"Why do you have the toilet seat up, Hyunji?"

Shit, that dirty little bitch. Hyunji thought.

She had reminded him thousands of times to put the seat down.

"Uh, I- I was cleaning my bathroom." Hyunji replied to her mother.

"It doesn't look very clean." Haneul pursed her lips.

"I was about to clean it."

It was the little things that Hanuel noticed that made Hyunji nervous. Her mother didn't say anything further but Hyunji wasn't sure if her mom believed her or not. She wasn't always the most convincing liar.

Almost every time he text he made her smile, and that pretty little giggle that he adored usually followed. Haneul noticed every time. Hyunji was practically glowing the entire summer and as soon as school started she seemed upset and glued to her phone.

Am I overreacting?

She would never hide things from me.

Hanuel's thoughts were overwhelming her.

"Hyunji," Hanuel paused, turning around to go back into her daughter's room. "Is there anything you want to tell me?"

As if Hyunji would just spill her secrets. Sometimes the guilt of lying bothered Hyunji, but she knew the outcome if she told the truth. Her mother left the room as Hyunji grabbed her phone to text her boyfriend a few snarky comments.

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"Hey, Ji, do you want to sit with me and my friends at the lunch table?"

Hyunji heard his voice and turned to him as she shut her locker. It was Jaehyung, again. He had been talking to her more and more everyday. Hyunji was starting to believe he may have developed some feelings for her.

"No thank you." She smiled. "I usually sit with my friends and I don't want to ditch them. I'll see you in English though."

"I understand, see you later." Jaehyung warmly grinned before heading down the halls.

Ryujin popped up beside Hyunji.

"He's so into you! You know he's the most popular guy here. He's also the best on the soccer team." Ryujin bumped Hyunjis shoulder.

"Well he shouldn't be. I don't want to tell him I have a boyfriend and assume he's into me and embarrass myself. But I might subtly mention it."

"Of course he's into you and you're taken. You could always tell him you've got a hot friend and give him my number."

"I'll think about it. It's funny none of these guys ever batted me an eye before." Hyunji chuckled.

"You're in love, you're sending off pheromones to all the boys around!" Ryujin said.

"You sound just like my friend, Jimin."

Hyunji seemed to rarely ever get attention from guys her previous years of highschool. Now once she was happy in a relationship they all came crawling around. She did have a glow up over the summer but it didn't seem like it was just that. Despite the fact that she wasn't interested in them, it still flattered her and boosted her confidence.

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Hyunji sighed, it had been three weeks since she had sex. Three weeks felt longer than it should have. Jungkook had come over to her house a few times but they were doing homework, assignments, or studying together. Then went for a hike with Jay and that left no room for intimacy. It was harder than expected to get quality time together, let alone sex.

She forgot what it was like to be horny and not be able to do anything about it. Except, she did have something to do about it. Her vibrator that was hidden away in her closet. Hyunji's parents were at dinner with some potential clients and wouldn't be back for at least an hour.

It was dead silence in her room besides the pitter patter of the rain and her thoughts clouding her mind. She bought it for a reason didn't she?

Hyunji got off her bed and walked into her closet digging through her shoeboxes to find it. Opening the black box she looked inside and remembered it even came with lube, but Hyunji didn't think she would need it.

Her door was shut and Hyunji wished she had a lock just for peace of mind. She had the vibrator in hand as she got onto her bed. Hyunji partially wished she had Jungkook here with her, but at the same time she had bought it to use alone. Hyunji took a few moments to go through the settings of the vibrator before it was actually inside of her. Her fingers on the top of the vibrator while she pressed the button at the bottom of it.

She missed his touch more than she imagined. Touch seemed to be Jungkook's love language and she was craving it. The pool between her folds only seconded that. Hyunji laid on her back as she untied the silk robe she once wore for her boyfriend. Her imagination took the stage as she closed her eyes.

Holding the device in her dominant hand she turned it on the lowest setting. She spread her soaked folds and found her entrance. Hyunji briefly hesitated before cautiously pushing the vibrator inside of her, hearing the soft hum it made. It was undeniable that it was smaller than his dick, she noticed that immediately. She didn't feel the same stretch that had her breathing out his name. But, it was better than nothing. It was almost disappointing the lack of stimulation. It was her first time trying so she had to experiment.

Hyunji pressed the button turning it up to the next setting, she could barely feel the first one. Inside of her the vibrations didn't feel like much, it wasn't anything special. She pressed the other end of the vibrator to her clit and oh, did it feel good.

"Oh," Hyunji breathed out.

Finally getting some relief from her sexual frustration her head fell back as she sighed. Hyunji started pumping it in and out of her while holding the one end on her bud. Finding a rhythm her breaths got closer together as she continued to rub the vibrating end against her clit. Her body began to heat up as her eyes closed. Hyunji even found herself massaging her breast and playing with her nipples like he did, she imagined it was him bringing her pleasure. It sent a shiver up her spine as her core dripped all over the vibrator.

The small amount of guilt Hyunji felt in the beginning was washed away by the pleasure she felt. Her mind was bringing her fantasies of Jungkook to life, keeping reality locked away.

Why did I wait so long to use this? She thought in the back of her head.

Hyunji remembered the "sucking feature". She had to try it out to see if it felt the same, for educational purposes, of course.

The tip was held on her clit as Hyunji changed the setting. Two clicks of the button and Hyunji bent her knees as she arched her back. A sinful moan came out of her lips as she squeezed her legs together.

I didn't expect it to feel so real.

It was like he was right there, between her legs pleasing her pussy. The knot in her stomach made itself known as she fell into her fantasy. The vibrator felt just like his lips tightly wrapped around her jewel. When he moaned, sending vibrations through her it felt just like this. Hyunji pictured his fingers slipping in and out of her, moving the device with precision to mimic the motions he would use.

"Ah, Jungkook," Hyunji breathed out.

Even when he wasn't there she was still moaning his name, calling out his praises. It' s just how much she missed him. The toy may have been able to imitate the physical pleasure he brought her, but not the emotion he would put into every movement. Ensuring that he only worked for her enjoyment.

Enveloped in her imagination Hyunji could feel him curling his fingers inside of her, scissoring his digits as he stretched her walls. His lips sealed around her jewel as he brought her to her climax. Hyunji rolled her hips into the vibrator her breaths getting closer together, soft moans escaping her lips. The knot snapped and she squeezed her legs around her hand moaning her boyfriend's name. Her chest rose and fell as she rode out her high, keeping the vibrator against her as she dragged out her orgasm.

Her body relaxed and she turned off the vibrator, slowly taking it out. Hyunji laid on her side and routinely reached for him.

Fuck. . . . I'm alone.

All she had beside her was a pillow and for now she would make due. She laid her head on the pillow hugging it as she closed her eyes. Nothing could replace the emotional intimacy he gave her. She was left missing her other half deeply as she laid on her bed, reminiscing the times he was there with her.

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Jay shuffled around with his toy on her floor, passing the time while Hyunji finished her homework. Her parents had arrived home and though she went down to greet them they barely gave her a glance. Rather, they were too busy bickering over how the dinner went. Sometimes it felt like Hyunji lived with roommates, they were never really there.

She heard her mothers footsteps down the hallway, looking toward the door the corner of her eye caught something out of place on her dresser. The bottle of lube.

FUCKING SHIT.

Hyunji leaped out of bed and grabbed the bottle practically shaking the room. She could hear her mother was just about to open her door. Hyunji ran over to her bed and shoved it under her pillow, as her mom walked in her room Hyunji pretended to be fixing her sheet.

That just took a few years off of my life. She thought, still feeling her heart pounding in her chest.

"Hey," Hyunji said, getting in her bed and leaning on the pillow that was hiding the lube.

It was the only way she felt somewhat calm.

"Since it's the weekend and we don't have to go to the office for once, I thought maybe we could all go for breakfast." Haneul spoke.

"Yeah that sounds good." Hyunji replied, her phone vibrated on the bed and she was almost 100% sure it was Jungkook. "I think I'm gonna go to sleep."

She needs to get out. Hyunji thought.

"Already?"

"Yeah, long day at school. Lot's of homework."

"Well, goodnight then."

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Jungkook sipped on his frappuccino as he walked into another shoe store with his dad, grumbling behind him. Jungkook came to find his girlfriend a birthday present which somehow ended up following his dad around while he looked at some sneakers.

"Dad, I'm gonna go look at the jewelry store." Jungkook said.

"Okay, I'll be right there." His dad replied.

Jungkook wandered off to the store and looked around, he wasn't sure what he was looking for. Her birthday was a few weeks away and he still wasn't exactly sure what to get her. He had a few ideas, he was thinking about a purse she had looked at the previous week, he was taking it as a hint and hoped he was right.

Looking at the jewelry selection he knew he already got her a necklace, she didn't wear bracelets and he damn well knew she was wearing the same earrings since they started dating. Rings. . . . . . . . . .?

A guy could look right?

The engagement rings caught his eye. The sparkling diamonds were all behind a glass case. He moved away towards the silver ones, that's what Hyunji liked. Seeing the rings made him want one even more. But he wouldn't just yet. Her parents didn't even know about him, even if they did he doubted they would accept the relationship. He wanted their families to at least meet once before he asked her to marry him. Though he wasn't set on getting her parents blessing or anything he wanted to make a good impression before making such a serious commitment.

If it were up to him he would take her to the courthouse the day she turned 18 and marry her. But he thought it was best if he waited a little longer to propose. Though his gut instinct told him she would be the one he shared the rest of his life with.

"What are you doing over here?" Joowon chuckled.

Joowon was actually feeling a tinge of nervousness. He knew his son was head over heels for Hyunji, if Jungkook planned to propose it wouldn't be the most surprising thing.

"I'm just looking." Jungkook muttered.

"Are you planning to ask her to marry you?" Joowon asked calmly, trying not to reveal that he was freaking out inside.

At the end of the day it was Jungkook's decision. But even his father felt like it would be too soon.

"Of course! But not right now." Jungkook told his dad.

"Oh thank goodness! I think you two are great together but you haven't even dated for six months and you're barely adults- but I wasn't gonna say anything." Joowon sighed in relief.

"You were that scared huh?"

"Just a little."

"What's that store Mom gets her purses from?" Jungkook asked.

The pair walked out of the shop, Joowon stopped and scratched his head deep in thought.

"Ah, fuck, I don't remember. They're all the same to me." Joowon shook his head. "Do you have a specific purse you want to get Hyunji, one that you're sure she likes?"

"Yeah. . .? We went shopping and I was talking about her birthday and she kept looking at this purse so I took a picture. I'm pretty sure she was giving me a hint." Jungkook replied.

"Ok good. Remember that purse I bought your mom? Yeah, it's sitting in the closet collecting dust. That's when I decided never to buy her clothes, shoes or purses without her telling me too."

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The chilly fall breeze blew through Hyunjis hair as she stood outside playing with Jay. He came running back his ball in his mouth before he stood in front of Hyunji.

"Give." She put her hand under his mouth and he dropped the ball in her palm.

Hyunji's arm swung back and Jay stomped his paws in place in anticipation for her to throw the ball. He went running down the yard after the ball, giving Hyunji a moment to put in her headphones and call her boyfriend. It barely had a chance to ring before he picked up.

"I was just about to call you, babe." Jungkook answered.

They called every single day after school. Even if they had nothing to talk about, which was the usual. Hyunji could feel a difference in their relationship. They were surely out of the "honeymoon" phase and she longed to go back to summer. To feel her initial infatuation with him, to be able to spend her every waking minute with him. Hyunji was swarmed with homework, assignments and exams. It took up so much of her time. When they were on the phone or when he came to her house she was usually occupied with something related to school. She sensed her boyfriend's irritation in that regard. But there wasn't much of an option, unless she let all her grades drop.

He didn't understand.

Jungkook wasn't used to strict parents or having to keep his GPA painfully high. But Hyunji tried to understand that he didn't. Despite the challenges they still made the best of their circumstances.

Jay eventually tired out running towards the back door with Hyunji following behind him. She headed to her room to change out of her school clothes, Jay demanded attention as soon as she walked in the door so she didn't get a chance. Her phone was set up on her dresser for Jungkook's benefit.

"So for your birthday you don't have plans right?" Jungkook asked.

"Yeah, I don't have anything planned." Hyunji took out some sweatpants and one of Jungkooks hoodies she stole.

"My mom is already planning dinner for you. You can't spend your birthday alone."

"Tell your mom thank you, she's very kind."

"I will- hot damnnn!"

Hyunji took off her shirt and her bra and Jungkook's eyes were glued to the screen as he sat on his bed.

"I miss that view." Jungkook chuckled.

"I bet you do." Hyunji put on a t-shirt. "You know what I did the other day?"

"What?"

"I used my vibrator."

"Without me!?"

"Yes! Isn't that the point?"

Jungkook shrugged his shoulders. Now all he wanted to know was her experience.

"Well, how was it?" Jungkook asked.

"It was. . . Interesting. At first it didn't feel like much, but I switched to the sucking setting and it felt sooo real! I was moaning your name, Kook." Hyunji was too shy to look at the camera as she spoke.

"Hyunji!" Jungkook whined, "What are you trying to do to me right now?"

"I just thought you would want to know, I'll keep it to myself next time."

"Or you can facetime me and I'll join you."

Hyunji raised her eyebrows, locking eyes with him through her phone screen. It just wasn't the same. His offer was tempting and she was sure his eyes had that lust-filled look, something no camera could pick up on.

"I'll make sure I'll call you next time."

And there will be a next time.

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Hyunji sighed while walking to get her water bottle. She hated gym with a passion. Running a laps around the tract was torture and embarassing. Hyunji picked up her metal canister and took a sip of her, hearing familiar steps behind her.

Jaehyun, again.

"Hey, Hyunji!" He smiled.

She could feel all eyes on her. The best player of the soccer team was talking to a girl that gave her a lot of unwanted attention.

"Hey, how are you?" Hyunji replied.

Hyunji was beginning to believe Ryujin was right. Did Jaehyun have a crush on her? Or was he just being friendly? There was nothing wrong with having guy friends, she simply wasnt used to it. Jimin and Tae didn't count, they were like her older brothers.

"We didn't get to talk in class earlier," Jaehyun started. "Homecoming is soon and I was wondering if you were going?"

Oh, shit.

"Uh, I think so." Hyunji started, "I might be going to a different one with my boyfr-"

"Jaehyun! Coach wants to talk to us real quick." One of Jaehyun's friends interrupted, taking away his focus.

Jaehyung sighed, apologetically looking at Hyunji.

"I'm sorry, I have to go." He put his hand on her shoulder before walking away.

She smiled and nodded her head.

Hyunji had hoped he heard what she said. She just wanted to put it out there that she had a boyfriend. But in reality she was doubtful that he liked her, the most popular boy in school liking her? No way. Then again she was dating quite the catch.

Ryujin came and raised her eyebrows looking at Hyunji.

"He's been following you around like a puppy." Ryujin chuckled.

"Yeah. . . He was asking about homecoming and if I was going. I was telling him that I might be going with my boyfriend but his friend interrupted him, so I don't know if he heard me." Hyunji said, walking towards the lockeroom to change.

"Do you think he's gonna ask you to go with him?"

"Oh god, I hope not. I'm hoping he just thinks we're friends, maybe I'm just not used to guys talking to me." Hyunji rationalized, "I mean I asked you if you were going to Homecoming and I'm not trying to date you."

"Yeah, maybe. Either way you're the talk of the school."

"Really?"

"Yes!"

Over the past few weeks it seemed like Jaehyun included himself in her routine at school. She saw him multiple times a day, it even seemed like he went out of his way to see her.

As Hyunji went on throughout the day Jaehyun was on her mind. Shit, that sounded bad. It's not that she had feelings for him, or that she wanted to date him. Hyunji liked to be noticed, no she loved it. Her parents barely gave her the time of day, Jungkook wasn't around as often and she felt lonely. Jaehyun made her smile, he gave her compliments. As she walked down the hallway with him she couldn't ignore the looks she got. It felt good.

I was never anyone important, always overlooked. Now I sit next to the most popular kids in school.

Then she felt guilty as fuck. She imagined how Jungkook would feel, he would be upset. If the situation was flipped, Hyunji would surely be jealous to say the least.

Do I tell him and be honest? Or keep it to myself?

It would hurt him if I told him, but hurt him if I kept it to myself.

What'd ya think of Hyunjis new toy 😏😏