Hi ૮꒰⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝꒱ა I don't even know, if anyone will still read this, but it's been sitting in my drafts for a very long time now and I thought, maybe some of you would enjoy to read it. *ପ꒰⑅•ᴗ•｡꒱໊੭* I'm planing to write at least one more chapter, hopefully til Christmas.

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Christmas with ChanMinBinSung
23rd December

The time until Christmas had passed incredibly quickly. Jisung, Chan and Changbin had rehearsed quite a lot for the Christmas show, but also worked a lot on their next comeback, while Minho had a lot to do at work and trained with Felix for a dance battle.

What had led to the fact that the four had seen each other relatively little, the more they were looking forward to the holidays and the time until New Year's Eve. They would finally have some free time again, which they could spend together without having other obligations.

Chan and Changbin had gone shopping to be prepared for Christmas. They would perform on the 25th at the Christmas show, but on the 24th they would get a visit from Jimin, Sumi, Felix and Hyunjin and that's why Chan and Minho had decided to conjure up a feast and celebrate. They would spend the 26th December with Chan's parents.

Jisung had stayed at home to continue working on a song lyrics, while Minho had to go to work again.

Jisung couldn't really concentrate on what he wanted to write. He was tired and he was much more in the mood to cuddle with the others than he wanted to work on the lyrics.

His mood had reached a really low point and he realized that he urgently needed a break. Sighing, he finally got up and went into the kitchen to make himself a coffee.

But that intend wasn't crowned with success either. The coffee beans were empty, as the coffee machine announced to him blinking and even after he had turned the entire kitchen upside down, he found none to refill.

After he had wrote Chan a message about it, he retired to the bedroom and lay down in discontentedly in bed.

The day so far felt like a complete disaster and he was annoyed by himself that he hadn't went with Chan and Changbin.

It didn't took long until he actually fell asleep.

Yawning, Minho got up from his desk and pushed the chair to the desk. He was lucky and was one of the few NIS agents who had the holidays off.

His work ethic had decreased a bit lately anyway. To be honest, it went away a little more every time he trained with Felix.

Not that he didn't still like to work with Jimin and Sumi, but he noticed how he sometimes lacked the motivation to drive to work at all.

And what no one knew, apart from Jimin and Sumi, was that Minho considered quitting his service. He had even talked to his boss about it. They were not quite in agreement with the details until now, but Minho was confident that they would find a conclusion.

He wanted to surprise Jisung, Chan and Changbin with it and Felix was part of the plan, so it fit quite well that they would see each other the next day.

Smiling, Minho waved good bye to Jimin and Sumi. He was looking forward to celebrating Christmas with the two, even if they celebrated a little differently than most people in Korea.

Jimin came over to him grinning and took him in his arms.

"See you tomorrow," he said quietly.

With that, he left the headquarters and was happy that he wouldn't have to come back this year.

The way home seemed much too long to him, probably because he longed very much to cuddle with Jisung and finally be able to spend time with him, Chan and Changbin.

When he came home it was unusually quiet. Usually Jisung listened to music when he was home alone so as not to feel alone.

Surprised, he went in search of Jisung and finally found him asleep in bed.

Smiling tiredly, he took off his uncomfortable suit, crawled into bed to Jisung and pulled him close.

When Jisung opened his eyes, tiredly blinked and saw Minho, he had to smile.

"Hey my handsome," he murmured sleepily, leaning over to Minho and kissing him gently.

"Hey baby," Minho said softly, snuggling up to Jisung and closing his eyes. "Shall we stay in bed until Channie and Binnie come back?"

"Mhm", yawning Jisung snuggles up to Minho and closes his eyes again.

Chan and Changbin had squeezed their way through too crowded supermarkets for almost two hours and tried to get everything Minho had written on the shopping list and had ultimately been successful. But in the meantime they were also quite k.o and just wanted to go home.

"Do we really have to perform there?" Changbin asked with a pout on his lips and looked at Chan, who was sitting in the driver's seat, with big, sad eyes.

"Yes, babe! We've been rehearsing for the whole month!" Chan said with a smile and grabbed Changbin's hand before he drove off.

Fortunately, the way home didn't took long, because although they had the next day off, there was still a lot to prepare - according to Minho.

The 25th would also be a bit stressful for all of them, but all the more they were looking forward to the rest until New Year's Eve. The content that would appear after Christmas was pre-shot and at least for a few days no one was waiting for them in the studio.

Somehow they had already expected that they would find Minho and Jisung in bed and so they first quietly cleared away the shopping before they snuggled up to the two.

Jisung looked at Chan sleepily, while Minho just continued to sleep even though Changbin put his arms around him.

"Hey baby," Chan whispered, kissing Jisung softly.

"Hey," Jisung murmured, still slightly upset by the lack of coffee and the failure to work.

Smiling softly, Chan pulled the younger one to himself. Meanwhile, he knew almost every version of Jisung and knew very well that the younger one was dissatisfied with himself.

"I brought you coffee. And the new kind of ice cream that you wanted to try urgently," Chan whispered conspiringly and Jisung's eyes began to light up almost instantly.

"Shall we get up?" Chan asked, grinning.

Jisung nodded exuberantly, crawled over Chan and almost fell out of bed if the older hadn't held him.

Chan took the opportunity, pulled Jisung closer to him and kissed him gently.

Jisung felt the tension of the day drop away from him and almost melted into Chan's embrace. More passionately than Chan had expected, Jisung returned the kiss, but broke away from him shortly afterwards.

"Come on, I really need a coffee first. And ice cream sounds really good too."

He carefully slid down from Chan and then dragged the older one with him.

While Chan poured the coffee beans into the coffee machine and turned it on, Jisung took the ice cream cup from the refrigerator and sat down with it on the kitchenette.

"Sure, why sit on the sofa when you can sit on the sideboard," Chan said grinning and went over to Jisung, who looked incredibly tiny and cute.

He shrugged his shoulders, pushed the next spoon of ice cream into his mouth and closed his eyes with a blissful smile.

With a satisfied smile, Chan leaned against him and kissed Jisung's icy lips. "Better?"

"So much better."

He drilled around with the spoon in the ice and shortly afterwards held the full spoon in front of Chan's mouth.

"Oh God, that's so cold," Chan gasped, holding his hand over his mouth, while Jisung watched him grinning.

"You're cute," he chuckled and kissed him on the cheek before jumping off the kitchenette. He took the already finished coffee and went towards the balcony.

Chan took the second coffee and went after him.

Together they sat down on the bench and Jisung leaned against Chan.

"Baby, if you need a break, then you just have to say it, you know that, don't you?" he asked quietly, plucked at the sleeve of Jisung's sweater.

"I know... I just don't want to leave you hanging. And we have a few days off now," Jisung muttered and took a sip of coffee to hide how insecure he felt.

"And if you need a few more days off afterwards, then Binnie and I surely manage some days without you. It's no use to anyone if you overwork yourself!" Chan said determinedly and reached for Jisung's chin so that the younger one looked at him.

Jisung just nodded and bit his lower lip. In the meantime he was much better and he only had very rarely flashbacks and panic attacks. But some days just felt terrible. And although he was really looking forward to Christmas, today seemed to be such a day.

"Maybe you'll make an appointment with Marc after the holidays?" Chan asked softly, gently letting his fingers wander through Jisung's hair.

"Yeah, maybe I should," Jisung murmured and closed his eyes with a sigh. He allowed Chan to pull him onto his lap and curled up on it as best he could after the older had taken the cup from him.

Even if he had tried, he couldn't hide his emotions from Chan. And although the ice cream and coffee had lifted his mood a little, the rest of the day weighed heavier.

"What do you think if you call him and see if he's still in practice and then we wake up Binnie and Min to hang the rest of the Christmas decorations?"

"Okay," Jisung whispered, even though he just wanted to keep cuddling with Chan. For a moment, he snuggled closer to the elder before detaching from him and getting up.

"I know it's still not easy for you to seek help when you need it. But you'll feel better when you've talked to him," Chan said lovingly and also stood up.

While he brought the cups with the cold coffee into the kitchen, Jisung sneaked into the bedroom to get his phone.

Changbin and Minho slept tightly intertwined, which made Jisung smile.

Before he left the bedroom, so as not to wake the two now, he quickly took pictures of how the two slept.

The fact that Minho and Changbin got along so well and were so close in the meantime made him insanely happy again and again. It would have been pure horror for him if the two had not understood each other. If he had to choose between one of the three.

Because even if their relationship was certainly not the norm, Chan and Changbin were incredibly important to him, even if he was married to Minho. And he loves old three very much. The fact that Minho was also like that made all that incredibly much easier and he loved the life they now led.

With a gentle smile, he closed the bedroom door quietly behind him and then dialed Marc's number with a sigh.

"Hello Jisung. Is everything okay?" he heard Marc's soft voice after the second ring and wished for a moment that he hadn't called at all.

"I... yes, yes. I just wanted to ask if you will be in the practice after Christmas, or if you will not be working again until January?" Nervously, he drilled his fingernails into the palm of his hand. Actually, he knew that it would help him to go to Marc. But especially when he had not been there for a long time, overcoming him again was sometimes quite difficult.

Just as he also drilled his teeth into his lower lip, Chan's arms wrapped around him.

"Breathe, baby. Everything is fine," Chan whispered to him, while Jisung tried to stay in the now and not let the panic catch up.

Without understanding why Jisung reacted so panicked, Chan took the phone from his hand and pulled him with him into the living room.

"Hi Marc, this is Chan. Would you like to repeat that?" Chan asked, sat down on the sofa and pulled Jisung on his lap.

"Oh, hi, Chan. I am on the 27th and 28th for, let's say, emergencies in the practice and then again on the 3rd January."

Without even thinking about it for a second, Chan answered as soon as Marc had stopped talking. "I think it would be quite good if you could make some time for Jisung."

"Sure, so far I only have one appointment on the 27th. Would 10 o'clock work for you?"

"Sounds great! Thank you!"

After they exchanged a few more polite farewell phrases, Chan ended the conversation and turned his full attention to the curled up Jisung on his lap.

They didn't had that one method to get Jisung out of his panic attacks.
But over the time, everyone had found their own way of helping Jisung when he had one.

But since Chan didn't feel that Jisung was deeply in a panic attack, he tried to help him differently for the moment.

He gently caressed the younger's back and told him about the song that was spinning around in his head and that didn't want to leave him. Of how he imagined the beat and to whom he wanted to assign which lines of text.

Jisung didn't really look like he was listening to him. But Chan noticed how his breathing became calmer and more regular.

Chan carefully put his hand under Jisung's shirt and caressed his skin. Painted small circles on the soft skin of the younger. Held him and showed him with his calm, very unexcited manner that he was there for him and that everything was fine.

It took a while, but finally Jisung straightened up and wrapped his arms around Chan. Pressed a short kiss on the older's lips and then leaned against him.

"Can we go to Min and Binnie now?" he quietly asked, snuggled his face to the crook of Chan's neck.

"Of course, baby!"

With Jisung in his arms, Chan got up from the couch and carried him to the bedroom, where Minho and Changbin looked at them sleepily.

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I just realized, that I never actually wrote a sex scene, where they were all four together. And we haven't had MinBin and ChanSung, if I'm not wrong.
If you wanna read any of that, let me know and I'll see, if I manage to put it in the next chapter. (づ˶•༝•˶)づ♡