I hated that day... It has been a year since we broke up.. Today is 10th December.... The day of our end... The day which was full fill of sadness.. Of shock.. Of shame on you... In my mind.. I didn't even think about 'what if we Broke Up?'... My heart refused to give me a chance to think of it....
On Tuesday 10th December :
' I woke up feeling fresh...Connor told me that he's gonna meet me at Dover Caffè...so excited...I got dressed.. I wore a blue pullover with a black jacket... I wore my shoes while talking to phoebe on the phone... She was telling me that her boyfriend Sam took her to skateboard... Glad to hear that she's happy... I closed with her and went to the Caffè as he was there few minutes before me... We hugged... The waiter came to take our order... We ordered green tea.... You kept looking at me for a few seconds... '' people say we shouldn't be together.. We're still too young to know about 'forever' "..... '' why are you saying that? '' I asked.." I don't know...I feel like I don't want any more love.. You don't deserve me!! " he said.. I looked at him angrily.." wait a second.. you're not supposed to take my choice.. I say who deserves me and who not.." I said...."Connor, you're kidding me right? Lik-".. "Grace please let it easy on me-".. "Wait! Easy?!? Now our sperating is easy?!?!"...He grabbed my hands.. "I'll really miss you... Grace I-"... His phone was ringing, he left my hands and answered the phone.. My mind is in a struggle... My heart can't handle the idea of leaving me.. Of separation.. He ended the call with whatever... "Grace I'm sorry.. I really I wish we can be together but I can't... I so sorry for that... I really loved you.. I loved you more than anyone else could.. I hope we can be a good friends-" I stood suddenly angrily.. "sorry Connor I have no honor to be your friend...Goodbye Connor... Goodbye my first love".. I grabbed my phone and went out of the Caffè... He kept calling my name... But I ignored him.. I went home.. I couldn't even imagine that we broke up... I can't handle it anymore... I took MySpace Book..actually it's my Diary... I opened an empty page... I wrote everything happened... I was writing with my tears which was falling one by one on my diary... I closed it... I was crying.. But I just can't live without him.. I can't...'
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I get my box from the drawer.. The box of our memories... I opened it up and saw my necklace that he bought it for me.. It was on my birthday... And he gave me also a gift card...and was written in it
*Dear Candy,
Happy birthday to you.. Please keep smiling.. Wish you to be happier ❤️
                                             All the love,
                                            Connor*
I smiled and my eyes were tearing down...
I saw our pictures card.. One was leaning our arms to make a big heart.. Another one was face in a scarcsam way... Another one he was grabbing in a bride style.. Another one I was hugging his side...I can remember that day we went to the cinema and we got out of it we saw a corner which was only for taking photos.. He drew a heart and he wrote on it 'I love you'... I gave the same adding a few words which were 'love you babe... Till the moon and back'... He smiled ❤️...
Miss these days... Wondering what are you doing?... Are you dating someone?.. Do you still love me?.. Do you even think of me?.. I closed the box and put it again in the drawer behind my clothes.. I went to bed hopefully to see your face again..
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Hey there,
Sorry for being late.. But I have exams and I hate that... Like starting 2020 with exams that's Awful!!!.. Anyway I love you all... Hope you like the chapter... Stay in touch!! And don't forget to smile... Bye