People who know me well say that I sacrifice too much for her.  But what else can I do?  I'm madly in love with that person, bewitched by her smiling facade.  I hate her fickle ways, her forgetfulness, her cruelty, but that is what keeps me chained to her.  I try to break away from this odd unrequited love, yet she pleads for me to stay, to remain by her side as always.  The mask I wear in front of her is slowly crumbling, but she doesn't care.  All those false mundane pleasantries I recite daily have become real to her.

Lies.  All lies.

I lie to keep her.  I'm so selfish.  She trusts me, but I betray her behind her back to others because she has deserted me.

You think you can keep me like this?  With your false seduction and sweet words of admiration?  I wish I could break away.  Over and over again, you crush my heart, yet who do I keep bringing it back to you?  Am I some sort of masochist who loves the pain of my soul melting away, the sound of my heart being rend once again?  My estranged mind, you, you!  Why did it have to be you?  You're the one who has changed me - no, forced me! - to be this way.  You talk of your previous ones, you bring others to your side who push me away with scorn.  I do your every beck and call, yet all I see is your back.

                                             Why won't you look at your lonely loyal dog?

Yes, I finally admit it.  I'm a dog.  Beaten, bruised, broken, alone.  Why can't I stop loving her?

Even right now, as she excitedly talks with another, my hairs are on edge, my ears set back, a low growl in my throat.

Am I still wild?  Perhaps, yes.  I've been this lonely omega for far too long.  Perhaps it's better that way.  Because it seems like I'm just useful to listen.  I can't do anything else that's of worth to please her since all her whishes are always on a whim.

Why can't you desert me once and for all, so that I can move on with the little rest of my life that I have left?

Suicidal?  No, I'm a coward.

Depressed?  No, just oppressed.

Clingy?  No, but under a strong spell.

                                                               This is the blessed cursed life

                                                                             Of a lonely loyal dog.

                                                       Dear Mistress,

                              Please set me free.  My heart aches.  I love you.

                                                        Sincerely,

                                               Your only loyal dog left