>> I'm sowwy Tori! I wanna do it. I can do Laurance and Andi soon too if you want... X3 <<

>> Also! This is a mix between different roleplays I have done with two people @MangledSepicEye and
KittyWritezStuffz
It is legit a mix between the two. JUST BY SOME OF WHAT HAPPENED. This is not a complete copy of it.<<
Jacklynn

I stared into oblivion. Otherwise known as my room. It was just a void of all of my trouble.

I need to get away from it... But I only know one way out of it.

And it isn't very pretty. I don't want my trouble. I just want a life...

I sighed before getting up from the bed. I wrapped my hands in the violet bandanas that I kept from my old village. I pulled my sleeves down after I loosely tied the bandanas around my wrists.

I winced at first from the cloth-to-cut feeling but I didn't really care anymore.

No I wasn't cutting... not this time anyway.

I had cuts from when I was attacked. I just hate letting others see them.

It's annoying when people ask me "Are you okay!?" or "Do you need any help!?"

I don't want help. Though one darn Cassanova insists it constantly.

Laurance.

He's changed a lot since he left Meteli. He cut his hair for the first time in years and dyed it brown and his eyes changed too.

He's a total new person. Even though he's still the same flirty guy.

I walked down to the docks. The lights started to dim as the sun set.

I was quiet. The only sound was the crunching of gravel under my bare feet.

I'm just like a child. Bare feet and a dress.

Cadenza keeps telling me I look pretty. But I don't.

I'm not who she thinks I can be.

My dress is blue with purple. My tail stays under the skirt because when she was getting stuff to make it, no one knew I was a Meif'wa.

And technically, no one knows still.

I just keep my ears under a thick headband and my tail against my skin.

I don't like being told what I am... It just makes me feel horrible.

I got to the hill where I could just walk to the docks. There was no one there. Perfect.

The stone steps were brand new since the guys put them in a week or two ago. I walked down, my warm feet lightly stepped on the cold stone.

I'm not really the best person I could be.

Underweight, Sleep Deprived, and everything else that is wrong with me.

I hate it. People used to make fun of me because of it.

Soon the sand was between my toes as I walked onto the docks. The boards made a quiet creak sound as I walked on them.

I sat on the edge of the docks, staring out to the water.

It was really amazing.

I wish this could be like this for forever.

I sat there in silence for a while before I heard the boards click as someone walked on them. I didn't even bother to look.

"Mind if I sit beside you, Jacklynn?" A familiar voice said.

"Nope." I popped the 'p' as I answered.

"Okay." He sat beside me.

I softly looked over. The guy pulled his guard helmet off. His light brown hair was in his eyes before he brushed it away.

Laurance... great...

"Is something wrong or am I in trouble." I said, sitting up right.

"Neither." Laurance said. "Other than you stealing my heart."

I looked at him with a partial scowl. "Are you serious."

"Okay! Okay!" He defensively put his hands in the air. "I forgot you don't like flirty people."

I looked down and away from him. "It's fine." I mumbled.

He sat down beside me. "Is something wrong?"

"Other than you, nope." I lied, looking at him.

He raised an eyebrow. "I think you aren't. When you aren't bothered, you never look at me. Especially after you mention me as a problem."

"How do you know..." Was all I could say.

"You do it around me a lot. Usually you start to walk off." He chuckled.

I really hated him... But he was right. I hate it when he's right.

"I can't sleep. Or be around my room."  I softly said.

"Why not?" He asked softly, a look of concern on his face.

"... Why do you care." I looked at him completely.

"Because I am still a guard. I want to help you out on any way I can." Laurance said.

I quietly looked down. "It's just..." I said. "Never mind."

He was quiet for a moment before he said, "Jacklynn, you can tell me anything. I know something is bugging you."

I looked at him. "I can't sleep because of stuff haunting me and my room makes it even worse."

"What kind of stuff?" He asked.

"Why should I say?"

He raised an eyebrow. "Because I want to help you. And help involved no secrets."

I was quiet. "Shadow Knight side..." I mumbled under a whisper.

"What?" He asked, obviously not hearing.

"It's dumb Shadow Knight stuff okay!?" I snapped.

"I can tell." He said calmly.

I bit my lip, looking at my hands.

This very faint red aura was on my skin. My eyes flickered with tears. "I don't want it." My voice cracked. "I don't want it..." My watering eyes had small tears going down my cheeks.

He gently put his hands on the sides of my cheeks. He gently made me look up at him. "I know." He said softly. "I know that feeling."

My breathing I tried to keep steady but every moment I just wanted to cry. Tears slipped out of my eyes faster than before.

Laurance softly moved his thumbs against my skin, wiping away the water falling down my face. "Jackie... please don't cry."

I just looked at him for a minute. I tried not to but I just broke down crying. I pulled away from his hands, crying into my own.

I didn't know what Laurance was doing. He didn't say a word. I just cried.

I felt someone's arms pull me closer to them. I still cried, my face by their chest.

"It's okay, Jackie. It's okay." Laurance softly said, trying to help me calm down.

It took a while for me to stop crying.

"Hey Jackie?" He softly asked.

I sniffed, looking up slightly. "Y-Yeah?"

"Can you look at me?" He asked again.

I softly nodded, moving so I could.

Right as I saw his whole face, he kissed me.

My eyes widened before I pushed him in surprise.

Which was the worst thing to do. We were still on the docks and right as I got back from the initial force...

We both fell off the docks.

I went back up, coughing.

"Are you ok- whoa..." Laurance said. He looked surprised.

"What?" I asked.

"Am I imagining things or do you have ears..."

"Well duh I have ears. Why can I hear you." I said, seeing that as a dumb question.

"I meant these." He slowly went towards me before reaching up.

I then felt my ears flick forward before I went back. "Whoa whoa whoa. What the heck." I said, the stern in my voice, but I couldn't make my face look serious.

"How long have you been a Meif'wa?" He asked.

I looked down. "My whole life..."

"Why haven't I seen it? Or any of us?" He softly asked, a few feet from me.

"I don't like who I am..." I answered quietly.

"Why not? I think it is a really nice thing." Laurance complimented me.

I was quiet. "I don't like myself anyway..."

He looked at me. He gently put his hand under my chin, lifting my head to look at him.

"Why don't you like yourself?"

"I'm weird, a Shadow Knight, and I'm a Meif'wa. Why else!?" I snapped.

He was calm still which was driving me crazy.

"How can you be so calm when I'm talking to you." I said.

"Because I don't want to just freak out or make you feel even worse." Laurance softly said.

"But why...?" I quietly asked.

"Because I care for you. A lot. And it hurts me to see you sad or upset." Laurance said.

I was quiet. I softly looked at him.

He may be ridiculously rude and flirty... but I guess I just jumped to conclusions...

"Can we try it again?" He asked.

"Try what?" I asked.

He smiled lightly, swimming less than a foot in front of me. "A kiss."

I looked at him. "Okay... fine."

"Jackie..." He said. "If you don't want to, I'm fine with that." He said.

I looked down. "You just surprised me before..." I softly said.

He chuckled.

I looked up at him. He gently cupped my cheeks before kissing me lightly.

A rush of adrenaline made me want to push him away. I never liked it when people made physical contact with me. But... this time was different.

I wasn't used to it, physically, but my mind seemed to know to kiss back.

He smiled lightly before pulling away a few minutes later.

I opened my eyes which I didn't realize were closed.

He smiled at me brightly.

I blushed lightly.

"I love ya, Jackie."

I smiled softly. "I love ya too Laurance." I softly said.

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