Lgbtq+

Please don't hate me for this.

I'm not going to bash someone or anyone or anything, but i'm afraid someone out there is going to disagree or going to hate me for this.

I don't know, i just felt like it will have an impact for whoever read this.

Although it will never have view.

And yeah, i'll keep on dwelling in the saltness and open wound of how this will became a daily thing and no one would give a pear about it.

That gives me mixed feeling, like i'm happy for having an online diary that's very private, but at the same time i'm procrastinating from my life and school and everything i shouldn't put on secondhand by writing this.

Back on the train tracks, i'm worried if anyone read this, its not going to settle well on their stomach.

Especially if lgbt isn't embraced well here.

Yeah, here. Is my country. Asia. Racist.

Idk what to describe it as.

Don't get me wrong, sometimes we're really nice and diverse. Sometimes, i want to know myself why the minorities are verbally abused like that.

Being the minority amongst the minority.

Okay, the topic of lgbt.

First thing first.

What did i identify as?

I identify as straight female.

Actually i would love to tell you i'm pansexual.

But straight works just fine.

Anyways, pansexual means if i fall in love, i fall in love.

There's no in between.

No female, or male.

Only love.

I don't care anything besides loving that someone.

I don't care whichever gender they are.

Are we all clear?

Okay?

Then lets start of from the back.

Trans.

How do people view it as?

Okay, so living here all my life in this one city has taught me several things.

I never seen anyone from the lgbt community here.

Non, zero, nothing.

So i never had an encounter with a real trans before.

But it certainly doesn't have a good reaction.

I never encounter 'real' trans, but i've come across someone who almost become one.

Let's just say, the reaction when people know isn't that friendly.

The people who knows them are accepting enough, but people couldn't hide their distaste towards them.

(I'm using them/they pronouns, in case it will trigger the person or maybe trigger anyone else who mind if i reveal the true gender of them)

people doesn't embrace nicely the fact that someone is trying to change what the heaven has given to you since birth.

(I'm using the 'Heaven', since we are diverse in everything, including religion. Religion is a really sensitive matter here, so... every religion has a heaven, right? I don't even know.)

'trying to change gender means that you go against the nature.'

Thats how people view them as.

Its no surprise that they'll be treated with distaste or piercing glares.

But i'm sure not everyone is like that, this is what the bad thing people might think in my opinion.

Moving on to the next two,

The L and the G.

Okay, so the term Gay has been used as a joke or an insult once or twice for my everyday life.

Never had i found a real person openly admitting they're either Lesbian or Gay.

(Maybe because i'm not an adult yet, but i'm sure none of my parents and relatives know one either)

and i'm seriously not talking that topic with my parents.

My parents are quite laid back on some things, like my grades. Since my grades are pretty okay.

But i don't know their pure view on something.

My brothers know that i'm supportive of lgbt, and that's that.

(I actually likes the relationships between two men. You know, typical fujoshis. I don't mind lesbian relationship either, but i don't read those daily)

my brothers and i are a very open-minded person.

We're the millenials after all.

But i'm sure my brother's has a slight discomfort about it.

But it doesn't hurt their lives, so they don't care at all.

Personally. I don't care if you love someone from the same gender or not.

(You might notice why haven't i write the three lettered word that ends with and x and starts with an s. Yes, i'm scared of using that word. What can i say? I'm only three months away from being legal.)

love is love.

It exceeds language, distance, genders, races, age, and anything else my brain forget to mention.

Except it includes toxic relationship and abuse, then that's a problem.

And besides, its cute to see love. So cute that i might throw up. Help this single lonely girl please.

So, about the peers view on them.

I already said this before, yeah?

That the topic religion is very sensitive?

Yes.

Everyone had a religion. Everyone. Without exception. (Except if they claim otherwise themself. The citizenship would tell you the opposite tho)

so they all had a religion (in their citizenship at least)

And nowhere in those religions is listed to be alright with same gender relationships.

It it banned on the bible, that i know for sure.

But someone once said that we shouldn't take the bible as it is, but then again... i don't want to stray from the topic anymore. Stop.

So being a gay or lesbian is seen as taboo and that's why no one ever come out as one.

If changing your gender is seen as weird, why would they accept the same gender love?

Makes sense, i would think.

So, moving on.

How about loving both gender?

How about bisexual?

And now, my dear reader (myself, mostly) i don't exactly know myself.

I would throw pansexual and bisexual into the same category, but i know people would say otherwise.

And i have to do what people said. I'm just a weird kid who searches up things in the internet, what do i know about the community?

So one day, my brother said something about the bohemian rhapsody movie.

(Spoiler-like spoiler)

That the main character was actually bisexual(?). I don't know, i haven't ask the man either. Have you?

And he said "how ridiculous of him. Liking both men women."

Which leaves me wondering with burrowed eyebrows, thinking;

"What's so wrong about that?"

And there you have it.

Nothing at all.

Nothing you could take from it.

Hahaha....

I'm useless, aren't i?

I'm going to talk about how people treat idols as things, and how my view about people making stories or them, or how people making the people they idolize as gay even though they're not.

Bye