JULY 31ST 2018

hello journal,

the school took the page down, they expelled both jungwoo and lucas for posting such pictures and videos like that, they said.

ive been talking to a therapist since this whole situation started with the page and catching lucas cheating on me.

my therapist is really nice, she looks really young and pretty too. I believe her actual name was wendy, she's from canada just like me so we connected pretty quickly and through this short time I've had sessions with her, I can feel myself getting better.

I blamed myself a lot, she made me realize, that whenever lucas was in the wrong I felt like I was. I was a victim of what is called mental abuse which turned into physical abuse the moment he hit me because of jungwoo.

I met this really nice boy when I was waiting in the waiting room for my session with wendy.

he said his name was daniel. he's older than me I ended up finding out, by three years.

I asked him why he was there and he told me that he had some relationship problems with his former boyfriend that just messed him up.. I related and we also kept talking

we exchanged numbers, he seems really nice and if I'm being honest.. kind of cute.

wendy told me to take all of lucas' things out of my apartment, basically erasing anything I have of him. she said it will help me with forgetting faster of course and will help me deal with him being gone for now.

donghyuck and jeno are still there for me, jeno even volunteered to move in with me so I don't feel so lonely but I told him it was okay.

i feel much better then I've felt in a long time, I hope i can stay like this. I also told wendy about you journal and she said that it's good that I write down what I feel and am going through so I don't feel to dependent on others. so thanks journal.

I still have class, so I'll get going okay? okay.

- M.L♡