I nodded and chuckled. " I guess I have to keep the old perverts legacy alive." I whisper wiping my tears and sniffling.

"Guess it's time to pull myself together." I say with new found courage.

Iruka smiled. "That's good, how about some ramen for you and the kids. With all that's going on I bet you haven't been cooking as much." he stated.

"That.... that would be nice. Let me go get the twins."
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Sasuke POV

I know the truth, the truth about that accursed village and what they'd done to my family.

I couldn't bring myself to forgive them, those bastard. They wanted me to remain loyal while hiding the fact that my entire family had been slaughtered by them.

"Sasuke-kun is something troubling you?" Karin asked as she pressed her naked body against me.

I glanced at her for a second. 

I got out of bed ignoring her. "Be ready to depart in the morning. understood?" I grumble as I put my boxers back on and grabbed my other clothes slipping them on with ease.

She was starting to say something but I walked out of the room completely ignoring her. I had already told her that I didn't see her as anything more than a disposable pawn. If she let her emotions get to her and got attached it's not my problem.

I strolled into the main lobby. "Tomorrow is your debut, I'm sure I can trust the 8 tails will be delivered promptly." Madera stated as he saw me walk in.

I gave him a curt nod.
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Naruto POV

"I see, but the code itself is odd. why is it all numbers except for the first letter." I comment.

"huh? what do you mean first letter?" shiho asked as she pushed her glasses up on the bridge of her nose.

Her frizzy blonde hair and thick rimmed glasses made her stand out a little and she was one of Konohas cryptanalysis.

"Yeah, the old pervert always wrote his kanji a little weird, while I edited his books I pointed out the kanji for ta always looked like a nine. it was a pain in the ass to get used to it." I say and they all stated at me she'll shocked.

"Ta, what books are registered with that as the beginning or tittle." Shikamaru asked realizing that it was Naruto who had the key to the code.

"It could be his icha icha paradise book. " kakashi stated as he was walking by and over heard them.

"Kakashi-ojichan!" Aki squealed running towards him and latching onto his leg.

"That's it, we must get a copy of it im-" shiho exclaimed but was interrupted by kakashi "I have one right here." he grumbled.

"Great! I want you to turn to page 15 and read from the top out loud!" shiho exclaimed and I paled.

"N-Not infront of the twins he won't!" I stuttered out Iruka sensei nodding in agreement. "we will be on our merry way to eat ramen. the children shouldn't hear the contents of that book." he stated.

"Y-you you want me to read it out loud?" Kakashi asked in a trembling voice. "Of course! the information is valuable and not once second can be spared. "

"We will be going, bye shika, Shiho-san, good luck sensei." I say as I peeled the twins off shell shocked sensei and we continued on our merry way.

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I was packing the twins bags, I was off on another training trip and had arranged for the twins to say with Sakura. Genin would watch over them while she worked in the hospital and being that I knew she wasn't going to be pulled away for missions I was content. Hinata was a Jonin who was often needed in b rank and A ranked missions so she wasn't an option.

"Be good, mama will be back soon alright." I say kissing their foreheads.

"Mama I don't want you to go." Ryuu grumbled.

"I know baby but mama has to do what she has to do." I sigh as I picked up their bags and slung them over my shoulder. "now let's hurry up Sakura nee-chan is going to be waiting." I say with a grin as I took them to sakura' s apartment.

The trip was silent and I soon found myself knocking on her door.

"Well look at my two favorite troublemakers." Sakura greeted pulling them into a hug and giving them kisses on their cheeks.

" Here's their things." I say with a sad smile.

sakura took the bag and then gave me a hug. "You stay safe out there, you hear." she smiles as she kissed my cheek.

I felt a small blush rise to my face and nodded.

" Remember to behave for the genin, I know sakura won't have trouble with you cause she can be very scary sometimes. ya know. now give mama a kiss." I bent down and gave them a hug.

"We will be extra good I promise." Ryuu stated.

"We will miss you mama." Aki added.

I pulled away and smiled sadly. "I'll miss you too." and with that I reversed summon to mount myôboku.

"Hey grandma toad, hey grandpa toad. I guess it's time to start my training."
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Really short chapter but that's okay. I got the point across and introduced KarinxSasuke.

their relationship is one sided having Karin love him even though she knows his heart doesn't belong to her. it's super toxic and it's more or less her trying to convince herself that the other girl doesn't exist, she's never met her doesn't acknowledge her hence to her Naruto doesn't exist.

Sasuke just wants a fuck toy and well Karin is there.

and it's unrealistic to have Sasuke and Naruto not find other lovers after being apart for so long. smh

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