since talking on my message board sometimes feels like shouting into the void,, i will ramble about drafts and the like here 🙈🙈

i love the variety of my female mcs tho like 🤭🤭 #these r not all my drafts but i need to start revising and stop procrastinating

my arranged marriage draft;
- she goes from eldest daughter in a family she is the backbone in to being given as a wife to someone high up in the courts to aid her family's survival through the union
- she is nothing but perseverance personified
- sword fighting time / think the cruel prince/ georgian times
- the idea of her identity that was crafted by her father being shattered now shes in a position that was nothing like where she thought she'd be
- aspiring knight to wife pipeline?? jude duarte anyone?
- who is she really? she doesn't know
- her pinterest board

my rivals to lovers draft:
- my girlie's whole being allows me to delve into the "strong black woman" stereotype and tear it apart
- its her against the world, she wont let anyone in, she's been failed too many times by people meant to protect her / be there for her
- she'd choose to be the rude black woman who gets things done in the school council as deputy rather than someone who's trampled over
- she wont show her anger though, she will bottle it and bottle it until her viens are bubbling with it, till her heart is powered by it, pumping with a different sort of redness
- she can't be the angry black woman tho! people will trust her less and think of her as stupid rather than the second (damn her rival!!) smartest person in the year. she needs to be cold but in control, that way she can get what she wants in a school where money is key (and something she doesnt have)
- direct questions about her feelings mess her up, they make her feel vulnerable and thats the last thing she allows, she will RUN!!
- emotionally unavailable bb (she is a shut up)
- her pinterest board

coastal town draft:
- solara my sunshine child where do i begin?
- she's a wilting flower too used to being under her parents shade
- she gets a new (or rather old) support system in the costal town she frequented when she was younger and grows close again with her summer friends
- think of a plant thats lived amongst weeds its whole life and is now placed in rich soil and sunlight,, that's basically her story
- neurodivergent rep bc why are black kids forced to fit a narrative

anyways thats the end to my silly little rambles for now (i need to revise i tell myself as i dream of A's and A* and getting into my chosen uni),,

- el 😘