a/n its so short im so sorry i hate myself (also, small doodles of mirror ball characters including frank's aliens)

Chapter VI - Everything has changed

Someone once told me that I was like spongebob (or was it spongeblob?) in an asylum. I don't know what a spongeblob nor what an asylum is, but that's what I felt like right now; A blob of sponge.

It I had been a week since the coughing started, and it showed no sign that it was planning to subside.

Maybe sponge was the wrong word to use.

It had also been a week since I gave Gerard my file. What he was planning on doing with it, I had no idea, but I trusted him. Gee was now more around me, didn't leave me for more than a few seconds and I wasn't complaining. My every day routines went by as usual. Group sessions, talking to Nestor, meals, other sessions, taking my pills. I was starting to get used to the amount of pills I now had to take. Even though my head and tummy hurt more and I cried and yelled and screamed more than before, I felt more awake. So awake that I lie every night in my bed, staring up at the ceiling, hearing the aliens whisper horrible things in my ear. I would also jump every time someone spoke to me. The smallest noise or movement would give me a minor heart attack and send me flying to the roof.

Bob, Ray and Bert talked to me now and then, mostly during breakfast, lunch and dinner. I guess they were pretty busy and didn't have time to come check on me or just chat. It made me feel kind of bad, but I didn't blame them, I was really lame. Maybe they had started to hang out with cooler people. Whatever, I had Gee.

I had just made my way to my room after I had taken my pills when someone knocked on the door. Before I got the chance to reply in any way, the door opened up and Gerard stepped inside. I noticed my documents tucked underneath his armpit.

"Hey, what's up?" He asked before sitting down on the bed.

I looked up, "The roof?" I answered confused.

Gerard just blinked at me for a few seconds, but in my side-view I could see Gee smiling. I didn't know why. Had I said anything funny?

"I have an important question to ask you" Gerard took my hand, focusing on my bitten nails.

"Yeah?"

"Do you remember me? From years ago?"

I was utterly confused. I shook my head and Gerard let out a heavy yet shaky sigh, "I don't understand" He looked back at Frank with a tired and hopeless look.

"I don't understand either" I whispered. I really didn't.

Suddenly Gerard moved closer to me, grabbed my cheeks, trapping my head between his two big, calloused hand. I couldn't decide whether I liked it or not, but it definitely did something to my tummy. It didn't feel like when Dr. Burn did it, I don't know what it felt like, it was a totally new feeling.

"Maybe this will help you understand" Gerard whispered, his lips meeting mine.

-

The bugs are crawling all under my skin, I tried to scratch them out, releasing them to the fresh air, but I only dug them deeper in. The aliens had visited me last night again. But despite everything I still managed to walk around with a smile on my face. The smile hurt, but nobody needed to know about the bugs or the aliens.

The feeling of sickness and disease had increased severely during the day, but as always I chose to ignore it. I had mentioned it to Dr. Nestor, but she had just furrowed her eyebrows in surprise, telling me not to worry. "It's probably just a minor cold on it's way. Tell me when it gets worse and maybe I'll prescribe you some meds" before quickly switching the subject. Even though she had brushed it off as nothing, I still noticed the frantic look in her eyes and the slight panic.

People seem to think that just because I'm stupid, I don't notice things. They are wrong.

-

At the end of the day, I was just floating around, not aware of time and place. Annoyed glances were thrown at me. I probably stumbled into several people, and if i did, I didn't notice. But I noticed the hard glares sent to the back of my neck.

It wasn't until I found myself in the bathroom, pressed up into a corner that I woke up. I couldn't remember what I had been thinking or dreaming about as I had wandered around, but I had a vague memory of dirty hands touching me, touching me everywhere. I didn't understand where the hands were coming from, what they were doing here or what it meant. All I knew is that I wanted them gone, I wanted them to leave me alone.

I soon noticed how cold and sweaty my forehead felt, the rapid pace I was breathing in and how my whole body was in a shaky state. My limbs twitched with a few seconds pause and I couldn't control it.

I didn't know how long I had been sitting there for, it could have been 5 minutes or it could have been 5 hours, coughing, feeling like death, before I heard footsteps. They seemed to start far away, my vision was so blurred all I saw was colors. Bright, cold colors that reminded me of grimy water. It smelled like grimy water too. Something warm suddenly touched me. It was a hand, but it wasn't like the other hands. This hand was welcoming.

It was Gerard. I thought I was going to die alone because Gee had left me and was nowhere to be seen. Gerard had probably called out my name several times, but my brain hadn't picked it up, my brain was too busy with other stuff to deal with the outside world. He pulled me into a warm embrace, a hug, letting out a warm breath of relief that hit my shoulder and neck. His arms and breath seemed to scare away the cold, dirty hands. I was suddenly hit with a coughing fit, and I felt bad for coughing into his chest, but I couldn't control it. I couldn't control anything, and I started sobbing. Coughing and sobbing into his chest.

"Oh my God, Frankie," Gerard gasped, lifting me up, "oh my God, I'm so sorry for everything that ever happened to you. It was all my fault. I wasn't there when you needed me."

And those words were the last words I heard before I-

a/n

fuck seriously im really fucking sorry its so short. its been 2 months since last update and i found some old notes and i wa slike "fuck it" and put it all together and 1 hour later im posting this. its not edited.

Basically, next chapter is the last one. Im sorry. when i started this, i knew it wasnt gonna be long, and i started this mainly just to get my wattpad and writing started and going. and i have to say ive gotten very far, and im ready to start on new projects. This story is coming to an end anyway.

i'll try to make next update longer. its kinda hard not to, i have alot of explaining to do.

anyway, see ya.

peace love suck a dick

-zoo