tired of living, scared of dying.
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「the doctor beams at a tired seokjin who has a small weak smile on his face」

DOCTOR:
"hello there seokjin!
feeling better?"

JIN:
"i'm okay."

DOCTOR:
"that's great to hear.
i need to ask some questions
if you don't mind me."

JIN:
"ask away."

DOCTOR:
"do you have
fainting spells
now and then?"

JIN:
"occasionally."

DOCTOR:
"on what kind
of occasions?"

JIN:
"when i....."

JIN:
"inflict pain
on myself."

DOCTOR:
"when you wake up,
what do you see?"

JIN:
"i would see a bandage
on my arm."

JIN:
"and i would
be on my bed."

「the doctor scribbles his answers down on a small notepad」

DOCTOR:
"ah, i see.
does anything
unusual happen?"

JIN:
"not really....."

JIN:
"maybe some bloody
messages on my mirror."

DOCTOR:
"interesting."

DOCTOR:
"have you ever thought
of suicide, seokjin?"

JIN:
"yes. many times."

JIN:
"it's just that...."

JIN:
"something is
stopping me."

DOCTOR:
"thank you for your time.
you'll be discharged in a
few days so just hang in
there, alright?"

JIN:
"thanks."

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NAMJOON:
"what did he say doc?"

DOCTOR:
"he mentioned about
hallucinations as well
as suicidal thoughts."

NAMJOON:
"hallucinations?"

DOCTOR:
"have you seen
the mysterious
messages
on his mirror?"

NAMJOON:
"erm yes. "

DOCTOR:
"how strange.
fainting spells, messages on
the mirror plus he has no
recollection of patching
himself up afterwards."

NAMJOON:
"thanks doc for your help."

DOCTOR:
"no problem. will look at
his prescription again."

DOCTOR:
"maybe a high dosage
isn't good for him."

「the doctor leaves while namjoon stands outside of the door that leads to seokjin's ward, hesitant to enter」

NAMJOON:
"maybe it's not a good time
to tell him about his-"

NAMJOON:
"forget it. i should
be there for him."

NAMJOON:
"but i wonder why..."

NAMJOON:
"jin never told me that
he had a younger brother."