!Mentions of self harm!

John felt alone. He sat on the floor of the bathroom with water almost as cold as ice filling up the tub. He sat next to the tub feeling nauseous and alone. The were pills he had just taken and the razor in his hand. He was a mess now.

*Earlier*

John had came back home, feeling not so good. He wasn’t sick that he knew of. Unless you count being told that there are fake stories of you cheating as being sick. He Felt sick to his stomach though. 

“Really John?! How could you?!” He heard Alexander Yell out in an upset tone. John could tell that they’ve read the stories He wanted to tell them that He didn’t do it but He for some reason couldn’t it was Like he was frozen in place.

“ Care to explain yourself?” Thomas asked.

“I…. i.. Umm…..” I say softly as tears started to appear a bit. They weren’t to noticeable.

“Thought so… We’ll talk about this tomorrow. For now were are getting a hotel room for tonight.” Alex said before leaving. Thomas just looked at John with a disappointed look before following Alexander.

*Now*

John had been in there alone for about 4 hours crying and all that. He wasn’t Hungary and he wasn’t tired so it wasn’t like he would wait for tomorrow by watching movies and eating or just going to bed really early. So he stayed in the bathroom. Thats when He started to cut. 

3 cuts for being silent

3 cuts for having Thomas and Alexander think he was cheating

3 cuts for not stopping them

Another 3 cuts for being a terrible little brother

John stopped. He put the razor down and after a bit got into the tub of freezing cold water. He stayed in there for at least 5 minutes when He heard the front door open and talking before he passed out.

Alexander’s p.o.v:

“We are terrible boyfriends! We are fucking horrible!” Thomas said in a panic. Sure we were mad at john But I have no Idea How the fuck we thought it was a good Idea to leave him the fuck alone when this was happening. Not only that but we had just ran into his Ex a few weeks ago and His Fucking Ex said somethings when They were alone. John had barely started to eat again even though he had barely stopped eating normal amounts.

We were downtown at a small restaurant since we were hungary and Thomas had gone through our shared blog. We had only started it two months ago but we had a bunch of pictures. The reasons he was going through it was because one of our followers told us that they couldn’t believe John would cheat on us since He loved us a whole lot and looked really happy in the pictures. Another person asked How john was and If he really did cheat. 

“Hey alex, do you think he’ll be ok alone?” I hear Thomas asked. 

“.....Holy shiiiiiiii- WE ARE SO DAMN DUMB!” I shout as I rushed to the car. 

“What do you mean?”

“ THOMAS, JOHN ALONE WHERE WE CAN”T MAKE SURE HE IS SAFE AND THAT HE IS EATING! WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK I MEAN?!” I asked as I pulled out and drove as fast as I could back to the house. Thomas had understood and was as panicked as I was now. 

“We are so fucking dumb.” He kept saying. We get out of the car and run into the house. No john in sight so we split and go around looking for him. I went into the bathroom first mainly because the light was on. I walk in and gasp at the sight. John was in the bathtub out cold and Shaking. He was also bleeding a bit too. I quickly pull him out of the freezing cold tub and check for a pulse. 

“THOMAS! CALL AN AMBULANCE!” I yell out as I make sure that the water is drained and that john was dressed and all that. I also bandaged his arms were he had fresh cuts on it.

“Ok they are on their way….. Oh god.” Thomas said as he came to the door were I now was with john.

“I know. Come on. You stay with john. I’ll drive the car.” I say as I head downstairs with john’s smaller body that was still shaking. Now that I take note of that I realised that I really didn’t have to check a pulse with the way he was shaking. We get outside and the ambulance soon arrives. I hand John to the paramedics and Thomas jumps in with them to saty with john as I go to the car and start it up again.

“Please be ok John… we are so damn sorry.” I say softly even though im alone in the car following the ambulance. I soon parked the car in the hospital driveway and run in to find Thomas. We sat in the waiting room for about 3 hours before a nurse came up and took us to John’s room. We walked into the room looking at John. He was awake but it still hurt to see him like that. Laying down on a hospital bed. 

“j-John?” I ask softly moving slowly towards him with thomas looking down a bit in guilt.

“l-Lexi? T-Tommy?” John asked softly. He sounded a bit scared now. He also sounded like he had been crying even though he woke up about ten minutes ago from what the nurse said. I also took not the his bright green eyes were a lighter almost like it was a crystal like green color. 

“Thats us baby.” Thomas said getting a bit closer to him and gently putting his hand on john’s

“I-Im s-So s-sorry.” John says stifling in a small cry. 

“ No, You dont need to be sorry, We Shouldn’t have left you alone.” I say taking his other hand gently.

“B-but, I-I m-made m-my m-magic g-go c-crazy a bit. I-I… l-lost a bit o-of m-my eyesight…..” John said. Yes John did have magic and yes it can affect him a little or alot. So thats why he wasn’t really looking at us and why his eyes were like that.

“Baby, its not entirely your fault…. Plus it’ll only be for a couple of days, you didn’t loose it forever.” Thomas said. If you were wondering, Yes john has had this happen before a couple of times. Before this one, it was when he stopped eating. And before that, it was because some duches decided to try and see how much they could hurt him. Granted me and Thomas soon found them and beat their asses. Its at least happened a couple of time. He had the little magic thing happening to him when we first started to date. He was constantly hiding from His crazy ass Ex so he put a lot of stress or harm onto it, which made the magic go a bit crazy. That first week we started to date, Me and Thomas thought that either He was deaf or he was ignoring us. After a few days he came back to hearing but then the next day he was blinded a bit and He started to freak out a bit when for one of the rare occasions both me and Thomas woke up early and we had decided to cook a big breakfast. We were so damn worried that we took John to the hospital and his doctor had to explain that it would go away and everything we needed to know.

“I-I still h-harmed m-myself…” John mumbles a bit starting to cry silently. We gently hug him and say soothing words to him for about 30 minutes before we let go of him so that the nurses could check up on him. He did fall asleep before we let him go though. Soon after the nurses left, Me and Thomas had fallen asleep as well.

“Stay with him. DONT leave him.” A gentle female voice said. I looked around and noticed that I was still in the hospital room however I was outside of my sleeping body. ‘Wierd’ I thought. I looked over towards John and noticed a woman standing next to the bed that was like an older version of John with fire like hair instead of the brown curly hair.

“Who are you?” I asked

“Im his mother.”

(Part two?)