“You are more than just some hook up Taehyung I made it pretty fucking clear.”

The words rang in Taehyung’s head throughout the time. He wasn't sure how he was supposed to react. Till now, Taehyung coaxed himself by saying that it's just sex and nothing more. It was easier to ignore his rising feelings that way.

But now, he doesn't know anymore.

He was in a daze, it seemed as if it still would take time to properly sink in, he was just looking straight on the path with his mind being completely silent.

This probably didn't frightened him as he supposed it would, being with Jungkook was just…. Easy, in a way. Jungkook… He interests Taehyung. The mobster isn't a closed book full of secrets but he wasn't an open book either.

Taehyung liked that. He liked how easy it was being with Jungkook. They'll bicker and laugh, smile and kiss. Jungkook is fun to be with, The racer has trust issues but he definitely trusts Jungkook, till what line is a different question. That might be the reason why he wasn't so freaked out by the idea of them being something else…. Something intimate…. A relationship perhaps.

Yeah, that might be the reason why He wasn't so opposed to the idea but what did Taehyung know anyway? Maybe he was still numb by the feeling of seeing a dead body to even react to that little information. Maybe he'll freak out later once this turmoil settles down.

The gunshot, the dead body, the blood… It sends him very close to a memory Taehyung would rather like to have inside the Pandora box for the rest of his life. It wasn't a secret his sister and mother had died. He failed to protect the remaining two people he called his family.

Sure, he has seen gunshots and blood almost every week but never has he been the one who holded the gun. He's glad his body is refusing to succumb to those thoughts, he's not sure what he'll do if he falls back into the memories of that time.

Frankly, Taehyung felt like an asshole for acting this way, for being so tangled up in his own emotions about stupid things when he has literally just blown up someone's head, took someone's family, maybe even made someone orphan.

The thought made his stomach churn in disgust as his own brain tried to give reasons in order to justify the murder. The more the time passed the more he got used to the fact that he killed someone. Till now, Taehyung never considered himself a bad person but maybe, now he was.

One of the bad guys who killed others for their own benefit, the people who deserved the worst. He isn't the religious type but Taehyung knows that karma will catch up to him sooner than later maybe—

“Taehyung?” The racer looked sideways to see Jungkook watching him closely, almost concerned about his well-being and the younger realised they were standing in front of his house for the last 15 minutes if not more, Drenched from the heavy rain that had started to pour soon after they left the place.

“You okay?”

“I am, stop asking that!” Taehyung grumbled, his voice coming out harsher than intended.

“I'm okay they probably wouldn't even be awake. I don't know, I just…” Taehyung sighs. “A little nervous I guess? This isn't a big deal for you but it is for me” Jungkook nods relculantly.

“I understand, my first wasn't easy either” Tae peaked a glance at him with a raised brow.

“How old were you? When you know… killed someone?”

“Seventeen, Couldn't sleep for days, locked myself in my room for about a week even though I have seen dead bodies left and right before I was even ten. My Dad said it takes time to come to terms with it, with being a killer, My older brother told me I was a coward for that, so yeah I can understand” Taehyung nods since he didn't knew what to say, if he was seventeen when he first killed someone it means it has been a long long time ago.

“I hope I won't take that much time, though” A ghost of a smile touches Jungkook’s features.

“You wouldn't, I know it. You are stronger than that, shall we?” With A deep breath Taehyung pushed the door open, replying to his question wordlessly.

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When Taehyung walked up to the apartment, he didn't expect the lights to be on nor did he expect to see Yoomgi or Maria perched on the sofa, watching some old silent black and white movie.

He suppressed A smile as he noticed the scowl on Maria’s face and the very clear glare she had on the screen. Maria hated watching old movies and Yoongi liked exactly this kind. Every week one of them would pick A movie which all three had to watch together. Taehyung had managed to get away since he had already watched it but Maria surely was having the time of her life.

Taehyung turned to look at Jungkook who was looking around the place, taking everything in. The male hadn't been in his apartment or to put it in better words, hadn't looked at his apartment whenever he had come over, they were too busy to even turn their eyes somewhere else other than each other.

He gestured to the male to follow him in his room so they could dry themselves, Jungkook nodded as they tiptoed their way to his room. After briefly drying themselves and changing into drier clothes they made their way back to the living room to see the TV closed and Maria and Yoongi looking at them.

“I thought you two were watching the movie?” the racer crooked awkwardly.

“We were until you decided to sneak in like thieves with your…” Maria retorted, squinting her eyes on Jungkook, a sour look on her face.

“His boyfriend” Jungkook said, liking the sound of it on his tongue, he gave a curt nod towards Yoongi in acknowledgement before turning his eyes back on Maria, ignoring the way Taehyung had stiffen against his chest.

“You must be—”

“WAIT WHAT? KUTTE WHEN WILL YOU TELL ME THAT? MY BEST FRIEND GOT A BOYFRIEND AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW!!!” She started advancing towards Taehyung who winced as she started hitting his chest while cursing in a language that Jungkook couldn't understand, judging by her tone she surely was cursing.

Jungkook tried to save the racer from the assault but truthfully, he was way too scared to go near her considering the way she was moving her hands in all the directions. The mobster tried to look towards Yoongi silently pleading for her but the older male was too busy looking at them with a bored expression as if it wasn't something new, judging by Taehyung’s reaction it probably wasn't.

Finally once the racer got hold of her hands, he stopped her who panted harshly looking no less than a bengal tiger ready to pounce if given the chance. “Calm down will ya?”

She rolled her eyes, turning to give a stingy eye to yoongi. “You didn't know about this, did you?”

The older male raised his hands in surrender “I'm just as clueless as you are, is that why you changed the topic everytime I asked about him, kiddo?”

Taehyung smiled sheepishly, Jungkook felt a relief wash over him, at least momentarily Taehyung had forgotten about whatever happened.

“It's not exactly like that….” The racer trailed off, he looked at Jungkook like a small kid who had broken a Vase and found it hard to confess his crimes. Jungkook returned his stare wordlessly, not sure what kind of emotions he wore on his face, whatever it must have made Taehyung sigh.

“Okay it's like that, Jungkook is… my boyfriend”

Taehyung said, suppressing the urge to scrunch his nose at the label, it didn't sound as bad as he had expected, in fact, it sounded good, great actually as if it suited the mobster. As if it was made for him.

Taehyung glanced at the mobster, who smiled pressing a kiss against his temple. Barely there but The racer could feel his lips even when they moved away.

“Are you sure, little one?” Yoongi asked cautiously, Maria, understanding the reason behind it, turned and gave Jungkook a stare which he could very much consider a glare.

“Yeah, I am,” Tae said firmly, linking his hands with Jungkook, earning a squeeze. It felt like a silent statement saying ‘You wouldn't regret it’

“You!”

“I am what?” Jungkook raised the brow at the blue haired girl.

“Nothing, you are just kinda hot, not exactly the type I think  Tae would go for but you aren't a bad choice I'll say” She looks him up and down, making a face and Taehyung lets out a snort.

“Anyways, you should have stayed at his place Tae, the weather is not so good” Yoongi puts his hand on Maria’s shoulder, effectively stopping her from passing more comments. The girl never understands the meaning of serious situations.

“We were already out of my place when the rain started” Jungkook explains and Yoongi nods, he still had questions but preferred to not voice them out.

“Still, why did you leave? Taehyung isn't a kid he could have a stay over”

“Actually….“ Taehyung starts not sure how to address the fact that he got money for Jaehun, The mobster seems to understand his problem as he decided to drop the bomb instead.

“I heard—”

“We should go to sleep! It's getting late, right hyung?”

“Yes but we were—”

“Hyung we can do that in the morning too, I'm pretty sure they both are tired right now.” Maria says, looking hopefully towards Taehyung and Jungkook.

“Yeah, I'm pretty tired,” Taehyung replies, cutting off whatever Jungkook had to say. He could definitely take sleep over the issue at hand, it's not like anything will change if he told them that right now rather than the morning. Maria beamed at him and Taehyung grins, knowing well she just wants to get away from watching the movie. They turn to look at Yoongi, who after sometimes lets out a sigh and nods.

“Alright, We'll talk tomorrow”

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