It is called susPENSE
Also, the bold is one person, underline is another. Don't get mixed up. :3

"Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you." The candles on the cake flickered back and forth, the two flames dancing together.

"Happy birthday, Ho-ope," I leaned over my lap and kissed my daughter's nose. "Happy birthday to you."

Hope giggled happily. She closed her eyes. "I wish to see Santa Claus this year." She giggled her wish before looking up at me. "And mommy can help me blow candles out."

I chuckled lightly, kissing her forehead again. "On three." I softly said, her nodding in response.

"One." The snow trucks outside rumbled on the street like thunder.

"Two." The snow falling clung to the warm window, melting.

"Tree!" Hope squealed before we blew out the candles together.

I smiled as the child went to turn the lights back on in the dining room.

She was smaller than most girls her age, but I always told her that was what made her unique.

Hey girly! My friend texted me. I giggled at his text.

Hey Charming. Hang on like 2 secs.

"Mommy! Cake!" Hope giggled.

I laughed lightly before cutting her a piece and giving it to her on a plate.

Srry bub. HM wanted some cake. I texted him.

It's okay princess. Tell her happy birthday 4 me!

I smiled. "Hope, Charming says happy birthday, honey."

Hope giggled. "Tank chu!"

She said thx. I texted him.

Im glad. Also, I wanted 2 ask u smthg

Mk... wat is it???

I want 2 in it u & HM 2 a Christmas party

Well sure. Where is it?

1212 MyStreet Circle

Ok... When is it? I swear I have heard of that address before.

Christmas Eve, it's a party w/ some friends so, yea

Ok. I'll b there a/ HM then!

=] alright! C u then! I hope...

I sighed. What if he's not who I think he is? He could just be... A creepy old man... But, I trust him.

Hope crawled into my lap. She yawned, her eyes droopy from exhaustion. I smiled. "Ready for bed sweetheart?" I asked her softly.

Hope nodded her head as I picked her up and brought her upstairs. She was breathing slightly heavier. I sighed, setting her down on her bed and walking over to the closet, pulling out an oxygen tank.

Since she was two months early, her lungs weren't fully developed. If we leave thevhiuse, she has to wear it. At home, she just has to when she goes to bed.

I gently put the mask on over her nose and mouth before turning it on. Hope yawned again as she looked up at me. "Night Mammi."

I gently kissed her forehead. "Good night, honey." I softly whispered. She smiled before falling asleep. I gently hummed, striking her bright blonde hair.

After about five minutes or so, I went into my room before into my bathroom. Memories strolled through my mind before I saw a glint of silver.

... I miss it... I miss him...... I picked up the thing. It had been so familiar to me, yet the touch of the cold metal was a foreign feeling.

The sharp object touched the old scars gently before slowly sliding against them. It stung from the object, making me wince. I missed it so freaking much apparently...

I sighed before hanging my wrists over the sink and started to just son. I fell into it... I told myself never to touch that again. I scared myself into sobbing even more.

It's... I need to stay strong... For Hope Maria...

I got some cosmetics out of the bathroom cabinet. I put disinfectant ointment on the cuts before wrapping my wrists with the medical wraps. My phone buzzed with Charming's message.

Hey, I wanted to ask... how are you doing? Charming texted.

I sighed as I almost started crying. I did it again...

What do you mean!? He texted me, almost worriedly.

remember how I told u of me cutting while I was preg w/ HM...

yes... how could I forget, Princess?

I just did.... Then the waterworks began.

What!?!?!?

I softly cried into my pillow when it buzzed again.

Princess, it's okay... look, when u come in a day or two, we can talk about this 2gether. I promise.

... What if u dont lik me when we meet...

U r my princess. I luv u. Even if you aren't like other women, I luv the way YOU r

I smiled lightly. Same back 2 u, Charming

Alright. It's getting late girly. Ttyt?

TtytC. I smiled before setting my phone onto the charger.

I closed my eyes as I fell asleep. The baby monitor for Hope's room by my phone.

This is all for her... I can do this. I can keep going on for her.

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Hope had a new headset for her to wear. She giggled. "It isn't clunky anymore!"

I laughed lightly as I gently slid it over her head, the thin tube running under her nose. "Ready to test it, sweet pea?" I asked as she nodded with a smile.

I turned the tank on as she breathed. It worked! "Alright. And, guess what." I smiled.

"What?" Her eyes lit up. I smiled.

"Here's your early Christmas present from me." I softly said as I pulled a small backpack out from behind my back. It had all if the Disney princesses on it. She squealed. "Aw!" She smiled.

I giggled softly as I gently set the oxygen tank inside. She smiled before kissing MY cheek. "Tank chu Mammi!"

"You're welcome, baby girl." I softly said as she put the bag on her back. "Let's goooo!" She giggled.

I smiled before nodding. "Get your coat on, sweetheart." I reminded her.

"Okie mammi!" She went and got her pink coat, it looking just like my (f/c) coat. She slid her backpack off before putting her coat on, then the bag again as I slid my coat on as well.

Hey. We're heading out. 1212 My Street Cirlce right?

He replied after a minute. Mk! Can't wait 2 c u & HM!

Same. C u! Hope and I headed out. The violet colored furbpining her coat tickled her skin as she pulled her hood up before the falling snow touched her hood.

I smiled before pulling my own hood up. I gently held Hope's hand as we walked to the address.

When we got there, Hope knockedbpn the door. I giggled softly as the door opened.

"Hello, hello! You must be Charming's friend!" A kind woman's voice said.

Hope giggled. "Hiyo!" She squealed before the woman let us in.

"That's some snow, isn't it." She said before shutting the door. She turned to the main room. "Charming! Your friend is here!" She cheerfully said.

I smiled lightly as I carefully helped take off Hope's coat, my coat hood still over my head.

"Hey, Princess." A guy said to me. I smiled lightly before pulling my good off and looked up to the person who was Charming.

My eyes watered as his widened.

"(y/n)?" He breathed.

"G-Garroth?" I stuttered.

Part two. Part three coming soon.